Who the hell are You

Zina’s Pov

I don’t even remember how I got into the bar. Scrap that!

I don’t even have the slightest memory of what happened after that slap, Valery had slapped me and Darren wasn’t angry. Wait! was I really thinking that someone as rich and spoilt as him would get married to me??

If he wasn’t going to marry me then why did he make me believed that he loved me? He promised me that once I’m done with school we’re getting married, and I have just few months left.

“Has he always been with Valery?”

“How long have they been hooking up while fooling me?” So many questions kept invading my mind, questions I had no answers to.

It was my mom’s constant calls and threatening text messages that pulled me back to reality, the glass of vodka I order sat empty on the table.

The calls came again, I didn’t have to check the caller Id to know who it’s was, obviously if it’s not my mother who else would it be?

“It’s her engagement for crying out loud, her marriage, her life. I don’t want to be a part of it, why does she desperately want to force me into it, I have my own mess to sort out”

I didn’t call her back, I wasn’t in the mood to talk to her so I did the only thing that I had control over which was switching off my phone and slipping it into my cross bag.

“Hey waiter can I get something stronger than the vodka?” I gestured to the lady in the counter that looked twice my age. She gave me a smile “would you like me to mix something for you? You seem sad so I’d suggest the Devil’s heart, it’s my signature cocktail drinks.”

“Sure whatever you have” I said waving to her approvingly.

When she brought the devil’s heart to me, she smiled and said “ if you’re not use to really strong drinks then this isn’t for you, because this is the strongest we have here, the after effects can be really tricky depending on your emotions” her smiles didn’t falter even once.

“ I’m really sure I can handle, the stronger the better” I said desperately because I really needed to drink.

She dropped it on the table and went back to her post. I drank alone in silence, the drink was too strong that it burnt my throat.

By the time I was done I looked around and noticed that I was actually the only customer left in the bar, I hadn’t even noticed when the others left, I managed to get up and walk over to the bar.

Whatever she gave me was too strong. I can’t blame her, it’s what I requested for.

Though I was conscious of the activities around me, I didn’t know how long that would last. The waitress left what she was doing and came over the where I stood.“you don’t seem okay should I get you a taxi?”

“No” I shook my hands and head to show disapproval “actually is there a nearby hotel here where I can sleep” I sounded a bit distorted.

She took a long look at me then gave me that charming smile again “would you be okay by yourself?”

When I saw that she was waiting for my response, I gave her a nod “yes I will be fine, I only need a hotel room where I can sleep, just for tonight”

“you can barely stand, how would you be able to get to your hotel room, there’s actually a hotel but it’s across the stress” she said pointing towards the hotel, it was just across the bar.

I paid my bills before walking out of the bar, the night breeze hit my face softly, the night was too beautiful for the said memories I was having.

The hotel was just few feets away but it felt like eternity. Each step felt like my body was tied to a log of wood. But Soon I was at the front desk.

“Hello please I would like to book a room” I said to the receptionist. A young beautiful girl who also had a beautiful smile on her face.

Everyone I met tonight seemed happy aside from me. They all had beautiful smiles on their faces except me. I didn’t smile back, I just looked at her blankly while she type into the keyboard.

“What’s your name?”

“Your age?”

“What kind of room would you like?” I answered all her questions impatiently but politely, I was too weak and needed to seat or probably sleep. When she was done typing my informations, she gave me a card “room 304, it’s on the fifth floor, the elevator is by your right, thank you for stopping by Meridan hotels” she added.

I took the card from her without sparing her another glance. I’m usually really cheerful and very polite but not tonight, not when my mom wants me to be part of her new found life so bad that she’s threatening to cut off my college funds. Not when I just found out that my one year relationship was nothing but a joke. He never touched me once, even when I always gave in clues.

The elevator opened and I slipped in, I caught a glimpse of my reflection on the elevator walls, I was a mess. My hair, my face it was red and Valery’s finger had left a mark on my right cheek.

I laughed weakly “ look at you Zina, how did you let yourself turn into this mess?” My subconsciousness asked me but I tried to shut it out.

“You’re Zina, a pretty smart lady, you’re better than this, you’re better than this bittered image in front of you” I heard my inner thoughts whispering, I sighed and looked away from my reflection on the on the mirrored wall.

The last thing I needed was anyone criticizing me right now not even my own reflection.

“Dingggg” the elevator opened and I staggered out.

My body was beginning to feel hot, so hot all over

I also felt so light that at some point I had to grab the wall while walking because it felt like I was floating.

“Room 304, Room 304, Room 304” I said it like a martyr. I needed to find that room so fast.

I felt like my shoes were slowing me down so I took them off. I’m sure anyone who saw me at that particular moment would think I was a lost puppy.

Room 304!! I looked carefully and I was clearly written in bold characters. “Thank goodness” I said placing the card on the door but it slipped. I tried again and it slipped again.

Now I was really sweating and frustration was written all over me.

“God please help me” I whispered before picking the card from the floor and this time the door opened.

“Thank goodness” I sighed before closing the door behind me.

Immediately I entered I could hear water rushing, it sounded like the shower was on.

“Maybe one of the staffs or the janitors forgot to turn it off” I whispered.

I just wanted to sleep but the the heat was getting unbearable, images of how Darren slammed into Valery started coming into my head.

It was my first time seeing a man’s naked body and he looked so hot, that thought in this drunken state made heat rushed all over my body, my nipples tightened and it felt like my pants were wet.

“No no no no” I rubbed my palms on my eyes trying to shut out images of Darren.

“I need to shower, maybe cold water would help” I pulled out my clothes and started walking towards the bathroom.

I opened the door and was about to step in but I stopped.

There was someone in the bathroom.

A man!

A naked man in my bathroom!!

“Am I dreaming” I asked no one in particular.

I closed my eyes and opened it slowly but he was still there.

“Oh I’m not dreaming” I smiled.

I was supposed to get scared, call the security or call for help but the alcohol had taken over my sanity.

My eyes were on his legs first, then they moved slowly to his hips. I paused, looked away but before I could stop myself, my eyes were on his length again.

He was so big not hard just big. I slammed my hands on my lips, taking my eyes off his length and finally looking at his face.

He was so handsome, his face had no expression. He looked a bit older than mom, maybe early forties, I wasn’t sure.

Instead of stepping out of the bathroom I stepped inside, whatever that drink was doing to me was making me reckless.

I entered into the shower while holding his gaze, his expression shifted to that of someone who was curious of what I was about to do. I reached out and touched his face and his lips I wanted to touch his chest but he held my wrist not roughly but enough to make me feel pains.

I smiled, and lifting my free hands towards his chest but he held it too. He said something for the first time and I did too, our questions overlapping the other.

“Are you and angel?”

“Who the hell are you?”