LOGINCammy POV
"So... are you nervous?" Justine asked, her voice light with amusement. She was my second cousin on Gran’s side, the daughter of Gran’s sister. "Yeah," I admitted honestly. "Don’t be." She giggled, throwing her arm around my shoulders in a casual hug. "You can just lay there and take it. The guy can do all the hard work the first time. He won’t mind, as long as he gets some!" "Justine—!" I gasped, staring at her in mortification as heat rushed to my cheeks, no doubt turning my face tomato red. The truth was, I was terrified. Terrified that I’d be bad at it—bad at everything. Even though I had secretly wished I could just get the mating bond over with, I wasn’t sure I was ready. The entire pack seemed to think I held their future in my hands, that I was destined to mate with the next Alpha. It had always been assumed. But what if I didn’t find my mate at the party tonight? Everyone would be there. That meant he had to be there. If he wasn’t… I would fail them. Fail my pack. My people. The thought made my stomach churn. And if I did find him? What if I let him down? The truth about me and sex was simple—there was no "me and sex." "Oh, come on, Cams! It’s the truth! As long as he gets these big gazongas, he’ll be a happy hound!" I laughed at her pathetic attempt at what I suppose was some sort of "sex-talk" meant to prepare me for tonight, as I swatted her playfully groping hand away from my chest. Justine wasn’t usually this crass, and we didn’t often talk about sex, but today was different. The excitement, the nerves—it made us act freer, more reckless than usual. I was usually too reserved, and Justine... well, she was a nineteen-year-old unmated she-wolf. Being unmated a year past maturity was painfully awkward for females. If I, at eighteen, was desperate to find my mate, I could only imagine how she must be feeling. We were wolves, and finding a mate as soon as you reached maturity was our way. Most days, the shame cast a faint shadow over her usually bright, tanned face. It was nice, this easy conversation, just messing around as we strolled past the shops, heading toward the salon to get our hair and nails done for the party. She suddenly hooked her arm around my shoulderd and ushered me into a store. I stopped dead in my tracks, causing her arm to slip from my shoulders. She turned back with a wicked grin. "Come on, Cams. We’ve got time to kill and need to do a little shopping before we get our hair done." With a flick of her dark hair, she sauntered further into the store. I was about to object, embarrassment bubbling up, but the words stuck in my throat. I wasn’t really embarrassed. This was just...something else. Something... new. I wanted to look at the lingerie. I wanted to let loose. And more than anything, I wanted to be sexy for my mate when he finally saw me for the first time. And the cotton underwear that I usually wore were super plain. ............. Kai Rutherford stepped out of his silver Lykan HyperSport, stretching as he took in the large hotel in front of them. The ride to the Pacific Northwest in his sleek machine had been exactly what he needed to unwind after all the bullshit back home. The two spliffs helped. So did Nathan’s company. Nathan had been his closest friend since childhood, their lives intertwined because Nathan’s father was Kai’s father’s Beta. He was even in somewhat of a relationship with Nate's little sister. If you could call their fuckery that. Nathan’s calm was a powerful gravity, balancing out the turbulence of Kai’s storm. The ride here. Fantastic. The reason for the trip? Bullshit. He sucked on his teeth, irritation bubbling up. He was here to represent his pack at some little girl’s birthday party. As a high ranking, unmated male, it was expected of him and his father had graciously accepted the fucking invitation on his behalf. He didn't give a shit that he was unmated. He enjoyed his freedom. "Fuck," he muttered, causing some guests leaving the hotel to jump and throw dirty looks his way. "What’s your fucking problem? Don’t look at me like that, motherfuckers," he snapped, voice dropping into a dangerous growl. Nathan chuckled beside him as the patrons quickly ducked their heads and scurried off. "Chill out, man" "I’m cool. Don’t worry about me," Kai growled. Fuck, he needed a drink. And to get laid. He had time before he had to make an appearance at Alpha Gerald’s party tonight. His father, Alpha King Sigfried of the Blue Shadow Pack, ruled over all wolf packs in the American territories. That made Kai the lucky ambassador of the Kingdom tonight. Fucking fantastic. They approached the hotel reception to sign in. The curvaceous blonde receptionist visibly flustered as the two men stepped up to the desk. Her eyes lingered on Kai, drinking in his tall frame, dark disheveled hair, and the brooding danger that clung to him like a second skin. His alpa instincts allowed him to take in her quickening heartbeat, heavier breaths, the slightest shade of pink creeping over her cheeks and chest. She stood up straighter, licked her painted pink lips and smiled. She gazed at me from beneath her false lashes and purred, "Welcome gentlemen. What can I do for you today?" He smirked. She was trying to be seductive. She would do.Cameron POV My feet slam against the earth and the house becomes a memory I can already feel slipping away. For the first time in days, the world is not a room with four walls and accusing eyes — it is sky and wind and the wet, honest smell of earth under my boots. I inhale, and the air is like a drug: cold, green, alive. It slides down my throat and sets every nerve alight. My hybrid senses wake like a predator roused. The wolf in me hums with the joy of space; the vampire in me drinks the metallic tang of blood on the breeze, not mine but somewhere ahead, a distant heartbeat threaded into the forest’s pulse. I taste it on the wind, almost sweet, buried beneath sap and moss. I let myself smile because even as guilt nips at the edges of me — that stupid, naive mercy that freed Edgar — my body remembers what it is to be free. My muscles loosen. My shoulders drop. My eyes sharpen to my surroundings. Kai’s shouts split the air behind me — orders, curses, the thump of men springing
Kai's POV Cammy's eyes widened when I marched through the front door with my men. A flicker of shock and hope flickered over her delicate features. My beast took possessive inventory of our mate, assessing that our mate was indeed safe. Of course she was. Her guilt had her caged better than bars ever could. She hasn't stepped outside all week. She'd been submissive, although I could find no pleasure in it. Just the ache from the knife she'd twisted painfully into my chest. The dark circles under her eyes and messy hair was evidence of her suffering. As she should be. If I was broken, then she should be too. I snapped my gaze from hers before she could speak and led my men through the house towards my home office. "Hey Cammy!" that idiot, Slade lifted Cammy off the couch and swept her into a hug. He was being too familiar and casual with my mate for my liking. I noticed all my men eying their future queen in relief after the encounter we just had. My wolf growled far more aggres
Cammy POV The next few days were slow and torturous. Kai wouldn't forgive me. He remained cold and distant, his every action a silent reminder of my mistake. I apologized every time we were alone, trying desperately to win my mate back, but it was no use. He barely acknowledged me beyond what was necessary. Instead, he buried himself in work—overseeing patrols, holding endless meetings with his father and the generals, reinforcing security measures. The Blue Shadows pack had always been strong, but I hadn’t realized how deeply militant they were until now. Every movement was calculated, controlled. Members followed strict, organized routines that allowed no room for spontaneity. No one ventured out alone anymore. The once lively energy of the pack was now tight and cautious—like a coiled spring ready to snap. When I watched the movement from the windows, I could see nothing but observant eyes and tense shoulders. Training was still in full swing, but in smaller groups, and the sc
Kai's POV The weight of her confession pressed down on me like a crushing force, suffocating and unrelenting. “I freed Edgar.” What the fuck?! The words echoed in my head, each syllable slicing through me, carving into something I wasn’t sure could heal. I was willing to risk everything for Cammy, to keep her secrets. But clearly, she was willing to risk everything to go against me. Without even considering what this would do to me or our people. And fuck, she had no idea what a sick bastard Edgar was. Cammy had made a mistake—a catastrophic, world-altering mistake. And she had just admitted it, eyes wide and brimming with guilt. But it wasn’t enough. The damage was done. Through our bond, I felt myself recoiling, closing off to her. A muscle ticked in my jaw as I forced myself to stay rooted, to keep from losing myself to the rage thrumming beneath my skin. My beast clawed at the surface, demanding action, demanding retribution. But from who? As furious as I was, as much a
Kai’s POV The forest was silent, but my mind was anything but. The truth sat heavy in my chest, a weight I couldn’t shake. Cammy—my sweet, gentle mate—was a fucking vampire hybrid. I could still hear her voice, soft and fragile, when she told me. I could see the way she curled into herself, waiting for my reaction, waiting for me to reject her. She had expected me to walk away. And for one, fleeting moment, I had. I had stepped out of the house, the walls closing in on me, my breath ragged as I shifted into my beast. I needed to run, to tear through the woods and let my instincts override the chaos in my head. My entire belief system had been shattered. I had spent my life hunting vampires, hating them, knowing them as nothing more than monsters that fed on the weak, taking pleasure in the suffering they inflicted. And now? Now, my mate—my entire fucking world—was part of them. "My mate." My wolf growled possessively, not happy with my thoughts. I ran until my lungs burne
Cammy POV The sun hung low on the horizon as I approached home, its fading glow casting long shadows across the path. Every step felt heavier than the last, my mind a storm of conflicting emotions. I'd spent the entire walk trying—and failing—to steady my nerves, but the weight of my actions pressed down on me in an unforgiving grip. Treason. That was what I’d just committed. A crime punishable by death. But somehow, what cut deepest wasn’t what I'd done against my pack or my alpha—the alpha king! It was what I'd done against Kai. What did this mean for us? For our bond? The thought of standing against him again made my stomach twist painfully. Would I do it again? Could I keep choosing this path if it meant going against the man I loved? And yet, how could I stand by and do nothing while my pack continued to hunt vampires as if their lives held no worth? This wasn’t just about Edgar anymore. This was bigger. I was caught between two sides. And I had no idea where I truly b
Kai POV I led her into the 3 meter high solid wood front door with my wolf carved into it. I gave her the grand tour of the 1400 square meter, 4 bedroom home and could feel that she liked it -a fucking lot! Thank you very much! I showed her to her room before I told her that mine was just down
Cammy POV Sprinting around the corner of my dad’s sprawling, European-style home, I shifted from my wolf into my human form. Barefoot, breathless, and moving at vampire speed, I flung open the door, rushed inside, and beelined for the closet. My hands grabbed the first thing they touched—a pale bl
Cammy POV "Hello." Kai reached over to the bedside table and answered the phone—while he was still inside me. My entire body stiffened. Not sure how I felt about that! "No problem, Alpha Gerald. Cammy and I were just waking up." My breath hitched. My grandfather. Kai was talking to my grandfath
Cammy POV "Do you like touching yourself, baby?" "N-No..." He probably thought I was a horny closet creep or something! I was still embarrassed, but not as much now with what our fingers were doing and how much I could feel it turned him on. "No?" He gently thrust his erection against my behi







