LilyMY HEART RACED in my chest, my palms growing slick with sweat. I was in the boat shed withKaiden Thatcher.Kaiden freaking Thatcher.How had this happened?Lindsey Filmer that’s how.She’d been pushing me, taunting me, shining the spotlight right on me, and something just snapped. I didn’t want to be the weird girl who never partied or never played their stupid games. For one night, for one small moment in time, I just wanted to be a normal teenager enjoying a party with her friends.Why was that so difficult?“Lily?” Kaiden asked, his brows furrowed. “Are you okay?”“I—” The words lodged in my throat as the room began to close in around me. “I’ll be fine,” I said, closing my eyes and inhaling a ragged breath.Leaning back against the wall, I pushed my hands behind me, trying to focus on something —anything—but the need building inside me.“Hey, if you’re uncomfortable, we can go.”“N-no, I just…” My eyes fluttered open, colliding with his. “I’m scared of small spaces.” It wasn’
She glanced between us and then zeroed in on me. “Are you okay? You look funny.”“I’m fine,” I said. “We should probably—” I motioned to the door and slipped around them both, inhaling a deep breath the second I got outside.I didn’t wait for them. I was too embarrassed, too confused about what had just happened. Kaiden had kissed me. But it felt like more… it felt like we’d shared a moment.Don’t do that, Lily. Don’t make it into something it isn’t. He was distracting you. That’s all. “Hey, are you okay?” Ashleigh asked as I sat down and burrowed into her side.“Yep, why wouldn’t I be?”She studied me for the longest second, but then Kaiden and Lindsey reached us. “So, dude,” his friend said, “how was she?” I stiffened.“Like I’m going to tell you.” Kaiden dropped down in his chair and stretched out his long legs. His eyes flickered to mine, but I quickly averted my gaze.“You were down there longer than seven minutes,” his friend added. “Did she get on her knees and—”“Bryan, I said
MONDAY MORNING AT SCHOOL, butterflies fluttered wildly in my stomach as I climbed out ofAshleigh’s car. The second I spotted Kaiden across the parking lot, I knew why.I’d tried to forget the kiss, but how did you forget your first kiss?The answer was, you didn’t.I could still remember the shape of his lips against mine, their firm yet soft touch. Still taste the bitterness of beer on his breath. Feel the wetness of his tongue against mine.So much so, that when his eyes found mine across the sea of cars, heat exploded into my cheeks.“Lil, what’s wrong?” Ashleigh asked and my head snapped around to hers.“Nothing.” I forced a smile, gently tugging on the frayed ends of my scarf. Her eyes dropped to my fingers tangled in the threads.“Lil?”“I’m good.” My smile was strained as I peeked back over at Kaiden.I couldn’t imagine him like the boy Poppy described. He’d been so patient with me Friday night, so kind.After we’d returned to the firepit, we hadn’t spoken again, but I’d caugh
KaidenI’D FUCKED UP.She was Coach Ford’s daughter.His fucking daughter.It was obvious now. Same blue eyes, same dark hair. But I hadn’t seen it then. I’d been too busy focused on the girl trying to disappear.Well done, asshole.Now she was standing there, looking at me like I’d just kicked her puppy.Her bottom lip wobbled. “B-but I thought—”“You thought wrong,” I swallowed over the lump in my throat. I had to get the fuck out of here before she cried and Coach hauled me into his office for making his daughter sob. Fuck.How had this happened?And why the fuck hadn’t anyone told me?Without another word, I spun on my heel and walked away from her. It was an asshole move, but it was a damn sight better than the alternative.Coach’s daughter.Lily Ford.It was the worst fucking thing that could happen to me.Bryan frowned as I rejoined him and the rest of our crew. “Everything okay?”“She’s Coach’s daughter.”“Oh fuck,” he balked before bursting into laughter.“Fuck off,” I grumbl
We worked like that for ten minutes and then switched. Then we went up on one knee and did another round. It was a strengthening exercise, forcing you to throw from the upper body rather than your legs. And by the time Coach called us in, my muscles ached, and I wanted nothing more than to hit the showers and let the hot jets work out the kinks.Monroe offered me his hand and I took it, letting him pull me up. But at the last second, before I’d gotten my balance, he let go and I stumbled back.“What the fuck, man?” I leaped to my feet and got right up in his face. “What the fuck is your problem?”“My problem?” He smashed his helmet into mine, “This is my team. My fucking team, Thatcher.You think you can just waltz in here and take over?”“You think I want to be here? Trust me, I don’t. But I am here, so you’d better get used to it.” I shouldered past him just as Coach boomed our names.“What?” Monroe called after me. “You think you’re too good to play with us, but good enough for our
“That must be him.” Mom’s eyes crinkled, but it wasn’t out of fondness. “We’re in here, Lew,” she called.“You’re home?” Dad glowered at me. “They let you out of practice early?” “No, practice already got done.”He grunted. “What kind of two-bit program is Ford running over there?”“Dad, come on. You know Rixon High has one of the best programs in state.”Mom cast me a warning look. “Why don’t you sit, Lew, and I’ll get you a drink?” She tried to guide him over to a stool, but he shirked her off.“I can get my own goddamn drink, Tina.”“Okay, I was only offering.” She went back to the cookies, transferring them to a plate. “Has he announced the roster yet?”“Not yet.”“Well, what the hell is he waiting for? You need to be on that starting lineup, Son.”“I know, Dad. And I will be.”“If you’d have gone to Millington like I’d wanted, we wouldn’t be having this conversation.Coach Garrick was more than willing to give you game time.”“Millington haven’t made the playoffs for almost a dec
Until Kaiden kissed me.“We do want you to embrace senior year, sweetheart. Dad was just concerned, that’s all.” “Because he’s a football player or because he’s Kaiden Thatcher?” My brow arched.“Lil, that’s not—” Dad blew out a long breath, scrubbing his jaw. “I was shocked is all, and I may have overreacted a little. His reputation is… well, let’s just say you’re too good for the likes ofKaiden Thatcher, sweetheart. Or any of the football team for that matter.”“I bet there isn’t a guy in school you would think is good enough for me.”“That’s not true—”“Oh, really?” I folded my arms over my chest. “Name one senior you would be okay with me dating.”“Okay, why don’t we all just take a breath,” Mom said, holding up her hands. “We trust you, Lily, but we also worry. After everything, it’s hard to let go.”“You think I don’t know that?”The atmosphere turned thick around us. It had been a while since my parents had staged one of their interventions, but it was a stark reminder of how
“He’s just worried.”“Yeah,” I slammed my locker a little too forcefully. “Well, I just wish he’d stop. Nothing even happened.”“Really?” Ashleigh gave me a pointed look. Peyton was across the hall, being pressed up against the locker by Sean.“Does she even like him?” I mused.“Does she ever?” Ashleigh shrugged. “You know you can tell me anything, right? Judgment free zone.”“I know.” I nodded. “I’d better go before she makes a scene.” I took off down the hall and knocked on the guidance counsellor’s door.“Come in,” she said, beckoning me inside.“Hey, Mrs. B.”“Take a seat, Lily.”“I know my dad probably asked you to check in on me, but it isn’t necessary—” “Sit,” she said, steepling her fingers.Reluctantly, I sat down.“How are things?”“Fine.”“Fine?” Her brow rose. “You know fine is often code for not fine.”“Well, I hate to disappoint, but everything is fine.”“Lily, I can’t help you if you don’t talk to me.”“There’s nothing to talk about,” I said, feeling my throat go dry.“