30

After an hour of nap, I feel like I am able to go downstairs and grab another bit of snack. I close the fridge in frustration, there is a slight sigh on my face as I look at the watch.

It seem that there is still time at least I have about eight more hours before I go back home and have to face Dane again. For Dane, I have to say whatever I can say to him.

How would I meet him and expose myself? What would it be like to be with him? How would it be to allow his lips and his tongue caress every part of my body.

I mean will he doing this out of obligation? I ask myself, and I've never really known the answer.

I mean, I wish I knew the answer. But then I'm so lost in the details of what it would mean for him to touch me like a man touches a woman.

Just like Gina said, I'm supposed to pretend and behave like this is nothing. I'm supposed to do it out of duty, only for the fact that I want to find out who I truly am.

I'm not supposed to treat it with concern. I know myself and I will