The Overthinking Mind

Bella's Pov

**The Next Morning**

My eyes fluttered open and the memories came crashing back. The drugged drink, the stranger’s hands, the terror. My body shudders at the thought, and then Gabriel. My chest tightened, but instead of fear, I felt the steady rise and fall of his chest beside me. He saved and held me. And last night, I had given him the one thing I swore I would never give anyone unworthy. I raised my head and looked at his face and smiled. Then a thought occurred to me. ‘What if he regrets everything when he wakes up? I can't go through that.’ I grabbed my leather boots and tank top and remembered that my pants were torn. I grabbed my phone and called my best friend and she answered on the first ring.

“Hey Bella, how was it?” She asked mockingly.

“Not the time Lissa. I need a dress and undies now. I'm going to send you my location,” I said, while sending her the location.

“Ok I'm coming,” she said and I hung up.

**Ten minutes later**

My phone chimes:

Lissa

“I'm outside, open up.”

Me

“Ok, I'm coming”

I turned off my phone, placed it in my bag and opened the door. I make sure all of my movements are tranquil so that I don't wake him before I leave. I grabbed the clothes and told her to wait for me by the car, and I closed the door and put them on. I rushed out of the room and closed the door. When I reached downstairs, Lissa was grinning, but she realised that my mood wasn't cheerful so she didn't tease.

“Bel, are you ok?” She asked, concerned.

“No, but please get me out of here first,” I said, trying to hold back my tears.

We got in the car and she drove to the dorm. We walked silently to the room and that's when I finally broke down. She hugged me and told me to get it all out and I did just that. When I stopped I told her all that happened last night. From the kidnapping down to how Gabriel saved me and me overthinking this morning.

“It's ok Bel, but why didn't you wait for him to wake before you ran out?” She asked.

“I don't want to be disappointed. What if he wakes up and regrets ever sleeping with me?” I said, sighing.

“What if I was just a mistake to him? I don't want to find out,” I added.

“I understand, but think on the bright side, what if he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you?” She said and I looked at her like she has two heads.

“The only thing I know about him is that his name is Gabriel and the only thing he knows about me is my name and my age,” I said. “What rest of life are you talking about? He doesn't even know that I am a college student. Now I am feeling like this was a mistake. I shouldn't have gone to the club,” I added.

“There you go again. Bel, you need to stop that. That is the only problem you are having. You keep overthinking, it weighs you down,” she said, frustrated.

“You don't know if he will regret anything and that's the problem now,” she added.

“But I can't help it,” I said. “I'm going to lay down,” I added and walked off in my room's direction.

“I'll be here if you need me,” she said before I left the room.

I opened my door and went inside and put my back against the door and started silent crying.

“I'm so pathetic, can't even do a thing right,"I said, sobbing. I picked myself up from the floor and walked to my bed and dozed off from all the crying.