11

Alex came back later that night with Tobi and Jessie.

Immediately they alighted on the shore, and Jessie ran to hug me.

"Oh, okay that's weird", I mumbled.

"I'm sorry, I just thought you died, Blu; I thought they got to you first", she said, visibly shaking.

" Do you have any idea who I am? Jessie, they can't get to me ".

I turned to Alex, "What's going on?".

"It's Feud; he's on to you, he knows that we know who you are, and he got some intel that you will be attending Tobi's birthday, so I think they thought you were on the boat, so they paid the people are the harbor to plant a bomb there."

"Hope they're not breathing?", I asked.

"Not when I'm here", Jessie said.

I nodded and asked Alex to continue, "We had to act smart, pretend like you were killed and all, we even went to your house to create a scene like something happened to you, and that's when we got Jessie, So the sailor's body has been removed from the water, we made it look like it was yours.

Now there's a Mafia meeting happening in three weeks; He'll be there, live, and direct alongside the others; I think it'll be the perfect time to show them who you are and explain that you cannot be fucked with ".

"I like this idea ", I said.

"But you have to lay low for the meantime here, for at least a week or two, because his men are still checking things out, "Tobi said.

I sighed, "I can do that ", I mumbled.

"We can't stay here with you; none of us can, only Damon, I guess because he hasn't been seen yet," Tobi added.

I turned to Damon who was standing behind me all along.

I rolled my eyes, "Great".

"We brought some food supplies and clothes and everything you'll need; you're safe here", Jessie said, handing me a big bag.

Nothing I can't handle.

"Thank you, guys, for this. Honestly, this is a lot, and I'm so sorry, Tobi, about turning your birthday into a rescue mission", I said.

"It's no problem, honestly, it's all good, "he said, smiling.

I hugged Jessie and Tobi goodbye, and they got into the boat.

"I don't know If I can survive staying with him for two weeks", I mumbled.

He laughed, "I know, I know, but just do that for me, please? I mean, it may not even be up to two weeks. If you see that the coast is clear, there will be no need".

I nodded.

He kissed my forehead.

"Be good, ok?" he said.

I nodded.

He got into the boat and they went off.

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It's been three days since I stayed on the island. To be very honest, it's relaxing, very, very relaxing. I'm not thinking about killing someone or being killed; I'm not thinking about revenge or safety or anything; I'm just sitting under the sun all day and sipping coconut water.

My only problem here is Damon in my space; don't get me wrong, he's keeping his distance, very, very well.

There's only one room in the cabin so he agreed to stay in the living room on the couch while I stay in the room, he doesn't talk to me at all, he minds his business and all, and keeps his distance, but the fact will always remain that he's around, he's around me.

I caught him staring at my ass today when I went for a swim with my bikini.

He was quick enough to look away but I caught him.

He's been staring at me lately, a lot, more than usual.

Every time I look at him, he's looking at me, and it's very weird.

It was nighttime again, and I was lying down outside looking at the Stars and all, and he came and sat beside me and handed me a plate of waffles and berries.

He's been the one doing the cooking recently and I cannot deny the fact that he's good at it, really good.

"Thank you", I said and he didn't stand up.

We just sat there in silence and ate.

"You know, there was something you said about me not understanding what you feel because I have a family and you don't; you're right. That's a very painful truth.

When I lost my Dad, I felt like it was all over for me, because I didn't even grow up knowing my mother before she died. Then I had all these responsibilities to handle, I was introduced to society and... I didn't know how I was going to do any of that because I was scared.

I went crazy that time, I started seeing things I wasn't supposed to see, and I got conversant with blood, lots and lots of blood. I think I was just changing; it was changing me. I began to withdraw from the world entirely. I because this person that I don't know.

But then I had my brothers, they were there for me, every time, and I had you."

He paused and took a deep breath.

"I'm sorry Blu, for everything, my apologies can never change things but, I'm so sorry for giving you a very tough childhood, I know I can't do things, I couldn't change things -"

"You could've ", I said calmly

"You could have started things afresh, you could have changed everything this year when we met, I would have known it was a childish attitude and that you've changed but you didn't, he met me this year and you said nothing to me, you didn't even seem like you cared I was here and then all of the sudden you're talking about protecting me?

Isn't that crazy?"

"I... I have this problem talking to you ", he said calmly.

"What do you mean?"

He dropped his plate slowly and rubbed his fingers together.

"I get cold feet whenever I'm around you ", he said calmly.

I laughed, "This conversation was going just fine until you had to gaslight".

"I'm not; I'm not gaslighting Blu, I swear. Just... just listen to me, okay? Please?".

He took a deep breath, "Blu, I have always been a shadow of myself; I've always felt like because of my dad, I was going to be this fearless person right from when I was a kid. And I believed that I convinced myself to believe that, but then whenever you look at me, it's like you can see right through me, as you can see me, the real me and not the fake person I pretend to be, and that scared the shit out of me, I didn't run away or avoid you because I was always real around you, always, I couldn't pretend to be someone I wasn't when I'm with you and I was scared that you were going to see how much of a coward I was if you stay around me and I had to push you away, that was my foolish way of being a coward ".