Hello my wonderful readers. I want to appreciate you all for giving my book a chance. Your support means so much to me. I'm sincerely grateful. And one more thing, chapter eleven is in Melissa's pov but don't worry, she's not taking the spotlight from Andera and her pov(Melissa's)would seldom occur in the course of this book. Sweetly, Ember.
ASHLEY'S P. O VJackie, July, and I stood outside the building. The sun beamed down on us as we squinted our eyes and looked up and up and upJuly scratched her scalp, her whole face was red from being under the sun for too long, but she was too stubborn to get under a shade “So....it's a six-story building. Okay”Jackie slipped her hands into the pockets of her jeans, her eyes slowly taking in the reddish-brick exterior and pale stone trim. “And the apartment available is on the sixth floor, Ashley have you considered how inconvenient it might be to carry groceries up there with your pregnancy” Jackie pulled out one hand and stretched it up for emphasis I chuckled, then paused as my hand instinctively went to the curve of my belly. “It's a baby Jackie, not a disability, and besides I'll use the elevator. That's what they're meant for”Jackie shook her head like she couldn't comprehend what I was saying. “What if the elevator breaks down and you have to hurry to the hospital for som
ASHELY'S P. O. VI needed a nurseryWhich meant I needed an apartment.Which also meant, I needed an apartment far from where I could bump into Kellan since I wasn't ready to face him and tell him about the baby.July had been a big help to me, letting me stay longer than I probably should have, but now that I was going to have a daughter, I couldn't keep inconveniencing her, even though she says otherwise.Which was why I was scrolling through listings on a real estate site at eight in the morning, a tablet in one hand and a half-melted smoothie in the other.July was still curled up asleep on the couch, one hand resting on top of the couch while the other tucked under a fluffy throw pillow. July worked in a marketing department and had come home last night extremely tired, She crashed on the sofa and hadn't gotten up since, We would have woken her up, but luckily she's on leave for the rest of the week.I leaned back into the other couch, Jackie by my side as we browsed through apa
ASHLEY'S P. O. V. There was something different about today.I didn't cry during the night, and I actually looked forward to the day ahead. That's what's different. Today, I'd get to see my baby and know if it's a boy or a girl.Something like an excited squeal escaped my lips as I stood in front of the full-length mirror, in only shorts and a bra. My baby bump was growing bigger. I rested my hand on the curve of my belly. My eyes were tired from too much thinking and crying, but I didn't care about that, not today.Today, I chose not to worry over things I have no control over and focus on the brighter side.Am I confused and worried about what life will be like for me? YesAre my feelings spiralling, do I sometimes regret forcing Kellan to sign the divorce and other times applaud myself for doing just that? Also yesBut would I let myself keep on drowning in things that have already happened? NoI'm going to be a mother, that is all that matters.My stomach fluttered just thinking
ASHLEY'S P. O. V Sometimes, the hardest part of loving someone is knowing when to let them go. And that was what I did, I let Kellan go, now I'm all alone. Lying down in bed, staring at the ceiling, asking myself too many ‘what ifs’ What if I had just told Kellan about the baby? What if he finds out and hates me for it? What if I can't raise this child myself? What if this baby dies too? Too many thoughts sit with me in this silence. It's been four days since I walked out of Kellan's office. Four days since I went in there, and broke us both more than we already were What if Kellan isn't holding up well? I can't get over the hurt and pain on his face, the way Kellan held me with trembling fingers and kissed me softly. Against my will, tears slipped down my cheek, warm and wet. I glanced over to my right side, where the divorce papers were sitting on top of my vanity. I haven't sent it to the lawyer Yet I should be happy, right? I should be celebrating because this was
ASHLEY'S P. O. VI'm sorry.I'm so sorry Kellan.My heart kept apologizing, but my face remained impassive. If I flattered, If I let the barest flicker of emotion show on my face, Kellan wouldn't agree.My throat was tight with unshed tears. I didn't want to go to him, to give him this ultimatum, but I knew Kellan; he was stubborn, very much so. This was my only card to play.But it was killing me with every breath.Kellan looked up at me with glassy eyes. My heart constricted in my chest. This hurts, so much. Seeing Kellan like this. It broke me, ripped my heart to pieces.“Ashley?” Kellan called, my name cracked on his lips, pain so evident etched on his face. I have seen Kellan happy, I have seen Kellan angry, I've seen him sad, nonchalant, and neglectful, too.But this...? This was a man whose soul was breaking, a man who was falling down, with no one to hold him up, because I pushed him myself.I'm sorry. I am so sorry.I tried to maintain my aloof mask, but Inside I was crying
KELLAN'S POV I paused outside my office door Ashley was in there, waiting for me. My heart was in my throat, my emotions spilling. The tightness stretched over my body. I rubbed the place where my chest was heaving. I couldn't breathe. If Ashley is here, that means she has forgiven me. Right? I couldn't accept any other alternative. I closed my eyes tightly. I could see her, beautiful, the way she smiles not just with her lips, but her warm chocolate eyes, her golden brown hair framing her face. The most beautiful person I have ever seen. I fisted the shirt over my chest, willing myself to breathe, to calm down, and go meet her. My wife. The ring in my pocket felt heavier than usual. I dipped my hand in and felt the cold jewelry. I was dying to see her with her ring again. Maybe it will be today, maybe she's here so we can go home together. I opened the doors Then, I stopped breathing. Did I say she was the most beautiful person I have ever seen? That didn't d