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Real intimacy is a sacred experience.
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I push myself up with my elbows.
The tent still had his scent lingering somewhere, if he wasn’t next to me, where was he? Frantically, I start rubbing my eyes, glancing around the tent.
And then I see him.
The first thing I noticed was that Yohan looked like he was in pain. Both his hands were shakily covering his mouth. He was pressing himself against the wall of the tent, his head falling back, his eyes closed. He was shaking all over, goosebumps ran along his arms. He was sweating and groaning softly, his eyebrows furrowed. His scent mingled in the air, making me want to crawl over to him and comfort him.
“Yohan?” I ask.
He jolted with the sound of my voice. Slowly, he opens his eyes and looks at me, a pained expression on his face. Wiping the sweat that had formed on my forehead, I tilt my head at him with confusion, pushing myself up to a sitting position. H
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