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With all due respect,” I say carefully, “I don’t think—” “It’s non-negotiable, Miss Pierce,” he interrupts gently. “This arrangement works to both your benefit. You are in need of additional academic credit this semester, are you not?” Heat floods my face. I nod yes, because while my grades are strong, my extracurriculars are weak. I don’t do clubs. I don’t do sports. I just study and that’s it. “This tutoring position fulfills that requirement,” he continues. “Declining would mean forfeiting the credit.” There it is. A choice without choice. I look at Ryder again and the air feels heavier.My pulse spikes severely until I drag my eyes away from him. “Understood,” I say because I don’t have an option. I really need the credit. That means every day or every other day with Ryder Monroe. The boy who nearly destroyed my best friend. The boy everyone calls dangerous. The boy who is still watching me like he knows something I don’t. Just like that, my entire senior year tilts on its axis. Ryder leans back in his chair, calm and unbothered. Senior year was supposed to be simple. It was supposed to be about surviving Miles and Brina one last time. Not this. Not him ********* I tell myself this is just tutoring. Just a quiet hour in the library for extra credit. Just something to focus on that isn’t Miles and Brina and the way my chest still feels bruised every time I think about them. I get there ten minutes early on purpose because if I’m early, I’m in control. Or so I tell myself. The library is almost empty. Just a few students doing homework or God knows what on the computers. The late afternoon sun stretches across the long tables. I turn my focus to prepare myself but... He is already here. Ryder Monroe sits at the far end of the study table he chose near the art section, his sleeves pushed up, pen resting between his fingers. A textbook is open in front of him, the signature Falcons jacket beside him but he hasn’t worn it so far. Not once. He looks up when he hears my steps. There is no smile or smirk but my stomach tightens anyway. “Pierce,” he says. I set my bag down across from him. “Monroe.” His mouth twitches, almost amused. “Are we going with last names?” “It’s tutoring, not a social visit.” He studies me for a second longer than necessary. Not in a way that makes me uncomfortable. It's like he is trying to figure me out. I pull out my notebook and the assignment sheet. “We will start with chapter four. The practice questions at the end.” “I already did them.” My head snaps up. “You what?” He turns the book toward me. Every question is answered neatly and correctly. I blink. “You could have waited.” His eyebrow lifts slightly. “You are upset I did the work?” I hate that I don’t have a good answer. “I’m not upset. I just—” I stop to reset. “We are supposed to go through it together otherwise I don’t get credit.” He leans back in his chair, calm. “Okay. Go through it.” Is he testing me? I don’t think so. He looks too serious. I glance down at the first question. “Explain the economic impact of— ” “Trade restrictions during the early Industrial Revolution,” he finishes easily. “They slowed industrial expansion at first but strengthened domestic production over time.” My pen pauses mid air. “You memorized that?” “No, I studied and understood it.” The correction is subtle but precise. He doesn’t look bored or arrogant. Something in me shifts. That doesn’t fit the story I have been telling myself for a year. I clear my throat. “Fine. Then explain it in your own words.” He does clearly and confidently with no hesitation. I sit back slowly. “So you don’t need a tutor,” I say before I can stop myself. His gaze lifts to mine. “I didn’t say that.” “You seem to know what you are doing. What am I doing here?” “Working for extra credit. I thought that was already discussed.” His brows are slightly drawn. Then, “Relax, Pierce. I do need a lot of help in other subjects. History not so much.” I swallow and look back down at the page. “Let’s move on.” We work through another section. He answers most of it without help. When I correct him once, he listens without arguing. This isn’t what I expected. I expected resistance, attitude, maybe recklessness. Instead, he is focused and quiet. Every now and then I feel his eyes on me, staring. It makes my skin hyper aware of everything. “You always tap your pen when you are thinking too hard,” he says suddenly. I freeze. “What?” “You have done it five times.” I immediately still my hand. “That’s irrelevant.” “It’s distracting.” “You are the one watching me.” He doesn’t deny it. My pulse quickens for reasons I don’t understand. We move to the next problem. I reread the instructions twice. “You don’t trust your first read,” he says quietly. I look up sharply. “Excuse me?” “You always go back even when you were right the first time.” “How would you know what I ‘always’ do?” “I have had classes with you since sophomore year.” “You have been observing me?” His gaze doesn’t waver. “You observe people too.” “That’s different.” “How?” Because I observe to survive. I observe so I don’t get blindsided. I don’t say that. Instead, I say, “Focus on the assignment.” A small silence settles between us. It is not awkward but it is charged. I shift in my seat and lean forward to point at something in his notebook. “Our answer here needs more detail—” My shoulder brushes his. It’s brief, totally accidental. But the contact sends a current through me that makes me pull back immediately. He doesn’t move closer or away. I straighten, annoyed at myself. I am not reacting to this. I am not. My pen slips from my fingers and rolls off the table. “Great,” I mutter. We both bend down at the same time. Our hands reach and touch. His fingers close around mine instead of the pen. They are warm, still, and not gripping. The moment stretches until I look up. He is closer than I expected, close enough that I can see the faint scar near his eyebrow. Close enough to notice the shift in his breathing. Neither of us pulls away. My heart is pounding so loudly I’m sure he can hear it. “You freeze when you are about to do something... different,” he says quietly. “Something you are unsure about.” My throat tightens. “What are you talking about?” His thumb shifts slightly against my knuckles. “You are doing it now.” My breath stumbles. I yank my hand back first and sit upright too quickly, knocking my knee against the table. “I don’t freeze.” “You do.” “You don’t know me so stop analyzing me.” “I know enough.” Silence drops again, heavier this time. I grab my pen and stand abruptly. “I think that’s enough for today.” “It’s been thirty minutes,” he says, looking at the time. “I have other things to do.” “Like avoiding me?” I glare at him. “Like having a life.” His jaw shifts slightly. “Right.” I shove my notebook into my bag. “Next session is Wednesday.” “I will be here.” There is something about the way he says it certainly that makes my heart leap. I sling my bag over my shoulder, avoiding eye contact. “You don’t have to look at me like I’m a threat, you know?” he says suddenly. My spine stiffens. “I’m not.” “Yes, you are. You flinch every time I am too close.” I meet his eyes fully this time. “You are a threat. Your reputation precedes you, Monroe.” The words leave before I can think them over. He doesn’t hesitate when he says, “Not to you.” The conviction in his voice unsettles me more than anger would have. I don’t respond. I can’t. I turn and walk out of the library without looking back but my pulse won’t calm down. My hand still feels warm where he touched me and that’s the part that scares me. I have spent a year believing Ryder Monroe is dangerous. Today was the first day I questioned why.CALLA“I’m just saying there’s more to Ryder than you think.”I stare at him, waiting for him to explain but I get nothing. I’m not even surprised anymore. Miles has been saying some version of this ever since Ryder came back, always warning me about him without ever giving me anything I can actually hold on to. Nothing beyond what I already know. I shake my head and push the front door open. “You always say that and honestly I don’t know what to do with it.”I don’t wait for him to come up with a response. I walk inside, leaving him to follow behind me or not. By the time I make it a few steps into the house, he is speaking again.“You know what I’ve always loved about you?”I turn to him.“You have always wanted to see the good in people. You give the good ones the credit they deserve,” he says, moving a little closer. “But you don’t give the bad ones nearly enough criticism. I just want you to be careful because I’d hate watching you get hurt.”I have managed to stay quiet about h
CALLADriving home with Miles feels so much like old times that, for the first few minutes, I almost forget everything that has changed.My hands rest easily on the steering wheel while he sits in the passenger seat, scrolling through his phone before abandoning it in his lap. His own car is somewhere with his friends, which is nothing unusual.There have been so many times over the years when one of us has ended up driving the other somewhere that I don’t even think twice about it anymore. School events, late, trips to the beach and parties... There are probably more memories of Miles sitting beside me in this car than there are of anyone else.For a little while, it really is just us. It feels easy and familiar talking and joking about school. It’s like slipping back into something that has always known how to fit.Then the conversation fades, and the silence that follows lasts less than five minutes before I start overthinking it. I glance at him once then again. The third time, he
RYDERWhen I step onto the ice, the familiar chill hits me like a homecoming.This is my rink. My team. Some of the guys nod or clap me on the shoulder when I skate out. Others, the ones who orbit Miles, barely glance my way. Jake keeps his head down, acting like I’m not even here. I get it. He must be feeling like I’m replacing him even though I’m not. I’m just reclaiming the spot that was mine before everything went to hell. He knows it. Everyone does.My legs feel strong, my hands are steady, thanks to the regular practice out there. The adjustment here is more mental than physical— remembering the rhythm of these players, the way they move.Coach blows the whistle before practice even starts and skates over, his phone pressed to his ear. “I have an emergency,” he calls out. “Miles, you’re in charge. Keep things organized and productive. No bullshit.”Miles nods once. “Yes, Coach.”The second the door closes behind the coach, I know what’s coming. Miles skates to the center, takin
RYDERI spend the rest of the afternoon after lunch half watching Calla without really trying to.Part of me is still stuck on that photo. Who the hell would do that? And why her? I have been turning it over since lunch, trying to figure out if it’s random or if someone actually has a reason to mess with her. Either way, it sits wrong. I keep catching myself looking for her just to make sure she is okay.She doesn’t look away anymore. Not like before.Our eyes catch across the room or in the hallway and she just holds it a second longer than she used to. Sometimes the corner of her mouth lifts softly, like she knows she shouldn’t but does it anyway. It’s nothing that would make anyone look twice but it still hits me harder than it should. We are still keeping this private. That was the deal. Still, she is not treating me like something embarrassing anymore.I’m at my locker after classes, spinning the combination, when she and Brina walk past. Calla is looking straight ahead until I c
RYDER I get to the old classroom block first. Calla is nowhere in sight. I lean against the wall, arms crossed, trying not to check the time every ten seconds. She is probably looking for a way to slip away from Miles and Brina without raising suspicion. It’s ridiculous, this whole secret date thing. All I want is— I shake the thought away. I knew what I was signing up for. My mind keeps drifting back to what happened this morning. The way Miles came at me in front of everyone, accusing me of being some kind of stalker. I still have no clue what’s that about. Sitting through classes thinking about it was a painful experience. I kept hearing the anger in his voice and the crowd watching. And Calla... she stepped in and stopped it from turning into an actual fight. I appreciate that more than she probably realizes. I was holding myself back for her sake, but I was seconds away from defending myself if he threw the first punch. Still, it sucks being the secret especially in moments
CALLAI barely slept. Every time I closed my eyes, those headlights appeared again in my rearview mirror, too persistent. By morning I was exhausted both physically and mentally. I almost told my parents at breakfast, but the words stuck in my throat. What would I even say? That someone followed me home? They would probably brush it off or turn it into another lecture about being responsible. Driving to school was even worse. I double checked my mirrors the entire drive, expecting that car to show up.I’m walking across the senior yard toward my first class, when someone suddenly grabs me from behind. I nearly jump out of my skin, letting out a sharp gasp as I whip around. Miles and Brina are standing there, both of them laughing. Miles’s smile fades quickly when he sees my face.“Whoa, Calla. You okay? You look like you saw a ghost.”My heart is still hammering. I force a breath and decide to just say it. “Actually... no. Something weird happened yesterday after I left the game.”I t
CALLAI follow Ryder down the hall, my backpack tight against my shoulder. He doesn’t say a word other than “let's try a different study spot”. He just walks, purposefully and confidently. I keep up, my heart thumping, trying not to let the knot in my stomach betray me.He opens a door at the far e
CALLAI try to ignore the lingering heat of Ryder’s touch from yesterday, but it’s impossible. Every time I take a step, every time I bend to grab a book from my locker, I feel it there, a small, unsettling weight I can’t shake. I tell myself it’s nothing but just a little accident I should get ove
CALLAThe worst part about heartbreak isn’t crying. It’s showing up the next morning and pretending nothing happened.The hallway is loud with lockers slamming and laughter echoing through the building. Senior year banners and hockey tryouts posters are taped above the lockers and on walls. Of cour
CALLAThis summer felt like a movie.Sun on my skin, water in my hair. Late night swims in the lake behind the summer house while our parents drank wine on the deck, and Miles cannon balled into the water drenching me completely. I splashed back at him, laughing, but his grin was infuriating. He mo







