Mag-log inCassian didn’t repeat himself. He simply waited, patient as winter, camera dangling from his neck like it belonged there. When I didn’t move, he reached past me, unbuttoned my coat himself, and slid it off my shoulders. His fingers brushed the bare skin at my throat (just a graze), but it burned like a brand. He hung the coat on a hook by the door, the same hook that used to hold my pink puffy jacket when I was twelve, and then he turned.
“Come,” he said. “I’ll show you what’s changed.” He didn’t wait for an answer. He just started walking, expecting me to follow. And God help me, I did. The lake house I remembered had been warm, cluttered with Mom’s throw pillows and my old crayon drawings taped to the fridge. This version felt like a gallery designed by someone who hated softness. The walls were bare except for enormous black-and-white photographs in severe black frames. A woman’s spine arched over a leather bench. A man’s hand wrapped around a slender throat. A close-up of lips parted on a silent scream. All artfully lit, all anonymous, all unmistakably erotic. I stopped in front of one (close-cropped shot of a woman on her knees, wrists bound behind her back, head thrown back in obvious surrender). My stomach flipped. “You… took these?” I asked, barely above a whisper. “Every one.” His voice came from right behind me, close enough that I felt the warmth of his chest against my shoulder blade. “Keep walking.” He led me through the open living room (now all dark leather and steel), past the kitchen that used to smell like cinnamon and now smelled faintly of coffee and something metallic, up the wide staircase that creaked exactly the way it always had. My old bedroom was on the second floor, third door on the left. I braced myself for memories when he opened it. It wasn’t my room anymore. The twin bed and boy-band posters were gone. In their place stood a massive four-poster bed made of black iron, draped in white linen so crisp it looked lethal. A single red ribbon was tied around one of the posts, the ends trailing to the floor like spilled blood. There was a velvet chaise by the window, a mirrored tray with a crystal decanter of something amber, and on the far wall, another photograph (this one of a woman suspended in red rope, body twisted into an impossible, graceful arc). I swallowed hard. “This isn’t where I used to sleep.” “No,” he said, stepping inside behind me. “This is where you will sleep for the next seven nights.” He crossed to the dresser, opened a drawer, and pulled out something soft and black. A silk sleep mask. He set it on the duvet like a promise. “You look exhausted,” he continued. “Shower if you want. Everything you need is in the bathroom. Tomorrow morning, after breakfast, I’ll explain your tasks. The rules. What I expect. Tonight you rest.” He said it gently, almost kindly, but the gentleness felt like a trap. I opened my mouth to argue (to demand answers now), but he was already moving toward the door. “Cassian—” “Tomorrow, Ivy.” He paused in the doorway, hand on the knob. “One more thing. There’s no cell service here. I had the tower disabled years ago. The wifi password changes every hour and only I know it. You’re completely cut off until the eighth morning. No one to call. No one to save you. Just us.” He closed the door softly behind him. I stood there for a long time, staring at the closed door, then spun around and dug my phone out of my bag. No bars. I held it up, walked to the window, waved it like an idiot. Nothing. I tried the smart TV (parental lock). The landline in the hall had been removed. He hadn’t been kidding. I was on an island with the one man my mother swore would destroy me, and no way to reach the outside world. I showered because I didn’t know what else to do. The bathroom was marble and steam and smelled like his cologne. I used his soap, his towels, his everything, and hated how every nerve in my body felt alive and raw. When I came out, the fire in the bedroom hearth had been lit (I never heard him come back in). The red ribbon on the bedpost flickered in the firelight like it was breathing. I crawled under the covers fully clothed, pulled them over my head like I was ten again hiding from monsters, and eventually fell asleep to the sound of wind screaming against the windows. I don’t know what time it was when the woman’s voice woke me. Low, sultry laughter drifting up from outside, followed by a murmured command I couldn’t quite make out. My eyes snapped open. The fire had burned down to embers, the room dim and orange. Another laugh, closer this time, and the unmistakable click of a camera shutter. I slipped out of bed, bare feet silent on the rug, and crept to the window. The curtains were heavy velvet, but I eased them apart just enough to see. The backyard was lit by floodlights that turned the falling snow into glittering diamonds. A woman (completely naked) lay sprawled on the frosted grass like it was a summer beach. Her skin glowed pale against the white, long dark hair fanned out around her head, arms stretched above her in deliberate surrender. She arched her back, breasts high, thighs parted just enough to be obscene and artistic at the same time. She looked fearless. Owned. Radiant. And kneeling in front of her, camera raised to his eye, was Cassian. He was shirtless despite the cold, black trousers low on his hips, every line of muscle carved out by the floodlights. The camera clicked in rapid bursts. He gave quiet commands (move your knee, chin up, look at me like you’re begging), and she obeyed instantly, fluidly, like they’d done this a hundred times. I couldn’t breathe. My fingers clutched the curtain so hard my knuckles went white. This was what he did now. This was the pleasure he’d talked about. These women, these photographs, this power. He adjusted his angle, crouched lower, and the woman on the ground laughed again (soft, throaty), and said something that made him smile. A real smile, the one I remembered from years ago when he used to push me on the swing. I hated her instantly. I hated myself more for the heat pooling low in my belly. Cassian lowered the camera for a second, reached out, and trailed two fingers down the woman’s sternum, between her breasts, all the way to her navel. She shivered, but didn’t move. He said something too low for me to hear, and she answered with a breathless yes, Sir. My knees almost gave out. He lifted the camera again, and for one terrifying heartbeat his head turned toward the house (toward my window), as if he could feel me watching. I yanked the curtain shut and stumbled back, chest heaving, blood roaring in my ears. Tomorrow morning he would tell me my tasks. Tomorrow morning I would find out exactly what he expected from me for the next seven nights. And after what I’d just seen, I wasn’t sure whether I was more terrified… …or more desperate to know how it would feel when he finally turned that camera (and those commands) on me.I stood under the shower for what felt like forever, letting the hot water pound against my shoulders until my skin turned pink and the steam clouded the mirror so thick I could barely see my own reflection. My hands shook as I scrubbed between my legs, trying to wash away the evidence of what I’d just done, but no amount of soap could erase the warmth still lingering inside me, the faint pulse of Noah’s release deep where no one else had ever been. I pressed my forehead against the tile and breathed through the panic, slow and deliberate, telling myself over and over that it was just once, that the odds were tiny, that I wasn’t stupid enough to get pregnant from one reckless moment.But the fear stayed.It coiled low in my belly, sharp and cold, whispering worst-case scenarios until I felt sick.When the water finally ran cold, I turned off the faucet with numb fingers and stepped out. I wrapped myself in the hotel’s too-small towel and opened the bathroom door.Noah was standing r
My thighs burned with every rise and fall, muscles trembling from the relentless rhythm I’d set. Noah’s hands gripped my hips—not guiding, not forcing, just holding on like he was afraid I’d disappear if he let go. I rode him harder than I ever had, hips snapping down, rolling forward, grinding in tight circles that made him groan deep in his throat every time I took him to the hilt.The couch creaked beneath us, springs protesting the frantic pace. Sweat slicked our skin, making every slide smoother, hotter. My breasts bounced with each thrust, nipples tight and aching from the cool air and the friction of his chest hair against them when I leaned forward. I didn’t care how desperate I looked. I needed this—needed the burn, the stretch, the way he filled me so completely I couldn’t think about anything else.“Fuck—Ivy—” Noah’s voice was wrecked, strained. “Slow down, baby, I’m too close—”“No,” I gasped, nails digging into his shoulders. “Don’t you dare hold back.”I clenched arou
I shifted in his lap, straddling him properly now, knees on either side of his hips. His hands automatically settled on my waist—gentle, careful, the way he always touched me when he wasn’t sure what I wanted.“Ivy—” he started, voice soft, uncertain.I didn’t let him finish.I leaned in and kissed him—hard. Desperate. Like I was trying to pour everything I couldn’t say into his mouth. My tongue pushed past his lips, tasting the faint trace of beer and mint, tasting him. He groaned low in his throat, fingers flexing on my hips, but he didn’t push. He let me lead.I broke the kiss just long enough to grab the hem of his T-shirt and yank it over his head. He lifted his arms to help, eyes wide, pupils blown dark with surprise and want.“Ivy, wait—” he tried again, hands coming up to cup my face. “You don’t have to do this. I know your head’s full of him. I don’t want to be—”“Shh.” I pressed two fingers to his lips. “Don’t mention anyone else’s name. Not tonight. There’s only us here. Ju
I thought Noah would want me the second the hotel door closed behind us. I expected him to push me against the wall the way Cassian so often did—hands rough, mouth demanding, fingers already tugging at my clothes like he couldn’t wait another second. Part of me wanted that. Needed it, maybe. The raw, physical certainty of being taken, of letting someone else decide the rhythm so I didn’t have to think. So I could drown the confusion in sensation and forget how torn I felt inside.But he didn’t.Noah just looked at me for a long moment, eyes soft in the dim hallway light, then reached out and pulled me into his arms. Not possessively. Not urgently. Just… gently. Like I was something breakable he wanted to keep safe. His chin rested on top of my head, one hand cradling the back of my neck, the other wrapped low around my waist. I felt his heartbeat through his T-shirt—steady, calm, nothing like the frantic racing of mine.I stood there stiff for a second, waiting for the shift. For the
The hotel room felt smaller now, the lamp on the bedside table throwing soft amber shadows across the walls. Rain tapped against the window in a steady, gentle rhythm—nothing like the violent storm from a few nights ago, just a quiet reminder that the world kept moving even when everything inside me felt stuck.Noah sat on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, hands clasped loosely in front of him. His shoulders were tense, but his face was calm—too calm, like he’d practiced this moment in his head a hundred times. I sat beside him, close enough that our thighs touched, but not touching. The space between us felt careful, deliberate. Like we were both afraid of breaking something fragile.He took a slow breath.“I really missed you,” he said quietly. “Not just for the sex. Not even mostly for that. I missed… this. Just sitting with you. Hearing you breathe. Knowing you’re here.”I felt my chest tighten. I reached for his hand, lacing my fingers through his. His palm was warm,
I sat on the edge of the bed for what felt like hours, phone clutched in both hands, staring at Noah’s name on the screen. The room was dark except for the soft blue glow of the display, casting shadows across the walls that made everything feel smaller, more suffocating. My thumb hovered over the call button again—fourth time in the last ten minutes. I’d already tried three times. Straight to voicemail. Each unanswered ring felt like another little cut, another reminder that I’d hurt him. Really hurt him.I could still see the look on his face when he’d walked away from my apartment door—the way his easy smile had cracked, the way his shoulders had stiffened when he saw Cassian standing there like he owned the place. Noah hadn’t yelled. Hadn’t made a scene. He’d just looked at me, long and quiet, like he was trying to decide if I was worth the pain. Then he’d turned and left. No goodbye. No “see you later.” Just gone.I hated myself for it.The guilt sat heavy in my chest, th







