Mag-log inThe highway north was a white tunnel of snow and headlights. Six hours felt like sixty. Every mile I drove, the radio lost another station until there was nothing but static and the low hum of the engine and my own heartbeat. I kept replaying the phone call on a loop.
Come to the lake house tomorrow night. I had no idea what that meant, and my brain refused to guess. Every time I tried, panic clawed up my throat, so I shut the thoughts down and focused on the road. Just get the money. Pay the debt. Survive the week. Go home. Simple. Except nothing about Cassian Voss had ever been simple. By the time the GPS told me I was twenty minutes away, the snow had thickened into a full blizzard. The wipers could barely keep up. My knuckles ached from gripping the wheel. I hadn’t eaten, hadn’t stopped once, not even to pee. I just drove, like if I slowed down the loan sharks would somehow catch up and drag me out of the car. At last the private road appeared, unmarked except for a single black mailbox with a silver V etched on the side. I turned in. The tires crunched over fresh powder, the pines closing in on both sides like silent guards. The lake house rose out of the darkness ahead of me, three stories of glass and timber glowing gold against the storm. It looked exactly the same and completely different, bigger, colder, lonelier. I killed the engine and sat there for a full minute, engine ticking itself cool, breath fogging the windshield. My overnight bag was on the passenger seat, pathetic next to the weight of what I was about to do. I grabbed it, stepped out into the wind, and the front door opened before I reached the steps. He was waiting. Cassian stood in the doorway, one hand in the pocket of black trousers, the other holding a cigarette that burned slow and red between his fingers. He wore a charcoal sweater that clung to the kind of body a man in his forties had no right to own, broad shoulders, narrow waist, every line speaking of money and discipline and time spent doing whatever the hell he wanted. The years had only sharpened him. The silver at his temples made the black of his hair look crueler. His eyes, winter gray, winter cold, locked on me the second I appeared. A camera hung around his neck. A real one, not a phone. Professional, heavy, the kind fashion photographers use. The strap cut across his chest like a warning. Nostalgia slammed into me so hard I almost staggered. This porch was where he used to push me on the tire swing. That window up there was the one I’d sneak out of at sixteen. The dock I could just make out through the snow was where he taught me to skip stones and told me I could do anything I wanted when I grew up. I stopped at the bottom step, snow soaking through my boots. My voice came out smaller than I meant it to. “Hi.” He took a slow drag, the cherry flaring, then exhaled smoke into the night. “You’re late.” “The roads—” “I don’t care about the roads.” He stepped aside, motioning me in with the cigarette. “Get inside before you freeze.” I climbed the steps. Up close he smelled exactly the same, pine, tobacco, something expensive and male that had lived in my dreams far more than it should have. I brushed past him, careful not to touch, and the heat of the house swallowed me whole. The foyer was dark wood and flickering firelight, the massive Christmas tree in the corner dripping with red ornaments and nothing else. No presents underneath. No tinsel. Just blood-red glass and white lights, beautiful and severe. He closed the door behind me. The click of the latch sounded final. I set my bag down and turned to face him, hugging my arms across my chest. “Okay. I’m here. The money—” “Will be wired the second the seven nights are over,” he said calmly, tapping ash into a crystal tray. “Not a minute sooner.” My stomach dropped. “You said—” “I said the debt would be gone by tomorrow morning. It will. I bought the note an hour after we hung up. Those men work for me now. They won’t touch you again.” He lifted the camera, checked something on the back screen, then let it hang again. “But the money stays in my account until you earn it.” Earn it. The words hung between us like smoke. I swallowed. “How?” He didn’t answer right away. Just studied me the way he used to when he knew I was lying about homework or boys or parties. Like he could see straight through clothes and skin and every flimsy defense I’d built in the last six years. Finally he took one last drag, crushed the cigarette beneath his shoe, and stepped closer. Close enough that I had to tip my head back to hold his gaze. “Seven nights, Ivy. Seven nights of complete obedience. You call me Sir. You do exactly what I say, when I say it. No questions. No limits you don’t speak aloud, and even then I might ignore them.” His voice was low, almost gentle, which made it worse. “You give me everything I ask for, and on the eighth morning you drive away free and clear. House in your name. Debt erased. Life goes on.” My mouth went dry. “And if I say no to something?” His smile was slow, sharp, beautiful in the most terrifying way. “Then you leave tonight. The debt comes back. The men come back. And I wash my hands of you forever.” He let that settle, let the silence stretch until I could hear the fire crackling and my own pulse roaring. I found my voice somehow. “Why the camera?” He glanced down at it like he’d forgotten it was there, then lifted it slightly, thumb brushing the lens. His eyes came back to mine, darker now, hungry. “Because I discovered something while you were gone, little girl.” He took another step, close enough that the heat of his body reached me through my coat. “I discovered that photographing beautiful things while they break for me… brings me pleasure.” My breath hitched. He leaned in, lips almost brushing my ear, voice a whisper that sank straight into my bones. “And you, Ivy, have always been the most beautiful thing I was never allowed to break.”I stood under the shower for what felt like forever, letting the hot water pound against my shoulders until my skin turned pink and the steam clouded the mirror so thick I could barely see my own reflection. My hands shook as I scrubbed between my legs, trying to wash away the evidence of what I’d just done, but no amount of soap could erase the warmth still lingering inside me, the faint pulse of Noah’s release deep where no one else had ever been. I pressed my forehead against the tile and breathed through the panic, slow and deliberate, telling myself over and over that it was just once, that the odds were tiny, that I wasn’t stupid enough to get pregnant from one reckless moment.But the fear stayed.It coiled low in my belly, sharp and cold, whispering worst-case scenarios until I felt sick.When the water finally ran cold, I turned off the faucet with numb fingers and stepped out. I wrapped myself in the hotel’s too-small towel and opened the bathroom door.Noah was standing r
My thighs burned with every rise and fall, muscles trembling from the relentless rhythm I’d set. Noah’s hands gripped my hips—not guiding, not forcing, just holding on like he was afraid I’d disappear if he let go. I rode him harder than I ever had, hips snapping down, rolling forward, grinding in tight circles that made him groan deep in his throat every time I took him to the hilt.The couch creaked beneath us, springs protesting the frantic pace. Sweat slicked our skin, making every slide smoother, hotter. My breasts bounced with each thrust, nipples tight and aching from the cool air and the friction of his chest hair against them when I leaned forward. I didn’t care how desperate I looked. I needed this—needed the burn, the stretch, the way he filled me so completely I couldn’t think about anything else.“Fuck—Ivy—” Noah’s voice was wrecked, strained. “Slow down, baby, I’m too close—”“No,” I gasped, nails digging into his shoulders. “Don’t you dare hold back.”I clenched arou
I shifted in his lap, straddling him properly now, knees on either side of his hips. His hands automatically settled on my waist—gentle, careful, the way he always touched me when he wasn’t sure what I wanted.“Ivy—” he started, voice soft, uncertain.I didn’t let him finish.I leaned in and kissed him—hard. Desperate. Like I was trying to pour everything I couldn’t say into his mouth. My tongue pushed past his lips, tasting the faint trace of beer and mint, tasting him. He groaned low in his throat, fingers flexing on my hips, but he didn’t push. He let me lead.I broke the kiss just long enough to grab the hem of his T-shirt and yank it over his head. He lifted his arms to help, eyes wide, pupils blown dark with surprise and want.“Ivy, wait—” he tried again, hands coming up to cup my face. “You don’t have to do this. I know your head’s full of him. I don’t want to be—”“Shh.” I pressed two fingers to his lips. “Don’t mention anyone else’s name. Not tonight. There’s only us here. Ju
I thought Noah would want me the second the hotel door closed behind us. I expected him to push me against the wall the way Cassian so often did—hands rough, mouth demanding, fingers already tugging at my clothes like he couldn’t wait another second. Part of me wanted that. Needed it, maybe. The raw, physical certainty of being taken, of letting someone else decide the rhythm so I didn’t have to think. So I could drown the confusion in sensation and forget how torn I felt inside.But he didn’t.Noah just looked at me for a long moment, eyes soft in the dim hallway light, then reached out and pulled me into his arms. Not possessively. Not urgently. Just… gently. Like I was something breakable he wanted to keep safe. His chin rested on top of my head, one hand cradling the back of my neck, the other wrapped low around my waist. I felt his heartbeat through his T-shirt—steady, calm, nothing like the frantic racing of mine.I stood there stiff for a second, waiting for the shift. For the
The hotel room felt smaller now, the lamp on the bedside table throwing soft amber shadows across the walls. Rain tapped against the window in a steady, gentle rhythm—nothing like the violent storm from a few nights ago, just a quiet reminder that the world kept moving even when everything inside me felt stuck.Noah sat on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, hands clasped loosely in front of him. His shoulders were tense, but his face was calm—too calm, like he’d practiced this moment in his head a hundred times. I sat beside him, close enough that our thighs touched, but not touching. The space between us felt careful, deliberate. Like we were both afraid of breaking something fragile.He took a slow breath.“I really missed you,” he said quietly. “Not just for the sex. Not even mostly for that. I missed… this. Just sitting with you. Hearing you breathe. Knowing you’re here.”I felt my chest tighten. I reached for his hand, lacing my fingers through his. His palm was warm,
I sat on the edge of the bed for what felt like hours, phone clutched in both hands, staring at Noah’s name on the screen. The room was dark except for the soft blue glow of the display, casting shadows across the walls that made everything feel smaller, more suffocating. My thumb hovered over the call button again—fourth time in the last ten minutes. I’d already tried three times. Straight to voicemail. Each unanswered ring felt like another little cut, another reminder that I’d hurt him. Really hurt him.I could still see the look on his face when he’d walked away from my apartment door—the way his easy smile had cracked, the way his shoulders had stiffened when he saw Cassian standing there like he owned the place. Noah hadn’t yelled. Hadn’t made a scene. He’d just looked at me, long and quiet, like he was trying to decide if I was worth the pain. Then he’d turned and left. No goodbye. No “see you later.” Just gone.I hated myself for it.The guilt sat heavy in my chest, th







