CALEB The drive back to the University of Delaware is a quiet one, thankfully. Four days have passed since that night at Brooke's cabin, where I’d been a creep. The memory of pressing my ear to Tony's door, of hearing Luke's rough voice and Tony's soft moans, still clings to me like a massive shroud. I can't shake the disgust, the feeling that I crossed a line I should not have. Every time Tony shifts in the passenger seat beside Vanya, or laughs at something she says from the back, I feel even worse. I keep my eyes on the passing highway, making sure I don't accidentally meet his gaze in the rearview mirror, terrified he'll see the ugliness in my head. Luke isn't with us. He left the cabin on his own, heading straight back, which is both a relief and a new source of unease. Part of me is glad for the reprieve, for not having to face him directly, but another part wonders if he knows, if he senses something off about me. The thought makes my skin crawl. Hours later, the lan
CALEB The snow falls in thick, silent curtains around the cabin. It’s late, past two in the morning, and the only sounds are the wind whispering through the pines and the occasional creak of the old wood. Everyone else is long asleep, their snores a distant, muffled symphony from inside. Vanya and I sit on the deck, bundled in borrowed blankets, the cold biting at my nose but the whiskey in my mug warming my belly. We’re definitely past tipsy, nudging into that comfortable, hazy drunk. "Honestly," Vanya slurs, gesturing vaguely towards the cabin. "Brooke's so stiff, you'd think she swallowed a coat hanger. And Ham? He just... exists. Like a very polite ghost. He’s a weirdo." I snort, taking a long sip. "Blake's the real enigma. All that quiet intensity. Probably plotting world domination." Vanya giggles, a surprisingly light sound in the heavy night. "Or just trying to figure out how to get a signal for his stock portfolio." We fall into a comfortable silence, watching the snow
TONY. At 1:30 AM, a silhouetted figure emerges from the hallway light and into my room. "Fucking finally," I whisper. He smiles warmly, “Sorry. I had to make sure everyone’s asleep.” He rushes over to the bed and pulls the cover off me. He makes a choked sound when he sees I’m naked. “I’ve been waiting.” I blush. “What if it’d been Ham or Caleb?” He kneels over me and I unconsciously wrap my legs around him. “Them?” “What if it’d been Caleb?” He presses. “Why would Caleb be in my room?” “I wouldn’t know, you both seem so close lately.” My gut tightens, a cold knot twisting deep in my insides. He's right. I can’t deny that these past few days, Caleb and I have grown closer than I’d have expected, a closeness I hadn't even fully acknowledged until now. I shift, pressing my hips subtly against his, hoping to draw his focus back to us, to this moment. It works. “I’ve missed you.” He sighs and pitches forward onto me, his entire weight settling with an
CALEBThe hum of the engine is a steady drone, eating up the miles. Outside the window, the Maine landscape blurs into a monochrome of snow-covered evergreens and stark, skeletal branches reaching for a steel-gray sky. It’s New Years Eve and we’re on our way to Brooke's cabin, deep in the opposite edge of Coastal Maine. Matt is at the wheel, his hands precise on the steering wheel. I’m in the front passenger seat with him. The air in the car feels thick, charged with all the things that I want to say and what I think should be said.In the backseat, the atmosphere is deceptively light. Vanya, Tony, and Luke are a familiar trio, their voices weaving in and out of a conversation about of old memories and high school parties. Vanya laughs, a clear, bright sound that seems to echo too loudly in the enclosed space. She’s being her usual self, animated and quick-witted, her earlier anger and fear from the that morning seemingly erased and tucked away along with Tony’s bruise that’s barely
CALEB’S POV"Oh, Tony, is this your new boyfriend?" The words replay, devoid of her oblivious tone, just the simple question. And for a second, that fleeting warmth returns. It's a surprising, quiet thought, a small, selfish spark in the midst of this overwhelming chaos. Nice to think about. Yeah, it really is. There's a certain ease to being near Tony, a comfort in this chaotic orbit that I find surprisingly appealing. It's a ridiculous thought, given the circumstances, the actual boyfriend, the absent boyfriend. Yet, a tiny, almost imperceptible smile plays on my lips. It's a quiet rebellion against the tension, a fleeting moment of my own dry wit asserting itself. A silent, personal joke in a room where everything else feels like a trap.Elizabeth's oblivious laugh hangs in the air, a bright, jarring sound in the sudden, charged silence. Richard's eyebrow is still lifted, his gaze dissecting the moment, settling on Tony with that familiar, analytical intensity. He misses nothing.
TONY (CHRISTMAS EVE PARTY) The morning’s cold, gray winter light, slicing through the fog and snow-dusted pines along the rocky coast, had a stark, unforgiving edge that bared every flaw. Now it’s softened into a warm, golden Christmas Eve glow. Rose’s sprawling stone and shingle house, nestled among salt-battered pines, smells of their sharp needles, her lavish dinner, and the faint sweetness of her roses, somehow clinging to life in the icy coastal winter. Crystal chandeliers gleam above polished oak floors, and fairy lights twinkle, turning the place into a goddamn holiday postcard. Every surface shines, every garland sparkles, with gilded frames catching the light. The distant crash of waves on the rocky shore and a hint of ocean mist seep through the frosty windows, blending with the festive buzz. It’s a stark shift from this morning’s chaos. My nose throbs, a dull reminder of the disaster that makes me hate Nate even more. A bruise creeps across the bridge, splotch