A mark on the back of Harrison's hand as he exited the room. He moved like his feet had been bred in two places—the pride that had learned to support him, and the fear that had learned he'd lost all. Blackwood Manor's halls were gray today, the floor wax casting every tread. Servants departed at his coming, heads low, obstinately averted faces set to do twice done. They knew that too. But there would be none to tell it. Harrison descended the stairs with his fists clutched tightly about the banister. His heart beat in his chest step by step. The other guests were making noises in his ears by the time he arrived in the great hall—music, weary and now stale, drink-stained conversation, already half-checked laughter of the late night. He lingered for a second at the door. He might turn about and go. Do nothing. Load his shame. But the bare cupboard. The clarity of the air. The open letter upstairs. No. The world needs to be informed. He gritted his teeth and out of the cor
Nights were awful. Day, full of movement, filled her—racing across small floors, ironing Shayla's hand-washed laundry in hot water, cutting vegetables while sunlight streamed through the kitchen window. Rhythm kept her balanced. But at night, when darkness came down, when the street was deserted and only the noise was the scurrying of rats up the alley, silence wasn't an option. Silence summoned voices. She screamed, waking up to the bloated belly, Eleanor's maniacal laugh echoing in her mind, taunting her and Vivian's smile. Samuel's deep, deadly tone. And to top it all—Harrison's smile, his ice-water lip curl when she most needed him. She. She could still ring out with the laughter in her mind, splitting her in two. She rolled over onto her side and drew the rent blanket over her as if it would insulate her from the storm brewing inside. ---The nightmares came back one evening. She was in the ballroom. Chandeliers glimmered. People laughed at one another, diamond-sha
It inched in on its weak, shy light. The sort which never really manages to make it past the floor before it's gone, like it is as afraid of the world that it has to encounter as the world of it is. It inched into the black cloak of night with soft gray and pink edges. Her legs ache from walking, her body bruised by the pain of not only her weight, but weight-bearin' pain of her sorrow. Step by step a question: Was she doing this? Should she be doing this? And yet here she was, walking down an unfamiliar road, with nothing in her marrow but weariness and an innocent child's heart to spur her on to the why she walked. And then— "Leya!" Her cry ripped the stillness. She spun about, gasp knotted in her breast. Shayla. Her sister skidded around the curve of the road, cloak streaming behind her, hair pulled back and wind-tossed, cheeks red, rosy pink-red, face smeared with wet, but eyes aflame, brazenly staring into Leya's. When at last she arrived close enough to her sister, she sa
Days to the final fiddle trill, the worn-out laughter, and the crystal glass memory of days past. Yet the taste of it all lingered with Harrison. He hadn't seen her since. Initially, it hadn't affected him this much. He'd sat and thought to himself that Leya was pouting, always just out of his grasp. He'd imagined she was in her bedroom, crying or pacing, starving until she relented again. And he'd teased her for it, laughed. Let her pout. Let her learn. She would crawl back when she was done with her pout. That's what he'd been telling himself. Days passed. The house was spacious but not infinite. His servants complained as they darted toward him, catching his eye but he did not wish to see even a hint of her anywhere—outside the dining room, outside the gardens, outside the solitude of his own bedchamber. And yet for pride, would not give in. Until tonight. Something held him there at her door down the hallway. A silence that ran deeper than a grievance in his h
The house smelled differently at night now — not the pretense of cologne and lemon wax polish, but the hot, metallic reek of fear ever since Samuel's fury, the manor seethed like a wild beast, all corridors and darkness vibrating to the rhythm of menace. Servants huddled behind doors; even the chandeliers quivered ever so faintly in the midst of that fury. Shayla sensed it like a ricochet off her bones. She had already been running in high gear to stew on Samuel's threat: "Bring me her family." The threat was a knife thrown in their path and it revolved there, gleaming. She had watched the others leave the hallway that night, watched whiteness and rigidity on her mother's face, watched her mother, too, say goodbye and bow her head as if a halter had been tightened around his throat. She could see the men in black suits, Blackwood's name spoken to the right ears, his arm of vengeance spanning across cities and states. She'd seen enough to know what Samuel was capable of. She would n
A mark on the back of Harrison's hand as he exited the room. He moved like his feet had been bred in two places—the pride that had learned to support him, and the fear that had learned he'd lost all. Blackwood Manor's halls were gray today, the floor wax casting every tread. Servants departed at his coming, heads low, obstinately averted faces set to do twice done. They knew that too. But there would be none to tell it. Harrison descended the stairs with his fists clutched tightly about the banister. His heart beat in his chest step by step. The other guests were making noises in his ears by the time he arrived in the great hall—music, weary and now stale, drink-stained conversation, already half-checked laughter of the late night. He lingered for a second at the door. He might turn about and go. Do nothing. Load his shame. But the bare cupboard. The clarity of the air. The open letter upstairs. No. The world needs to be informed. He gritted his teeth and out of the corridor.