Chapter 16 - Sawyer is a good guy

Cora's POV

I resigned myself to dumbness, as I was swallowed by extreme kindness. But the forbearance of my old car having been scrapped had worked its way in me to paralysis. The utterances to express my emotions were completely misplaced. I tried to reason and take in the kindness which rather seemed to be a loss to me.

Had I the conviction from the onset that he was serious when he mentioned scrapping it, I would have retaliated but it seems too late now. It was the only entity I had in memory of my old boy. I detested him for abandoning us but I can't also seem to completely disconnect myself or to part with him.

Maybe my longing for him was what gave me the impression that I loathed him. Driving that car made me feel close to him. I was so upset that I just wanted to retire to a quiet place where I could battle alone in my thoughts. I had completely forgotten that I was in Sawyer's car till I heard his voice. It was as if I had gone through a trance.