Christian It was immature. Not only immature but stupid to say. Deep down, I knew I was just being jealous when I said it, but I couldn't help it.Nate was going on and on about the younger player, and I burned with annoyance. "You used to be that cool, you know?" Nate hadn't even meant the words with any malice, but it still infuriated me. I'm not old news. I am still that good. Still, I can't deny that the kid is fast. Later, when I returned to my hotel room, I'd looked him up against my better judgment. Ashford Ryder. 23 years, and a member of Brooklyn Bruisers. They are a fairly good club. One of the top ten clubs in the country. But is a striker that good? It is almost laughable that they were able to get him. Nate was right. The boy did remind me a little bit of myself—young, fast, and immensely skilled. The best striker the European league has ever seen, they'd called me. I never realized how much of an old news I'd become, but seeing that younger player relishi
Ashford I can feel his gaze on me. I act like I don't notice it, but it's the only thing I can focus on since I walked into this pub. His gaze is so intense, I nearly squirm under it. Why is he staring at me so intently? And most importantly, why do I like it? He's trying to hide his obvious ogling, but I can feel it like a caress on my skin—it's prickly, and heated, but I don't hate it. "You didn't say you were coming here. I would have come with you." The man in front of me pouts. I throw a playful grin his way. "The party got a little wild for me so I decided to step out a bit. This place is much calmer anyway." It's a lie. Christian Thompson—that's why I'm here. I looked him up. Gosh, it's too silly to even explain, but I think three strikes is more than enough reason to at least try to know who the guy is. I mean it's a little odd, isn't it? He's the one I bumped into before the game. Then he was the defender I snatched the goal from, something I think h
Ashford The fucking prig. A slur? Really? That's his best shot? But my expression isn't exactly one of annoyance as It should be, instead I feel surprise. the cool wave of it washes down the slope of my back and I feel my lips tug into a sneer This is the 21st Century for heavens sake! Who the fuck still uses slurs like that? It seems the British bastard is actually a bigger homophobe than I thought possible. I clench my fist in annoyance. "Excuse me?" I give him a stony glare, that I remember Cole calling cute once. The memory makes me even more annoyed. Because of my softer features, it’s sometimes a bit hard for some people to take me seriously. Case in point, my gla
Christian Bullshit. That's a load of bullshit if I've ever heard one. Not because the man in front of me isn't a fairly good liar. No, his words come out straight enough. He doesn't even stutter as he vomits those lies at me. It's the look in his eyes. He isn't looking at me like he wants to be friends. I've had more than my fair share of blokes like him, so I know when a man wants more than friendly company. And Ashford Ryder definitely wants more than that. Someone else in my position would be happy—heck pleased, if everything I've heard about the dude is to go by. But I'm not. This is just another reminder that he's better than me. So he's gay too. Just perfect. Not only that, but he isn't some fucking coward still stuck in the closet after two decades.
Ashford Recently, I find that I like a few things, and making Christian Thompson uncomfortable us quickly becoming one of them. more like at the very top. His sharp intake of breath, when I say those words almost make up for the inner turmoil I felt saying them. The way he squirmed, under my unrelenting gaze, and his look of shock, almost makes me smile. Almost. Contrary to the front I'm putting up with him, I'm normally not this open while hitting on guys. Heck, I'm normally the one being hit on. It's oddly refreshing and a bit debilitating to be on the giving end this time. But I think to myself—it's worth it, because Christian is just my type. Tall, dark and handsome. Not to mention older too. One look at him, and you'll know he knows exactly what to do. It also doesn’t hurt that we have the same interest—soccer. I won't deny that some
Christian My ears ring when I hear his words. Actually, they start ringing when I process them, because I can't fucking believe my ears. But even as my mouth falls open in shock at his offer—proposition, whatever the fuck those string of words mean, my mind whirled as it tries to fill in the blanks. Ashford Ryder—a literal stranger, albeit celebrity, a hot one to booth, wants to hook up with me. Taking in the guy more closely, the age difference between us couldn't be more obvious if we tried. He's ten years my junior, ten years. That's as close to jail bait as I've ever come, and men this young have never really been my type. Mainly because they remind me too much of myself when it comes to relationships—unsure of what I want from them. The thoughts hit too close to home to be what I'll be interested in, so I've strict
Ashford Shit. I've gone and fucked it up now. my arms clenched, as greenest pair of eyes stare at me. Eyes darkened by what I like to assume in confusion but I know is annoyance.why did I say that out loud? what is wrong with me? Why am I acting like some possessive maniac over a man who's made it more than clear that he doesn't even want to be in my presence? Christian doesn't even like me enough to hook up with me, and here I am, asking him to stop staring at Jake or was it Josh. Fuck, I need to get that guy's name right. "What?" This is the first real look on his face I've seen. It's not careful or curated like everything he's given me tonight. This look takes him by surprise, because he didn't expect what I said. I clear my throat awkwardly and try to do some damage control. I'm good at that. Even my manager says that. "What I mean is, you need to stop looking at
Christian The back of my ears burn a bright shade of red I thankfully can't see when he finishes his absurd list. He thinks I don't like him? He doesn't even know the half of it. I can't fucking stand his prissy ass. The dark consuming feeling returns in full force once he finishes his round off, and I suddenly want to punch his stupid face. Why is he even talking to me? Why won't the fucking guy just walk away from me? It's not bad enough that everything around me suddenly smells like him, because he's standing barely two feet from me. Basically encroaching my space if you ask me, since no one thought the guy the concept of personal space. Every time I take a deep breath, I can smell his soft but rich cologne, corroding my senses and leaving a lingering feel, practically begging me to suck on his neck and taste it Now he's spitting out things he thinks he knows about m
Ashford A cup of coffee can fix everything, anything at all no matter how bad. In fact, even the thought of a cup of coffee steaming and being made ready for my consumption lifts my mood. I glance at the man in my room, a different man from the one I woke up with. A part of me—a really small part that doesn't really care—wonders where the other guy is, but I'm too immersed in the brewing coffee to say anything. "Don't look so smug. You're making us pancakes." Cole pouts at me, before bursting into light giggles. I can't help but smile back. He's one of the most cheerful morning people I've ever met. It's not like I'm a grump myself, but he's perpetually in a good mood every morning. Honestly, his mood is always infectious. But I wince when I process what he's just said, and then full on frown. "I'm too exhausted after my night. Can't we just have coffee and then I'll go back to bed." I answer. He rolls his eyes so hard, I wonder if he has seen his brains already. “It's almo
Christian. The sunlight streaming down my window I can ignore, but the loud blaring sound in my room that's so loud, I want to smack the object—that is quite impossible to ignore. I frown and roll around the bed, slapping my hand everywhere, while I try to pinpoint the exact location of the ringing. I don't find it, and my frown deepens. Fuck, it's too early to be in a bad mood, but I really don't want to open my eyes. The ringing suddenly stops, and I sigh. Maybe whoever the fuck is calling me will get the message that I don't want to answer, and finally stop calling. Besides, it can't be more than 8 am in the morning, and everyone who truly knows me, knows that I don't do mornings. Always hated them. I don't understand how anyone can be happy so early in the day. Soph calls me a storm cloud in the sunny mornings, while she's always cheerful and eager. Shit, which reminds me, Soph. I forgot to call her last night, after my match. I must have been really exhausted if I fo
Ashford. I'm left dumbfounded, and it isn't because I've never been turned down and blatantly rejected before—more times than I can count in one night. Although, I'm rarely ever turned down, that isn't it. It's him. Why is he so adamant? I mean, it's so clear in his eyes—the want, the need, the desperate urge to crawl inside another person's skin and seek relief. He can't hide it no matter how much he tries, but that doesn't stop Christian Thompson. No matter what I say, or do, or how desperately I throw myself at him, he still sticks to his facade. It's quite literally the most shocking thing I've ever seen. Most people—myself included—just take what they want, irrespective of how wrong it is. But not him. He seems to hold on to the belief that this is wrong, and no matter how much I push and prod, he won't budge. Maybe I shouldn't have told him fuck you, but why not? He was acting beyond disrespectful, a behavior I've never been known to take from anyone. What if that'
Christian. Could I have handled things better? Maybe. Did I? Absolutely not. I hate the guy, that much I know. And it's not the kind of hate you admit, and then realize you actually burn for the person. I'm one hundred percent sure of it. Everything about Ashford Ryder infuriates me. His harmless casual teasing, the way he carries himself, the way he plays soccer. I fucking despise everything. Jealousy is an ugly emotion, but it's not like knowing what it is can change how I feel. I hadn't lied to him—I really did wish I never saw the guy again, and I would bash his face in the next time I saw him. The fucking dick. Even though everything he did tonight did made my own dick hard as hell, I still hate him. I probably hate him even more for doing that, because how dare he raise such animal lust in me? I rub down my face frantically as I walk back to my hotel room. More like half jog, and half walk. I'm wound tighter than a cord about to snap, and I know what I need is a har
Ashford Flirting is like scoring a goal. No matter how good you are at it, there are still so many things you have to consider for it to actually work. With Christian Thompson, it isn't at all like that. Flirting with him is like gambling.I can say words that'll make his breath come out harsher, make his pretty eyes dilate, and make him swallow roughly. But what I can't do, is make him agree that he even remotely wants to take me up on my offer. And I badly want to do that. Fine, I can concede to defeat. He doesn't have to follow me up to my room tonight—I have a date for that, but I can't seem to understand why he's so hell-bent on acting like I upset him. That is why I'm so fixated. "Don’t you have any decency?" His words come out gritted, and his eyes dart all around us, like he's scared someone might see us. I raise a brow, and smirk at him, like I didn't just tell him that I was receiving a blow job when he'd been badmouthing me. There's something about the guy that
Christian The back of my ears burn a bright shade of red I thankfully can't see when he finishes his absurd list. He thinks I don't like him? He doesn't even know the half of it. I can't fucking stand his prissy ass. The dark consuming feeling returns in full force once he finishes his round off, and I suddenly want to punch his stupid face. Why is he even talking to me? Why won't the fucking guy just walk away from me? It's not bad enough that everything around me suddenly smells like him, because he's standing barely two feet from me. Basically encroaching my space if you ask me, since no one thought the guy the concept of personal space. Every time I take a deep breath, I can smell his soft but rich cologne, corroding my senses and leaving a lingering feel, practically begging me to suck on his neck and taste it Now he's spitting out things he thinks he knows about m
Ashford Shit. I've gone and fucked it up now. my arms clenched, as greenest pair of eyes stare at me. Eyes darkened by what I like to assume in confusion but I know is annoyance.why did I say that out loud? what is wrong with me? Why am I acting like some possessive maniac over a man who's made it more than clear that he doesn't even want to be in my presence? Christian doesn't even like me enough to hook up with me, and here I am, asking him to stop staring at Jake or was it Josh. Fuck, I need to get that guy's name right. "What?" This is the first real look on his face I've seen. It's not careful or curated like everything he's given me tonight. This look takes him by surprise, because he didn't expect what I said. I clear my throat awkwardly and try to do some damage control. I'm good at that. Even my manager says that. "What I mean is, you need to stop looking at
Christian My ears ring when I hear his words. Actually, they start ringing when I process them, because I can't fucking believe my ears. But even as my mouth falls open in shock at his offer—proposition, whatever the fuck those string of words mean, my mind whirled as it tries to fill in the blanks. Ashford Ryder—a literal stranger, albeit celebrity, a hot one to booth, wants to hook up with me. Taking in the guy more closely, the age difference between us couldn't be more obvious if we tried. He's ten years my junior, ten years. That's as close to jail bait as I've ever come, and men this young have never really been my type. Mainly because they remind me too much of myself when it comes to relationships—unsure of what I want from them. The thoughts hit too close to home to be what I'll be interested in, so I've strict
Ashford Recently, I find that I like a few things, and making Christian Thompson uncomfortable us quickly becoming one of them. more like at the very top. His sharp intake of breath, when I say those words almost make up for the inner turmoil I felt saying them. The way he squirmed, under my unrelenting gaze, and his look of shock, almost makes me smile. Almost. Contrary to the front I'm putting up with him, I'm normally not this open while hitting on guys. Heck, I'm normally the one being hit on. It's oddly refreshing and a bit debilitating to be on the giving end this time. But I think to myself—it's worth it, because Christian is just my type. Tall, dark and handsome. Not to mention older too. One look at him, and you'll know he knows exactly what to do. It also doesn’t hurt that we have the same interest—soccer. I won't deny that some