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Verge of collapsing

作者: Sinner
last update 公開日: 2026-05-12 22:13:54

Nikolai

My chest hurts.

And I just can’t explain the feeling properly.

Probably it started when Nathaniel told me to leave, or when I clearly saw the pain in his eyes, begging me to leave.

He couldn’t even stand my presence, and that thought had something hard choking me.

Eventually, I slowly backed away before turning around and walking off.

I curled my hands into fists, feeling the overwhelming anger boiling through my veins.

This is all my fault.

I shouldn’t have underestimated Liam. I shoul
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