"You're still upset Poof?" Mama said to me in a pouty voice. I had been seated by the pool, with my legs in the water ever since my confrontation with Zach, apparently moody for so many reasons at once."I'm not upset Mama." I muttered in denial."Don't be like that dear," she walked over and sat next to me. "I'm really not upset." I sniffed. "Are you crying?" She peered into my face."No!" I whimpered just as a tear dropped. I caught it with the back of my palm."Oh my baby." She placed my head on her shoulder as I wept like a baby."Mama I hate my life." I whined. "Hush darling. But why?" She shushed me and asked."I just hate everything. I'm so fat, my husband doesn't even care about me, I feel so lost and confused. I'm so tired!" I lamented."But Zach cares about you." She said slowly and carefully like she was speaking to a child."No he doesn't." I refused to believe that."Oh dear, marriage isn't always rosy but I'm sure he cares about you. I just spoke to him and he's reall
Picking out color schemes could be very difficult at times but because I was stubborn I did not let Zach hire a professional to help us set up the nursery. I wanted to do it myself. It was a way to keep me busy and it was a good way to start preparing myself for the journey of motherhood. If this was a way to help me fall in love with my pregnancy, then I was down for it.I crouched down on the floor, visibly exhausted after standing over a pile of magazines filled with decor ideas placed on what I'd call my work desk."Come in Malia!" I said when I heard the knock on the door."Malia's still fixing your drink."My eyes snapped up at the sound of a voice I hadn't heard for quite a while. "Zara?" "Surprised to see me?""Of course I am. You've never come up here." I made to get on my feet."Don't worry about it," she stopped me with a wave of her hands. I sat back down questioning with my eyes what she had come to do."I'm just here to give you these. They're for Zach." She said, appa
"You're in good shape Mrs Hawkins. You just need to exercise more, it'll help with your birth canal when it's time to pop your baby out." "Alright thank you doc." I said to my gynaecologist with a relieved smile. I was worried my blood pressure had spiked again but luckily I was doing just fine and so was my baby. I couldn't believe I was done with my second trimester. It felt just like yesterday that I started this journey and I was more than halfway through it. My bump turned out bigger than I'd thought it'd be. I felt kinda insecure because I had added so much weight but surprisingly, Zach had been a sweetheart. He was actually keeping to his promise to be a better guy. Crazy how he went as far as taking me on a date for no exact reason. Who would have thought there was a sweet side to Zach that could be discovered? Well, certainly not me. "Why would you want to get a haircut? You look great." I said, placing the piece of cloth I was folding aside just to come out of the closet
"You okay?""You've asked me that like a hundred times already, Zach. I'm fine!" She rolled her beautiful brown eyes at me obviously fighting back a smile."I'm just being a caring husband." I shrugged."I'm simply taking a walk around the estate for exercise like the doctor advised. I am fine..." She dragged out the last part."Yes ma'am." I chuckled.Like she said, we were currently taking one of her power walks around the house for exercise purposes. Of course she wasn't allowed to do anything too tedious but I went with her to make sure she was fine. Walking alone was not an option for her anyways."Thanks for the spa day." She spoke up after a few minutes of silence."Did it help you relax?" I asked, casually taking in the sight of her barefaced beauty."It did." She nodded slowly."Glad it worked.""Yeah." She heaved a long breath afterwards. "Are you alright?" I protectively went over to her side. "Yeah. I just needed to take a breath.""You should sit down for a while." I su
"Oh I didn't notice you there." I was startled when I turned to go back into the room and met him perched in the corner."Hungry?" He asked."Uhm yeah." It was on the tip of my tongue to ask if he heard anything from my conversation with Marv but then I decided against it."Get dressed. We're going for dinner." He said and walked away. I followed him with my eyes, searching for any signs of annoyance but he seemed fine. Why was I so worried about him hearing the details of that conversation though? Marv was right, he was treating me nice for a reason so I couldn't let myself be fooled by his sweet gestures no matter what.I got dressed in a nice two piece maternity outfit that accentuated my bump to perfection. Maybe it was something about Santorini, but I was sure getting my groove on and admitting to myself that I was a beautiful pregnant woman.I wanted to try everything on that exclusive cuisine table. The aroma of the meals teased my nostrils so much, I had to order for takeouts.
I glanced through the archives on my computer and blinked back a few tears that tried to escape. If I could turn back the hands of time, I would. I was truly sorry for all I did and though there was a sort of calm now, I knew it was simply the calm before the raging thunderstorm that was going to hit me.I thought back to Hannah. We had a great time in Santorini, she didn't want to leave. To be honest, I didn't want to leave either. Confessing that I had developed a soft spot for her was a spontaneous but deliberate move. It was a way to keep her on my side if things went south. I needed her to be in love with me by the time things would get a little rough. It sounds selfish, I know, but I couldn't let her out of my sight and away from my side. It was too much of a risk. I hated having to lie to her but it was necessary in this case."Zach?""Babe!" I quickly shut down the computer before she could come closer and see what it showed me."Your parents are downstairs. They want you to c
I hated how I had to go to the bathroom all the time. Seemed like my bladder had forgotten that I was human and being heavily pregnant made it difficult for me to get on my feet every two minutes for a freaking bathroom break!I had paced the length and breadth of this room, dialing Zach's phone but he wasn't picking up. He wasn't even back yet and I had a lot of questions for him. Lots of them.I dialed his number again and it went straight to voicemail. Where the heck had this man gone, leaving me worried sick?Mama had waited up with me, even Zara did too but then they had both gotten tired and decided to sleep. Almost like I had developed insomnia all of a sudden, I couldn't get a wink of sleep. Finding a good sleeping position with how heavy I was had become such a chore so I didn't want to lay down comfortably, only to get up again whenever he arrived."Zachary Hawkins where are you?" I muttered, looking at the time once again. It was past midnight already and I was beginning
"Are you alright?" I glanced up as I heard her mother question her downcast demeanor. Putting the meal that she was to eat aside, she glanced up at us."I want to be discharged already. I hate it here.""The doctor hasn't given you the clear." I"I'm fine." "He insisted on bed rest." I said to ease helplessness on her mother's face."Why don't you want me to go home? What are you hiding this time?" "Why would I be hiding anything from you?""Isn't that all you do?" "Erm, I'll think I'll excuse you both." My mother-in-law's tired sigh was the last thing that dropped before a stretch of silence as she left the room. Hannah glared at me furiously."Why do you want to create a scene? You want to fight when you're not even strong enough?""I've been stuck here for a week, Zachary. I want to go back to the house.""Our home." I corrected."It doesn't feel like a home. A home built on lies doesn't suffice for that title.""What lie are you accusing me of this time?" I was sick of her her