I heard him chuckled a bit. Suddenly, I swallowed hard and closed my eyes, and still did not face him. I was stunned because of his chuckle. Why... Aish!
"You left me on the call," he accused me. I felt even more embarrassed. I also pinched my palm a few times because of nervousness.
I lifted my gaze and got shocked when our eyes met. "S-sorry."
"Hmm..." I just bowed again. I can't stare at him for long because I feel, every second I look at him, I will give up.
"Can you look at me?" I was bewildered by what he said and suddenly looked at him. I secretly swallowed hard and my insides were sweating because of the excessive nervousness that he brought to my system.
Lushiane, you're fine. Don't be nervous, he's not a monster for Pete's sake.
"Better," he said and smiled which made me nervous.
I'm confused. It seems like we've only just met, but I feel like the depth of our relationship with each other was deep. There seems to be something between us. I feel nervous, happy, sad, and annoyed when he is close to me. Why did I suddenly feel those shits? Did I like him? No way, highway! It's impossible.
My brows creased as he stared at me... Fucking stared at me with his sweet smile. I pouted and tried to force a smile on my lips. This is awkward, my gosh!
What kind of spirit possesses him, and he was so kind to me? Is he toying with me? Did he notice that it's quite awkward for me with just the two of us? Why does the time seem so slow, and the two are still not here? Tsk.
Xalent was about to speak when the two of them suddenly arrived and my cousin dropped the tray furiously. So the witch's mood seems unpleasant. But thanks to them because I was just about to leave earlier. I couldn't bear to stare into his claiming eyes.
What the! Really, Lushiane? Can't he just look like that? You immediately give in to malice. I just shook my head and then turned my gaze to my cousin who looked ready to revolt.
"That man is really annoying! Who is he? The owner of the school? The way he demands... Argh! He really thinks he's handsome! Tsk," my cousin said annoyingly and opened the Piattos she bought.
"What happened?" I innocently asked as I watched the outburst of my cousin. This one is a bit overreacting, so let's just be considerate.
"Oh cousin! Oh really. It's my first time being ordered by someone. Tsk!" I heard Aisie laugh so I turned to her, but she just shrugged her shoulders and then nodded. This woman doesn't want to talk.
I just looked back in front of me and was so surprised to see that they are like a sweet couple, eating each others food. The heck! What's up? Why are they like that? They seem to have a relationship. But why... Why does Xalent make me feel different, earlier? Maybe, he is really playing with me? Tsk. At least I didn't care about him. I'm just really disgusted.
"You're cute," I heard Xalent say so I looked at him and I was dumbfounded to see him looking at me even though my cousin's head was leaning on his shoulder.
Am I what he is declaring? Or am I just too assuming? I'm sick of being an assuming person.
"Thank you," I heard my cousin say. Oh right! I am just assuming things because of his stares. My goodness!
Tsk!
When the deadly recess that was supposed to be alive was over, Aisie and I returned to the classroom and left the two of them alone. I hope they just went to a motel because they're so live, they are giving us live disgusting moments. They really want attention. Tsk! Love is lethal. Mischievous love. I hope those two have their karma.
"What's the plan next week? It's semester break," Aisie said as we sat down.
"Hmmm... Shopping? Sleep? Movie? I don't know. And maybe my cousin and I visited the winery because she wanted to."
"It's boring. Let's go camping!" I was just hooked on her suggestion.
"Just the three of us? No way on earth! I'll just sleep—"
"We'll invite Xalent and his friends." I suddenly thought. Well... But what? No way. I hate it more. No, no, no.
"No way." I shook my head.
"Yes, way!" She exclaimed joyfully.
"If you want to, just go and forget me. I'll just keep myself home and alleviated. I don't want to be with that guy. Never." She smirked at me, and she seemed to have something on her mind.
I don't want to go.
When the examination was over today, I immediately left and did not say goodbye to Aisie. I was in a hurry because Dienvel texted me that he was at home and he had just arrived from New Zealand. Jeez! I'm so excited. My boy best friend got home and I miss him so much.
When I got home, I saw a car outside. Woah! Audi R8, for real? I once wanted to have it, but only in the future. When I entered the house, I found my cousin and my best friend talking.
"Dienvel!" I squealed and ran to hug him.
"I miss you," he said and kissed me on the cheek like he used to.
I let go of the hug and stared at him. His face becomes matured a bit since he is already a college student. His hair was also a bit messy, but it suited him. I also saw his adam's apple, as if it would come out any time soon. Also, his body is well-built now, unlike before he was malnourished hahaha!
"I miss you, too! But... I can't believe it! You're so handsome Dienvel. Shit! I think I'm going to drool or fantasize about you hahaha!" He twitched his head and then invited me to sit down.
"Me too, couz! I thought when we met again, he was skinny, and he was still the same as before... Malnourished. Hahaha! But! Oh my goodness... The mayor now has abs that make him hotter than ever," Deylia said and we both laughed. Dienvel just scowled that makes us laugh more.
"Of course! I went to the gym. I know that you like me, Deyl. No need to tease me. I'll hit you even if you're an alcoholic person."
"Excuse me? There you go. I'll get something to eat. Hmp!" My cousin said calmly and then went to the kitchen.
"Take me for a walk here," said my friend.
"Well, are you going to stay here? Does Dad know?"
"Of course!" I just smiled.
Wait! I have a bright idea! Goodness!
"Just come with us to the camping. We're on a semester break. You know Aisie, don't you?" I said. Yup! I'll take him with me for camping, so I don't have to hang out here at home.
"Yes, your flirty friend?" Wow! He's really annoyed with Aisie, Huh?
"Wow! You're crucial! Not really. Just acts like a little kid," I said and we both laughed.
I said goodbye first to get dressed so that we could continue our conversation later. He had arrived here earlier and it was a good thing that Dey came home from school because otherwise, Dienvel might have gone crazy because there was no one to talk to. Kidding!
I was about to leave the room when my cellphone suddenly rang so I instantly picked it up and looked at who the caller was. Tsk! It is Xalent. I recognize it because I already added his number to the contacts. I immediately ended the call and put my cellphone over the study table.
Not now Xalent... Not now that I'm not sure of what I feel, right now. I'm still confused because of the currency you give to my system. I feel like I'm going crazy.
I blinked several times because of the closeness of our faces. I can even smell his manly perfume, which I seemingly thought he had bathed himself in the perfume because of the fragrance."Ehem." In an instant, I was estranged from Xalent because of my good friend. Goodness!"I-I'm sorry," I said, and I didn't know if I was going to walk or not, as if I was glued to where I stood because of his presence. Shit!He smiled and held out his hand. "May I?"I just reached out his hand, and he hung my hand on his arm. I can still see Aisie on the side, smiling like a fool. Furthermore, I, on the other hand, was anxious because of the impulsive beats of my heart, as if I was going to have a heart attack because of the extreme nervousness I was feeling.Shit! Am I doing it right? Maybe, I look like a fool.When we entered, I was amazed at how well they designed the ve
The next day, I informed dad that I'm going to sleep here at Aisie's house. I also sent him a message that I will spend the night later because there was an event at school, and I am glad that he still let me to, even if I make him disappointed because of my actions. I thought daddy wouldn't reply to me but he replied, saying 'take care' and 'I love you'. I just smiled and realized that he still cares for me even though I did that, I lost my respect for her.I woke up at ten o'clock and the gown was delivered here at Aisie's house, exactly nine o'clock, she said. That girl is full of positivity and always thinking that she might be the chosen Mrs. Claus and maybe Mr. Claus is said to be her lifetime partner. I just rolled my eyes because of her exaggeration.Aisie's imagination is really something.I’m also grateful to be here with Aisie. She knew I had a problem and she had witnessed my destruction yesterday, but
"Are you ready?" Daddy asked when we got in the car.I don't know if I'm ready, I don’t know if I will be able to smile at my mom thinking about the pain she caused leaving us. I don't know... If I could."I think so..." I just looked out the window when the car commenced.Today, we are going to meet my mom. And dad still wants me to talk to mommy, like the old times mommy is my favorite to talk to, the one who I want to sleep next to, and the one who I want to be informed about my dilemmas. My favorite person in my whole life, but she's the first one who broke my heart. The one who left me just to be with the other family.Sometimes I thought that she didn't like me so she left and looked for someone else. Sometimes I also doubt her love. If she really loved me, me, and daddy, or did she really consider me a child. Lots of questions, but I don’t know if I’ll get the right answers.
The next day, Aisie came to me early and reminded me that we were leaving at three o'clock to the shop of a well-known designer of gowns. I was sleepy when she arrived here at six in the morning, and she really disturbed sleep. I didn't want to face her, but she sprinkled water in my face that makes me so irritated that is why I just woke up even though I wanted to hit her with my lampshade.She said that she was tired of waiting for the time at their house, and she didn't have anyone to talk to there so she just decided to come here. I just rolled my eyes because of what she was saying, she just didn't want to admit that she's too excited.I bring her out of my room and told her to just wait in the living room because I was going to take a bath and she had nothing else to do in my room. It's better that she's just downstairs and watched, she's also used to it, sometimes she doesn't get my permission for her to watch Netflix downstairs.
Today is Friday and I didn’t come out of the classroom yesterday even though I was so hungry, I endured everything just so I couldn’t see him and couldn’t remember again the embarrassment that happened because of my shameless post. But now... Now I won't hide anymore.Why should I hide? And who am I hiding from? I shook my head because of my question that seemed like I was just fooling myself.Aisie teased me yesterday because of my post and what Xalent said and I'm really irritated, I don't know if it's because I'm just annoyed or embarrassed, maybe it's the same. I was about to hit Aisie in the face with my bag so that she stopped talking, and will regain back myself. Also, I didn't felt the presence of Xalent yesterday so it was really good, I was able to breathe easily because of it.But one of my concerns is the upcoming Sunday because I will finally meet again my mom, but can I do it? Maybe, when
"What do you want?" I asked and withdrew my elbow he was holding.Even though I look calm, I still can't change the fact that I'm feeling so nervous right now. It was as if my heart was the only thing I could hear at these moments. You are giving me the highest intensity of yourself, Xalent. I'm going crazy because of you and I don't know how to regain myself back from being a normal being.He licked his lips. "You," he said and leaned over to my side."You're kidding me, right?"Instead of answering, he just kept his eyes on nothingness, looking so serious, but when I started to walk, he followed. I heave a sigh at what he did because I could not understand him. He was so vague and seemed like he was just playing with me because of what he was doing."Look... I'm sorry.""Huh? Why are you apologizing to me?" I gripped the strap of my bag tightly. "Than