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RAINI-

Everything was building up inside of me and I didn’t know the best way to make myself feel better than to cry.

I felt so disappointed in myself for not being as strong as I thought I should be but there was nothing I could do.

I wanted the best for my children and the fear that something might happen to them made me lose faith IN myself.

I started sobbing, sitting up on the bed because the tears were not just coming, I felt Indulged and very weak to have to break down because of something like this.

This wasn’t minor, this was my unborn kids and I was already failing as a mother and even before they were born.

Just then I heard a knock on the door interrupting me and I immediately wiped off my tears.

I wondered if my tears woke up someone but I didn’t think I was sobbing that loud.

“It’s me bianca, I know you’re awake, Raini opens the door.” She said gently from the other side of the door.

I stood up and walked over to the door and opened the door for her and she walked in.

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