Never Again 🌷 “It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and re-adjust the way you thought of things.” -Lemony Snicket ~•~ •X A V I E R• The funeral was sweet sorrow, for in those moments of raw pain, when it felt as if the loving self screams in silent anguish, there were the memories of the good times that came as blossoming spring meadow. I read somewhere that darkness always came as strong protective arms, holding us close until the promised dawn. But, would it ever dawn in my life? After five years of heartbreak, pain, anger, hurt and longing, I finally got th
Never Again 🌷 “The two hardest tests on the spiritual road are the patience to wait for the right moment and the courage not to be disappointed with what we encounter.” Paulo Coelho ~•~ It was a strong black, deeply soulful in the way all absolute things are. It was the sort of black that brought the silent music of the universe so deeply within one's core. Black. In the black she could sense herself as a being of love, someone whose soul was a beacon to those seeking safe harbour. She could sense that energy within as a noble force, as something brave and eternal. It was as if in all that black, when all distractions felt away, she was the real her and that "her" was someone far greater and more loveable than she'd ever imagined. Now as she laid on a soft mattress, blackness was her only companion as laid unconscious. A faint sound of beeping beside her head stood out the most in the room, but one thing still topped, that was the pain. Throbbing pain in her whole body. Her
Never Again 🌷 “Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because th
Never Again 🌷 “The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance i
Never Again 🌷 “I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.” -Pablo Neruda ~•~ •X A V I E R• Standing in front of the mirror, I wore my jacket, brushing my fingers through my hair, I looked at my reflection. I could hardly recognise who I was anymore. My eyes held no emotions, no shine and no life as my jaw started to hurt while giving a fake smile to everyone in these last five years. Guess, this was my life now. Sighing, I breathed out and walked out of the room, when something or more like someone bumped into my legs. I knelt in front of the running Alex as I ruffled his hair and asked, "Where are you running to buddy?" "Good morning, Dad." He greeted me, giving me a hug. He had grown a little stiff in the
Never Again 🌷 “This life is what you make it. No matter what, you're going to mess up sometimes, it's a universal truth. But the good part is you get to decide how you're going to mess it up. Girls will be your friends - they'll act like it anyway. But just remember, some come, some go. The ones that stay with you through everything - they're your true best friends. Don't let go of them. Also remember, sisters make the best friends in the world. As for lovers, well, they'll come and go too. And baby, I hate to say it, most of them - actually pretty much all of them are going to break your heart, but you can't give up because if you give up, you'll never find your soulmate. You'll never find that half who makes you whole and that goes for everything. Just because you fail once, doesn't mean you're gonna fail at everything. Keep trying, hold on, and always, always, always believe in yourself, because if you don't, then who will, sweetie? So keep your head high, keep your chin up, and
Never Again 🌷 “You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect—you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break—her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there.” -Bob Marley ~•~ •R O S E C L I N T O N• As I drifted into the arms of sleep, as a child into the wonderland, my brain drew monsters as a sort of montage, changing as the moments passed. With each form I told it "cuter," and it morphed almost instantly into Kawaii. After that I sle
Never Again 🌷 “People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that's what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. But to live with a soul mate forever? Nah. Too painful. Soul mates, they come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you, and then leave. A soul mate's purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life, then introduce you to your spiritual master…” -Elizabeth Gilbert ~•~ •R O S E C L I N T O N• Apart from teaching that little things matter, family is important, friendship is a gift, teamwork pays