Never Again 🌷 •E V E L Y N• |A T N I G H T| I groaned as the pain in my abdomen increased, rolling over my side to be stopped by something wrapped around my waist. I frowned and slowly peeled my eyes open. The room was still covered in dark so I extended my hand and switched on the lamp. Removing the sheets off of me, I froze as the sensation of the thing wrapped around my waist came back and also the wind hit my bare skin with full force. I looked down at my waist and saw an arm wrapped around it. My eyes widened, gulping as my gaze followed the arm to the hand and to the shoulder attached to it and then the owner of the shoulder. It was none other than Xavier, he slept like a baby with a beautiful smile on his face. His hair fell over his forehead making him look perfect even in his sleep. I covered my mouth to stop myself from screaming on the sudden realisation. What have I done? Tears pooled in my eyes as I saw my naked self and didn't even think about removing the other
“If I've been on your mind, you hang on every word I say, lose yourself in time, at the mention of my name. Will I ever know how it feels to hold you close? And have you tell me whichever road I choose, you'll go?"-Adele|Five Years Ago|•E V E L Y N•My mind was so much like the ocean, watching for the incoming ship, calm on the surface with so many deep under currents, all of them with their own purpose. Being a 'watcher' was the perfect job for a daydreamer like me and if I must suffer cold feet and numb fingers through the winter months, it was a price worth paying.They thought I was a fool to wait like I do every chance I get: eyes set to the horizon, arms resting on the cold metal rail. But the way I saw it they were missing the greatest mysteries of life as they chase the mundane and trip over the details of existence. Waiting here gave me time to let my
Never Again 🌷 “I long for you, just a touch of your hand. You don't leave my mind. Lonely days I'm feeling like a fool for dreaming. As I wander down the avenue so confused, guess I'll try and force a smile.” -Sam Smith •E V E L Y N• Fear was natural and there to keep you alive and happy, yet where it had been weaponized and fashioned into a cage, one was honoured bound to break free. When I was feeling triggered by the world and everyone it was behind fifty feet of glass. Loving bonds became inaccessible. In this mode I had to take great care not to damage bonds of love, the relationships and people who were everything to my heart and soul. For in time the glass disappeared and my love returned. I wish I could stop the triggering, but if I felt unprotected or left to fend for myself it returned - it was survival mode, cold and indifferent. Yet even in those times I was cognisant of my morality. I could still make good choices. I could still imagine what the better version of me
Never Again 🌷 “Don't break me again I am delicate Please, don't break my heart Trust me I've been broken before…” -Ali Gatie, It's You ~•~ "It works like this, your daddy says you need to have soup, so here's the deal, every time you have a spoon of soup, you get a bonus card with a surprise in it which you can receive when you get better." I smiled, and his eyes shone in excitement while looking at his father for permission. "What kind of surprise?" Alexander asked, settling by my side on the bed while I rested his head against my body. "Well, surprises are meant to be hidden, right Xander?" I asked, while he nodded with a small smile on his face, melting my heart again and again. "Awesome, let me write the cards," I was about to stand up when Xavier placed his hand on mine, asking, "I'll get it, where is it?" I might be trying very hard to ignore the proximity between us, but the sparks which I felt wasn't letting go of the fact that I love him. Nodding, I said, "Take
[From now onwards, the story would be narrated through Author's P.O.V.] Never Again 🌷 “Is it possible to love someone so completely, so intensely, they could never die? To give them more than just your heart or your soul? What if you could give them the miracle of immortality?” -Kellie Thacker ~•~ Xavier was too mentally exhausted to deal with Evelyn after that morning, therefore he took a week off to rethink his decisions and spend some time with his son Alexander. Soon the week passed, and Xavier found his way back to his office. He sighed in relief when he saw Evelyn's empty office as he desperately wanted some more days away from her. As soon as he got the call regarding Alexander's health, Xavier was about to leave his office and go home when he saw Evelyn standing behind him dressed in a light blue dress, hee hair was pulled up in a bun with few tendrils caressing the side of her face. They argued a little but in the end, Xavier agreed to take her with him to his house.
Never Again 🌷 “I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” -Marilyn Monroe ~•~ •E V E L Y N• As I neared the main door of Xavier's house, my heartbeat started beating rapidly. This was it. This was the end of Evelyn and Xavier. I couldn't take it anymore so I turned around and walked out of the door. Few steps further I heard Alexander's voice echo in my ear, "Where's Rose, Daddy?" My little munchkin asked, I could not let him see me in this position, the situation where I was unable to make out the meaning of anything, where I couldn't bear the pain of Xavier's allegations right now, how would I answer Alexander's innocent questions. A tear rolled down my cheek but I didn't bother to wipe it away. It was over. ----------- "May I know why you need Mr Forbes' address please?" Ethan's secretary asked from the other s
Never Again 🌷 “To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all.” Oscar Wilde ~•~ You pay for everything one way or another. If you are lazy you will pay with the pain of failure. If you love to eat and indulge you will pay with the price of your health and self esteem. Yet if you love ballet, if you wish to fly as if God had remembered to sew on your angel wings, you will pay in the pain of training, in daily dedication, sweat and struggle. In this life, what are you paying for and how? The cost-benefit see-saw is always there. "I loved Natasha and you drove her away from me, you loved Evelyn so I took her away from you Xavier Knight…It was my revenge against YOU." Ethan gritted his teeths in the former line whereas an evil smirk formed on his lips in the latter. Xavier's foot tumbled behind, whispering, "What…..what the fuck are you talking about?" A wince escaped Ethan's mouth in smirking and it took everything in Xavier to stop himself from hitting
Never Again 🌷 “It is a curious thing, the death of a loved one. We all know that our time in this world is limited, and that eventually all of us will end up underneath some sheet, never to wake up. And yet it is always a surprise when it happens to someone we know. It is like walking up the stairs to your bedroom in the dark, and thinking there is one more stair than there is. Your foot falls down, through the air, and there is a sickly moment of dark surprise as you try and re-adjust the way you thought of things.” -Lemony Snicket ~•~ •X A V I E R• The funeral was sweet sorrow, for in those moments of raw pain, when it felt as if the loving self screams in silent anguish, there were the memories of the good times that came as blossoming spring meadow. I read somewhere that darkness always came as strong protective arms, holding us close until the promised dawn. But, would it ever dawn in my life? After five years of heartbreak, pain, anger, hurt and longing, I finally got th