Episode 4

When it comes to my emotions, I am so at a loss. 

It is really embarrassing for me to have a one-night stand with a man who is already committed to another woman. On the other hand, should I be furious because the man has the balls to sleep with me despite the fact that he is committed to another woman?! If I had known that Bullet had a girlfriend, I would not have gotten myself involved in this mess in the first place. Ever!

But I can't deny the fact that I am so stupid to let Bullet push me into the depths of his lust, regardless of what occurs, whether I knew it or not. I did this regardless of the circumstances. The storm of embarrassment that he just unleashed into my life has manifested itself in this very moment, and I am freaking affected by it.

As the woman is now approaching me, I am standing here like a statue, unable to comprehend what is happening and filled with panic. Her every step was a stumbling one. The sound of the tip of her stilettos slamming against the floor is audible to me. In all honesty, I have no idea how I should feel or what I should do. The only thing I did was stand here till she finally got close enough to approach me.

"You are a complete and utter b*tch! Do you have any idea what you did with my boyfriend?!” Her voice resounded throughout the entire condo unit.

I'm shaking all over, and I just swallowed quite hard. I was unable to find the motivation to offer my opinion. The only thing I did was open my mouth and then close it again because I am completely at a loss for words regarding how to start communicating my thoughts.

“Response to me! Have you f*cked my fiance?!” Once more, she let out a yell.

Who is her fiance? Is she talking with Bullet? Oh my god! Are they engaged?!

What a complete and utter mess have I gotten myself into?! At this very moment, I want to slap the shit out of my face without hesitation! To wreck someone's relationship or someone's wedding is not something I am ready to do just now! My bucket list for this year does not include this, and it will never be on my list for the rest of my life!

“Answer me! Why are you unable to respond to me at this moment? How come? How ashamed are you by the fact that you are currently being so slutty?” She continued to constantly scandalize me.

I took a big breath and wished that it could calm me down. "I am so sorry, Miss," I said, "but I really don't know that Bullet is committed. If I had known that he was engaged to another woman, I would have never entertained him. I swore to myself that I am a woman of dignity, and I would never go to such a low level if I knew that a man already had a partner.”

The fact that I came across as so meek after that explanation is something I really despise, but I do hope that this angry woman would just believe me.

“There have been other girls who have provided me with an excuse similar to that before! By denying your shits, you are merely getting into my nerves more quickly than you already were.” In the same way that her voice continued to shout as if it were a booming system, her eyebrows wrinkled even further.

"I am telling the truth..." After I responded, I am so embarrassed that I want to punch myself right now because I did not let go of the timidity that was in my voice. The confidence of my assertion is diminished as a result, and it is possible that this is the reason why this woman does not believe what I have to say.

“It's not! No, you are not!” At the same time that she raised his hands, I closed my eyes. I started to feel overwhelmed with anxiety to the point where I felt I might pass out at any moment.

Nevertheless, a few moments have passed, and her palm has not yet made contact with my cheeks any more. However, the instant I opened my eyes once more, I let out a gasp. I observed a hand making contact with that woman's hand. It was Bullet, who is currently naked in front of us. I winced, and at this point, I really want to get away from the scene.

"Why are you preventing me from moving forward? The only thing I am doing is teaching your whore some valuable lessons!” It was the nth time that the woman had yelled. "Let go of my hand!" she yelled as she was going to smack me again, but Bullet's hold on her was just too powerful for her to escape from by that point.

As soon as I shifted my attention to Bullet's face, I noticed that he was wearing an expression of regret. However, I simply let out a sigh of exasperation and shook my head in complete and utter exasperation. While I was running away from both of them, I barely gave him a brief glance before moving on. Due to the fact that I never have the courage to glance back at them again once I have reached the door, that was the last time I saw his face. I sprinted as quickly as I could in the direction of the elevator, acting as if I were a legendary criminal. It's the worst sensation ever! It is not appropriate for me to feel guilty at this moment because I am completely oblivious and naïve due to the fact that Bullet is such a jerk. As a result of his wonderful manner, which is so wonderful that he was able to effectively trick me, I believed that he was clean.

Over the course of a few moments, I was able to make it to the first  floor by simply exhaling in exasperation. It was from that location that I took a taxi to get to Jill's condo unit!

I slapped myself while I was inside the taxi. The events that took place this morning will undoubtedly remain etched in my memory for the rest of my life, but the unfortunate and even more frustrating thing is that I will not be able to remove them from my mind forever! As a result of the enormous amount of stress that I was experiencing, I was seriously considering whether or not I could simply leap out of this vehicle and hit my head on the concrete floor, only to suffer from amnesia. But I am not insane enough to do it, though!

I clenched my teeth, shed tears, started laughing, and swore to myself. Perhaps I am becoming truly insane at this very moment, but I am not so insane that I would intentionally hit my head on the ground in order to acquire amnesia!

"Are you okay, Miss?" When the driver suddenly inquired, he appeared to be rather young. It's possible that he's the same age as me, and he's blonde.

While I was wiping away my tears, I responded, "yes, please don't mind me."

His response was, "alright,". That was the last thing he said to me before he gave me the calm that I so desperately needed at this very moment.

Along the way, stress is making my head feel uncomfortable. Despite the fact that it is causing mayhem in my head, the storm of troubles is celebrating. On top of that, the hangover that I experienced from the night before is only making things more difficult.

After getting out of the taxi, I strolled inside the condominium complex with my head spinning from the tension and hangover that I had been experiencing that day. And when I stepped inside the elevator, there were a lot of people waiting for me to just get in there. The person who is standing in front of the elevator is an elderly woman, and she smiles at me while raising her perfectly tattooed eyebrows. As a result of the way that she glanced at me, it is clear that she is already passing judgment on me, which is something that I completely understand because I must be looking like a complete disaster right now. Whatever the case may be, I simply dragged my feet inside and pressed the eleventh floor.

I am the first one to exit the elevator. As I made my way towards Jill's condominium unit, the pain in my head continued to make my head spin constantly. There is a possibility that I am walking like a zombie at the moment, but I do not have the energy to care about it anymore. Getting to Jill's condo unit and getting some much-needed rest, both physically and psychologically, is all I desire right now.

As soon as I arrived at the door and the digital lock of the apartment, I rapidly entered in the password, and the door opened for me. The fact that Jill is prepared to hand over the passcode key to her condominium unit is a testament to the fact that she has such a high level of faith in me. In the future, I won't have to be concerned about how to enter and exit her apartment.

As I entered the unit, I was clenching my teeth painfully. As I entered the house, the first thing that greeted me was her, who was standing in the living room. She appeared to be asking, "Why the hell are you here?" to an impression that looked to copy the words, "what the hell are you looking so messed up?" when she stared at me. Her face began to give the impression of questioning.

Before I laid down on her sofa like a dead fish, I began by saying, "I know what you are thinking," and then I continued by saying, "I looked so messed up right now."

"Kind of, girl," she winced as she said. “When you left last night, where the hell did you go? I only recall that I was making out with a guy, and suddenly you disappeared from my view. That is all I can remember. It was my intention to find you before I left the club and headed home, but I was unable to locate you anywhere during that time.”

I let out the most profound sigh I could muster and informed Jill, "I just had a one-night stand with a stranger."

Her eyes opened like if she had just seen a treasure, and she was responding to what I had just spoken. There is no doubt that this young lady enjoys engaging in gossip, and getting her hands on this information will undoubtedly provide her with a source of fun.

"Really?!" God, she is doing so with a broad smile now, "how was it? How large was he? To put it another way, was he a typical kind of guy who is really fantastic in bed? Was he a gorgeous man?” She inundated me with questions that went beyond what my mind and sanity are capable of processing.

"I am not in the mood to answer any of that! The reason why I am telling you this is because I am stressed out about what to do!" I said while covering my face. It appears as though we did it without any cover!

"What the hell, girl?!" Then she let out a gasp, "he had you creampied? How could you have allowed him to be there in the first place?”

"I have no idea! Because I am so intoxicated, I cannot even think about suggesting that he use a condom!”

"Oh, God, this poor woman!" Jill rubs her hair as if she is completely agitated out because of me, “but you shouldn't be concerned about him. You should have asked someone who is an expert like me because I have the answer for you! I am in possession of plan B tablets, and you are free to use them at the moment in order to avoid having a child with that unknown person.”

Praise be to God!

I was on the verge of giving her a hug because I was relieved, but I won't since she will never be able to refute the fact that I will never have a one-night stand with that guy if she didn't bring me to that club! Yes, I will not tell her about how the fiancee of that guy broke into his condo unit and threatened to hit me. I will keep that information to myself for the time being. Putting myself in a position where I am further embarrassed is not something I will ever do.

"But do you know the guy?" When she was treating me, she inquired about the medicines that she had been discussing previously.

"No, he is a complete stranger," I said as I grabbed the pills and popped them into my mouth before I drank the water.

She squinted her eyes and slowly nodded her head in my direction, as if she was dissatisfied with the response I had provided.

I widened my eyes and said, "I have already informed you that it is a complete stranger. Do not look at me as if I am the most liar on the face of the earth at this very moment.”

"Alright, if you say so," she shrugged her shoulders. “The fact that he is a complete stranger is a fortunate circumstance because, as you are aware, males can be really obsessive at times. As soon as they have a taste of you and they find that you are appealing, they are going to try whatever in their power to acquire you. It would appear that you are not yet prepared to enter into any kind of romantic connection at this time, which is why it is really fortunate that you are not acquainted with him.”

The only thing I did was smile at her. I try everything in my power to prevent my eyes from twitching because I want her to never be able to uncover the fact that I am just lying.

I am not going to inform her that I am familiar with the guy since she is going to be persistent in her pursuit of me for the rest of my life in order to meet him. I am at the point in time where the very last thing I want is to ever see him again. In the future, I will never let even a single strand of his hand touch my eyes. I ought to have avoided him from the very beginning because he is a complete and utter walking red flag. When it comes to his identity, it is more beneficial for me to simply be selfish. The fewer people who are aware of it, the more secure it will be for me and the more at ease I will feel.

“As a side note, how are you doing? Are you in need of something, girl? You look like a complete and utter wreck.” My cheeks were gently stroked by Jill as she inquired. She went so far as to hold my neck, as if she were trying to take my temperature, and she said, "your body temperature is rising!"

"Seriously?" I let out a sigh, and I believe that this is maybe due to the tension and embarrassment that I experienced earlier. I'm hungry, and I think I'll have to eat some porridge.

“Absolutely, you are right! It appeared as though you were on the verge of passing out at any moment! I have a lot of concerns about you!”

Suddenly, she became overcome with fear and immediately made her way to the kitchen in order to prepare something there. I am currently sitting here, with my back propped up on the backrest of the sofa. As my body started to give out, I let out a large yawn. After taking a few long breaths, I yawned once again. When I am sick, I am unable to perform to the best of my abilities, which is something that I despise.

There was a time when I was a young child and I am still living in the Royal Palace. In the event that our Royal Nanny becomes aware that I am ill, she will search far and wide for the most expedient means by which she can provide the healing process to us. In the event that the Royal King discovers that we are ill, it is virtually as if their lives are in danger.

In that area, it is imperative to exercise extreme caution at all times. The treatment of people is that of slaves. Managing the hierarchy is not something I am capable of doing. In my opinion, it violates my principles. I made the decision to leave the Royal Palace because of this particular reason. The customs and culture of those people are intolerable to me. Neither am I interested in it, nor will I ever be.

Jill continued to play the position of a concerned friend; but, given how dramatic her reactions are at the moment, she is more of a concerned citizen than a concerned friend. Her behavior became even more frantic, as if she were in danger of losing her life if she did not serve me the rice porridge in a timely manner.

"Hey there, young lady. Take some time to rest. The fact that you are so tense is not in any way beneficial to my mood. Rather than assisting my mind in relaxing and preventing me from concentrating more on how weak my body is feeling, I feel more obligated to be concerned about you.”

She halted herself from continuing with what she was doing. After that, she rolled her eyes and turned her head in my direction, acting like the spoiled brat that she is.

"Good, I'm sorry! Every time I find out that someone close to me is ill, I just don't feel good about myself. In spite of the fact that it is making me anxious, I feel obligated to help you get better. You know me, intrusiveness is the one that always comes out on top of me.”

Certainly, that is Jill. She may give the impression of being very daring and wild on the surface, but on the inside, she is really gentle and kind to her friends. As if she were a full-blooded sister, she is treating her pals as if they were members of her family. To put it another way, if someone were to bully me, she would practically go crazy in order to exact the vengeance that I was rightfully entitled to.

Simply put, I am exceedingly thankful to have that girl. The fact that she has a queer addiction to going out to clubs and parties is a happy coincidence. It is true that she is a wonderful friend, but excluding those aspects.

On the other hand, I was able to prevent myself from thinking when she abruptly halted what she was doing once more. Moreover, she turned her face back to me once more. She is beaming with a broad smile this time, as if she has just uncovered the most profound riddles on the planet.

"It is now time to serve the porridge! Oh my God, I was afraid that you were going to pass out before I could even finish preparing the meal!” While she was using her hand to fan herself, she said, "All right, come here. Now is the time to eat before your fever continues to grow. When it comes to my condo unit, I can't allow someone to pass out here!”

After giving her a friendly grin, I stood up. The next thing I knew, she was holding my arms and assisting me in sitting down at the kitchen table. All of this happened in an instant.

“Now, would you be able to stop overreacting? Stop acting as if I were a patient and you were a nurse. I am not a patient. I am finding that it is unsettling to me!” When I said it, I was laughing.

"No matter what you say, I will just carry out the activities that I enjoy doing! When all is said and done, you are my friend, and I do value you tremendously!”

A buddy like her is a wonderful thing to have in one's life.

Following a lengthy period of idle chatter, we finally began to eat. Beginning with the appearance of the dish, it appears to be edible but not particularly tasty. The judgment, on the other hand, is pushed out of my head completely. As I began to take a drink of the soup, I tasted that it was delicious. There was a hint of saltiness to the flavor, but it was not excessive. Despite the fact that it was just right, I couldn't take the time to savor it.

I am not sure if I am simply unwell or if it is something else entirely. Jill's ability to cook is so impressive that I simply cannot believe it.

Jill gave me permission to take a break after we had finished eating. She is kind enough to let me sleep on her bed, and she does check my temperature on occasion. At the same time, she is a nurse and a big sister. She is really quite the combination. It was also helpful in reducing the severity of my fever.

Taking everything into everything, I would simply describe that day as a break from all of the tension that I had to endure the day before. Just like that, I shut my eyes and gave myself permission to get the rest that I so richly deserved.