Chapter 7

Song- bebe rexha- the way i are

Katherine found herself leaning into his kiss for a

moment time stopped and the only thing moving was

thier lips. She closed her eyes letting herself enjoy what

was once a fantasy. 

Until Memories of the pain she went through because of him raced throught her mind. Fear of what would happen when... fears of getting hurt, him getting hurt. Dylan was waiting for her inside and instead she's out here with james.

She placed her hands on his toned muscular chest and

pushed him away from her. Thier lips broke apart and

james forehead creased in confusion at her sudden

actions.

"What whats wrong?" He asked her his voice low and

tone agitated.

"What do you think is wrong?" She snapped back cross

with herself for letting her emotions get the better of her.

Cross with james for thinking he could steal a kiss from

her. She turned and stormed away from her arrogant ex

husband. He grabbed her wrist Turning her back towards

him.

"Come on katherine, I know you want me, i want you" he

groaned

"James you had me. We were married you threw me out

you have no right to come now and start asking me to

forget all the pain and stress you pit me through. No, not

happening"

He wouldn't let go of her wrist and she wiggled under his

grasp.

"James let go" she mumbled pushing against him. He held

eye contact woth her making her slow then he finally let

go allowing her to walk away

Her mind was racing, her heart was pounding and dylan

was sitting at thier table where she had left him talking to

a buisness friend of james, henry.

His face lit up when she neared them and he flashed her a

glimpse of his pearly whites.

"Hey where have you been?" He asks her.

She smiled back and gave him a safe reply "i was out

getting some air. It's so stuffy in here i couldn't bare a

second more" it was the truth she was out for air she just

forgot about mentioning james.

"Oh no problem lets get going it's already late" he smiled

grabbing her hand they said goodbye to henry and

headed for the car.

Dylan was of course a gentleman, he walked katherine to

her front door and kissed her cheek lightly leaving a little

tingle on her cheek.

Katherine said goodbye and watched him drive off. She

felt strange inside. Guilty. She knew as soon as james lips

touched hers there was no other man for her. But she

didn't want him. She wanted someone like dylan who

cared about her, who treated her nicely someone who

would trust her.

She climbed up the stairs and trudged into her bedroom.

Peeling off her dress and heels she pulled on a pair of

victoria secret pyjamas and pulled back her duvet. Sliding

into her comfy bed and letting her body relax she fell

asleep.

The hall was full of people of different ages katherine

being one of the youngest. They meet every saturday

night.

They sat in old chairs which where most likley used in a

high school, they sat in a circle.

This is her fourth time comming here and she felt ready.

Timothy was the leader he had strawberry blonde hair

and a long face. He wasn't handsome but he had a heart

of gold even though she had only met him a month ago

katherine was starting to feel comfortable with him.

The group where at introductions, this was the part

katherine had been avoiding she had yet to introduce

herself formally, they sat in a circle oppening up. There

where alcoholics,shopaholics, workaholics and drug

adicts in the bunch all looking for an outlet for thier

anxietys. Anonomous wonderers, they called themselves.

It made katherine smile the name was fitting to them all

lost in thier own emotions and minds.

"Anybody else ready to introduce themselves?" Timothy

asks the group his eyes looking around the circle.

Katherine raises her hand a little. And his eyes fall on her.

His warm smile comforts her a little as she stands on her

feet. Taking a deep breath she readied herself.

"Hi guys im katherine sau- sorry gray" she starts of

nervously

The group reply as usual "hello katherine" it always

amazed her how they say that all at the same time.

"And im a single mother" her confession was just

begining.

"I had my daughter 4 and a half years ago, she's beautiful

and is a little Angel."

"Im sure you're proud of her katherine" Timothy smiles at

her.

She nods "i am. But im not just a single mother.. i-i"

She felt herself choke a little at the realisation shes

comming out with something no one not even her own

mother knows.

Timothy speaks to her in a gentle tone "go on katherine its

ok you're doing great"

She inhales and exhales deeply "i am a single mother

with cancer." She lets out in one breath.

The room is silent. She looks at them and sees expressions

of shock and pain on thier faces. "I am dying i have eight

months left. I was diagnosed about 5 months ago when i

went for anual blood checks and it showed i had cancer.

We thought it was just the blood but i fainted and broke

my wrist they took lots of different scans thinkingi tore

ligaments but found a shadow. Im riddled with cancer

from my head to my baby toe.

The doctors tried to treat it but my body wouldn't accept

the treatment andi got worse. No one but me and now

you guys know. I thought i could handle it on my own but

my daughter stayed over at my mums for a few weeks her

school was on holidays and she is due back tomorrow but

i was so sick after treatment and i can't hide it forever.

Although i don't really have forever do i" she chuckled

dryly

Then the emotional impact of what she just admited hit

her. She's dying. Some day her baby girl won't have a

mummy and she certainly doesn't have her daddy.

She felt arms wrap around her and someone handed her

a tissue. She looked down at it and touched her cheek it

was then she realised she was crying and then that she

realised she needed a plan. 

She herself admited her life was short so what was she going to do about her baby girl and how was she going to break it to her friends and family... unless she didn't.