*Vanessa*I don’t register anything as I rush through the compound and toward my apartment.I just screamed at Ashborne’s Alpha without any sense of self-preservation or logic. I was so overwrought with the emotions the confession had wrung out of me that I didn’t stop to think about the consequences of my actions. Shawn would certainly kick me out now. There was no doubt about it. I knew enough about pack politics and the dynamics of the hierarchies within to understand that I just broke one of the most cardinal rules: never disregard your Alpha. It didn’t matter that we were alone and there wasn’t anyone around to hear me do it. I essentially spat on his title. Any other Alpha might have punished me on the spot. I don’t even want to think about how Trent would’ve reacted. Whatever kindness I thought Shawn was displaying toward me would never be able to save me from what I know I deserve. If he was genuine in his treatment of me, I might be lucky enou
*Vanessa*The next morning, I’m well-rested but my face is still blotchy and swollen from crying the night before. I get ready, taking a shower and choosing my clothes while wondering what I can do to fill the day seeing as I have no meetings planned and no rounds to do. I know that Amara has a full schedule with her patients and the first aid classes, so I decide to just go for a walk around the compound for some fresh air and exercise. I opt to wear a pair of shorts and a casual shirt, a cool enough outfit in the heat already beginning to build outside.I’m about to leave and open the door when I come face to face with none other than Shawn. His fist is raised, as though he were mere seconds away from knocking before I opened it anyway. Neither of us says anything at first, both evidently too surprised and unprepared to know how to proceed. But then, he lowers his hand and inclines his head in greeting.“Good morning, Vanessa. I was hoping to get a chance t
*Vanessa*“Hey, Vanessa, over here!” Amara waves me over to the group of eating shifters and I freeze, my plate still in my hands. The group is seated around a table and most of them aren’t really paying attention to her invitation. The few that do notice give me reassuring looks. I swallow hard, reminding myself about what Elder Luka said.If I want to learn how to open myself up to others and really have a place here, then there’s nothing to do but try. Despite it going against every fiber in my being, I return their smiles and head over to join them, my stomach in knots but my mind determined. “Hey,” I say to everyone at the table.“It’s about time you joined us,” Amara says, absentmindedly digging into her lunch. “They’ve been asking me to introduce them to you for a while now.”“Really?” I ask in surprise and a few of the shifters murmur their confirmation. “Yeah.” A boy who can’t be older than twenty pipes up from a couple of seats to my left
*Vanessa*It takes me ages to fall asleep. After the ceremony concluded, Shawn walked me back to my apartment. We just carried on talking, like we did on the roof. We spoke about everything and nothing at the same time, our conversation drifting in and out of seriousness until dawn broke.As I lay there, my heartbeat refusing to settle down, questions began to break through the fog of tipsiness. He’d been so sweet with me, patient and willing to share something personal that he by no means had to. I like him. There’s no doubt about that now. I really, really like him. But what did I want to do with that information? Shawn said we would go as slow as I needed to, and that he would wait for me. He’d been true to his word, but now I find myself at a crossroads. Do I move on and take the chance to have a relationship with him despite my fears, or do I do the safe thing and deny my feelings?We went from being wary strangers to allies to friends, but a
*Vanessa*“And you’re certain this is a good decision? All of you, have you spoken about this in-depth and well-considered the scope of it?” Elder Henley asks skeptically, leveling a look at the rest of us lined up before him. Shawn nods, keeping his gaze steady. I’m standing beside him, along with Aaron, Amara, Reece, and the other leaders of the various groups. The Elders are split in their reactions–half of them look uneasy, maybe even slightly incensed at the Alpha’s decision. But the other half look intrigued at the prospect, curious as to how we got to this point, to begin with. “Vanessa has brought Ashborne to a point of stabilization that we haven’t seen in a long time,” he says matter-of-factly. “This is the best time to move, when all of our systems have been optimized and the food and training have made our warriors stronger than they’ve been since the last war.”Elder Henley flinches, and I can’t help the small smile that tugs at my mouth. The Alpha ha
*Vanessa*I wake from a dreamless sleep to feel a strong arm draped over my body. Another lies beneath my head, essentially acting as a pillow on the otherwise hard ground of the flat roof I find myself on. I feel warmth behind me, the slight movements of someone breathing as their chest rises and falls against my back. Then, his familiar scent hits me and I instinctively relax.Shawn, still half asleep, tightens his arm around me and draws me back in against him, nestling his face in the crook of my neck. “Good morning,” he mumbles, his lips forming the words against my skin. I giggle at how ticklish it feels, running my hand down his forearm. “Morning,” I reply. “Tell me … What are the chances of us just staying here for the rest of the day and leaving everything to Aaron and Amara?” he whispers in my ear. “Hmm … As much as I’d love to tell you otherwise,” I turn my head and kiss him, “I’d have to say slim to none.”He groans and nuzzles into my
*Shawn*I’m still grinning like a fool long after Vanessa leaves for her rounds. It’s odd to think of how far we’ve come and how much she’s begun to trust me. I can still see her shy smile and still feel her lips pressed against mine. And even though she’s not ready to name whatever this is we have between us, I’m more than willing to wait until she’s sure. I still can’t believe she’s real, sometimes. I’ve watched her grow in these last few months and rise so far above the state she was in when I first found her. I knew then that she was a fighter and she’s only continued to prove me right. She may not see it in herself, but she’d make for an amazing leader.I have to thank the Goddess that even though I am not her fated mate, the dumbass that was chosen just happened to be the biggest idiot alive —luckily for me. Even though I will never understand how he could possibly have let Vanessa slip through his fingers, I’m definitely not going to be ungratef
*Vanessa*“Everything’s gone a lot more smoothly than I could’ve imagined,” Elder Henley says. He chuckles to himself, shaking his head. “I’ll acknowledge that I was rather skeptical when you first introduced the idea, Shawn, but it’s gone rather well.”The other Elders at the meeting seem to concur. Shawn inclines his head at them. “Well, we have a strong team. Everyone standing in front of you here more than pulled their weight,” The Alpha says breezily, and I have to commend how well-planned that comment is. By shifting the praise to the team of section leaders behind him, including me, Shawn has inadvertently reminded everyone in the room of my contribution without being overtly obvious. It also cements my place as one of them. Even though I agreed to face this thing and let him help me, I made it clear to him that I didn’t want it to be obvious that he was in my corner, mainly for the sake of his standing with the pack. Until the truth was actually prov