LOGINHe left his horse with one of the ranch hands and headed back to the house. He stepped onto the porch and took a deep breath. His heart was hammering in his chest, knowing that his father was waiting for him beyond that front door. The disappointment he’d seen earlier was eating him up on the inside. He’d never seen that look on his father’s face before, not even when they’d almost burned down the church two years earlier.
He pulled the screen door open and stepped into the foyer. The living room was empty, so he headed to his father’s office. It made sense that his father would be in there. The rest of the house was still quiet, but he knew it wouldn’t be long before Eden was up and starting breakfast in the kitchen.
He knocked on the open door of the office and stepped in, closing the door behind him. His father was standing with his back to him, his hands on his hips. He lowered his gaze to the carpeted floor, feeling like a little boy about to be scolded.
“Dad–”
“You’re on the brink of manhood, Blair. You have a big role on this ranch and spending the night out in some field with a girl… what kind of example is that for your brothers? I’m so disappointed in you, I don’t even have the words. You’re acting like an irresponsible boy with no responsibilities!”
“Nothing happened, Dad. We just fell asleep,” Blair said. The lie tasted bitter on his lips, but he couldn't disappoint his father more than he already had.
“It doesn’t matter if something happened or not! It’s the fact that you thought it was okay to sneak out, get her to sneak out, because I know for a fact that Mr. Lansing will have a coronary if he knows where she spends her nights!”
“I’m 18, Dad! She’s almost 18 too! I’m not some young kid you get to control anymore!”
Thomas’ eyes widened and he took a step back. “Control you?”
“The moment I graduate, I’m leaving with her, whether you like it or not! I don’t want this ranch. I never wanted it! Consider me gone, just like Asher!”
Thomas made a strange coughing sound and Blair’s hand froze on the doorknob. He turned back to look at his father just as he clutched at his chest. Thomas sank down to his knees, his face paling as sweat appeared on his forehead.
“Dad!” Blair rushed forward and caught his father in his arms. He heard the screen door and started yelling his brothers’ names. The door slammed open and Colt froze in his steps.
“Shit,” he murmured as he rushed forward.
“Call an ambulance!”
Dylan moved quickly, already dialing a number as Blair leaned down and felt for a pulse. It was faint but he could feel it. Time felt frozen, but the next thing he registered were paramedics rushing inside, ripping Thomas’s shirt open and starting to work on him.
“His pulse is weak,” one paramedic said, stethoscope in hand. “Let’s get some oxygen on him.”
Blair couldn’t concentrate on what they were doing or saying. Dylan and Colt watched with wide eyes and Blair glanced at them. Colt had Eden in his arms, and he couldn’t remember when she got there.
There were tears on her cheeks, but she wasn’t sobbing, no loud wails or screams. It felt like he was underwater, barely hearing anything. Dylan squeezed his shoulder and he realized that the paramedics were wheeling his father out to the ambulance.
He grabbed the keys and rushed out after them. Four of the ranch hands stood near the porch, their hats in their hands.
Billy stepped forward when he saw Blair. “Anything we can do?”
“I’ll call when I know more, just do what you do every day.”
Billy nodded his head and started barking orders at the other men gathered there. Blair slid into the driver’s side of the truck. He started it the moment his brothers and sister were buckled in and sped away, following the ambulance.
“What the hell happened?” Colt asked.
“I don’t know,” Blair said, guilt eating him alive. It was his fault. The things he’d said to his father. He was hurt and angry and he hadn’t meant any of it.
At the hospital, they all rushed inside, only to be told to take a seat in the waiting room. The worry wouldn’t go away, especially since nobody was talking to them. It felt like hours had passed before a doctor walked into the waiting room.
“Family of Thomas Fitzgerald?”
Blair got to his feet instantly. “I’m his son.”
“I’m Dr. Webber,” he said. He seemed too calm, like a tragedy wasn’t unfolding and stopping their entire world. “Your father is stable for now.”
“For now? What does that mean?” Dylan stood slightly to his left with Colt and Eden to his right.
“It means we were able to manage the immediate effects of the heart attack,” Dr. Webber explained. “But it was a significant one.”
“Is he— is he going to be okay?”
The doctor didn’t answer right away, and it had Blair’s heart beating faster and harder.
“We’ve run initial tests, and your father has severe blockages in his coronary arteries. One in particular is critically restricted.”
Blair could only stare at him. He didn’t really know what the doctor’s words meant. “Okay… so what do you do?”
“We operate,” he said simply. “We need to perform open heart surgery. A bypass procedure to restore proper blood flow to his heart.”
“Open heart surgery?”
“Yes, we’ll open his chest and reroute the blood around the blocked artery. It’s a serious procedure, but also a common one. Given his condition, it’s the best option.”
“When?” Blair asked. Neither of his brothers had said a word, but he knew they were listening to every word, soaking it in, turning it over in their minds.
“As soon as possible,” Dr. Webber replied. “We don’t want to wait. The risk of another cardiac event is high if we delay.”
“How high?”
Dr. Webber glanced at his brothers. “High enough that I wouldn’t recommend taking that chance.”
“What are the risks?” He knew there were always risks, but the thought of his father dying… it was inconceivable.
“With any major surgery, there are always risks. Bleeding, infection, complications from anesthesia… and in rare cases—”
“Don’t say it,” Blair spat out.
Dr. Webber nodded his head. “Without the surgery, those risks increase significantly.”
Blair took a deep breath. “Do whatever you need to do to save my father.”
“Thank you, the nurse will have some paperwork for you to sign. I’ll make sure someone updates you regularly.”
“Thank you.”
Colt exited the room with Thomas' bag. Blair waited until he was sure Colt was gone before helping his father down from the bed and into the wheelchair. He wanted to spare his father's dignity. It would be bad enough that his siblings would see it at the house, but at least he could wheel him out of the hospital with some of his pride left.Colt didn't bat an eyelash when Blair helped their father to stand. Instead, he just circled them, helped their father into the truck and climbed into the back. He talked about the weather and what Eden was making for dinner, all the way back to the ranch.Back at the ranch, Blair led his father to his room. His breath was careful and measured. He didn't put up a fight when he was helped onto his bed. He gripped Blair's shoulder in a tight squeeze and gave him a smile and a nod. Blair knew it was his way of thanking him."I'll come get you when dinner's ready," Blair said, avoiding saying things like he should rest and take it easy. Dylan, Eden, an
Blair couldn't help but smile when Finn stepped out of the truck and grabbed his bag. He'd only been gone for a week, but he looked different, a little more grown up. Finn pushed his hat back a little and threw himself at Blair. They laughed as they hugged and Blair could swear his brother felt a little more solid."Do I really need to ask how much you loved it?"Finn beamed. "It was the best time of my life. This is what I want to do, Blair. I want to ride bulls.""You've got plenty of time to decide what you want to do with your life."Finn put his bag on the bed of the truck and leaned against the side. "What's wrong? Your mouth's smiling but your eyes ain't.""Dad had a heart attack and he's in the hospital. He's doing fine now, but he had to have surgery," Blair said, ripping the band-aid off. It was better than drawing it out."Can I see him?""Of course," Blair said, opening the truck's door and getting in.Finn had always been easygoing and he held no anger that they hadn't to
He slowed the truck and pulled onto the side of the dirt road. Madeline stood leaning against the tree where he usually left his horse. He got out and walked up to her. She looked down briefly and tucked her hair behind her ear."Were you waiting for me?""Yeah, I figured you'd be here tonight after what happened earlier.""I hope you weren't waiting long. I was at the hospital," he said.She frowned a little and looked him over, as if she was inspecting him for injuries. "Are you okay?""My dad had a heart attack. It was pretty serious." He stepped closer to her and wrapped his arms around her. "Things will work out like they should. Everything will be okay.""Will it? It feels like the universe is working against us," she whispered."Your grandfather's an ass, but we'll figure things out.""I'm tired, Blair, just so tired of everything that's happened, what's happening now. I'm too tired to even think about it."Blair kissed her softly on her forehead. "You'll be eighteen soon, then
The sun was just starting to set when he pulled the truck to a stop in front of old man Lansing's house. He took his hat off on the porch and knocked on the door. The door was pulled open and shock filled Madeline's eyes."What are you doing here?""I want to speak to your grandfather. I need to tell him about my intentions with you. I want to do this right, Mads. I see a future with you, one where we can be happy.""Blair…" Her voice was soft and filled with sadness. "It won't help. He doesn't like you. Even if you do this the right way, he won't let me see you.""Who's at the door?" His voice was loud."Let me try," Blair said, his eyes begging her. "At least then we can say we tried to do it the right way."Old man Lansing appeared behind Madeline, a frown appearing on his face instantly. "What do you want, boy?""Mr. Lansing, I'm here to tell you that I'd like to take Madeline out," Blair said.He shook his head and swore under his breath. "No! I know exactly what boys like you wa
That night, he lay in bed, his heart and mind at war with each other. He was exhausted and the responsibilities that now lay on his shoulders felt like they had the weight of the world on them. Before he could make up his mind, his eyes drifted closed and he slept like the dead until he woke up at 4 a.m. the next morning.He quickly pulled on his clothes from the day before and made himself a quick cup of coffee in a travel mug. He wasn't surprised to find Billy and two ranch hands already in the barn when he arrived."Good morning," Blair said."Morning, Blair. How's Thomas doing?" They all looked a little worried as they waited for news."He'll recover, but it'll take time."Billy nodded his head. "That's good. I figure that leaves you in charge for now."Blair nodded his head and gritted his teeth. "It doesn't change things much from how they've been over the summer. We need to start moving the cattle down tomorrow. I don't want to wait until my father is back home. He'll need more
Blair waited in the waiting room with Colt and Dylan while Eden went in first to see their father. He hadn't wanted to go first, too afraid that his father would look at him with accusing eyes. He felt like a failure, not just with the way he'd disrespected his father with his words, but for how he'd felt too.He could picture his father going to his room and finding his bed made up with no sign of him. His father would've been worried and set out to find him, probably with the idea in his head that his son had been hurt, only to find him asleep on the grass with a girl. Of course, he'd been mad, Blair couldn't blame him for his initial anger.They'd been raised to do the right thing, not sneak out and spend the night with girls. He could taste his father's disappointment in the air, and he hated himself for his father's heart attack. He'd always been a little daring, the first one to agree when one of his siblings suggested they steal a tractor or 'borrow' a horse from a neighbor. He







