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46 - NathanThis firecracker of a woman makes my head spin. Last week at a simple dinner she had a full blown panic attack after one question from a reporter. Albeit, the woman shouldn’t have been anywhere near us and Roman, Theo and Jessie all got an earful after I saw her safely home and had my own freak out. Now she has a fire in her eyes like I dared her to walk through the gates of hell and she accepted. I have been watching her all week with Joel and Lana. She’s been working hard on the Benedict company. That is where she is most comfortable, at the head of a project that needs major work. She wasn’t lying when she said she wanted to take it over and make it thrive for Amelia. It’s been seven days and she has plans, that’s for sure. She has been sending everything through Lana to me. That should have made me happy, because that is protocol for everyone in the office. Lana is the gatekeeper. But, Aurora is my wife, the barrier doesn’t apply to her, and I was hoping she would use
45 - AuroraI let Lauren do her thing. She is meticulous in her work, even though we were doing the same dance a week ago. She’s going to know my body better than I do soon. She brought three different styles of heels and had me try each of them on to decide comfort level and look. Once she is satisfied, she starts pulling and pinning the fabric, muttering to herself. When I am confident she doesn’t want my opinion, I start on my mental checklist.This gala is a benefit for a special care wing at the local hospital. They specialize in long term care for many types of terminal patients and have become the go-to place for patients who are undergoing experimental treatments when nothing else has worked for them. The facility is beautiful, but operates mostly on donor funds due to the nature of the treatments and they need to expand to provide more care. Tonight’s benefit is to fund a children’s wing. I wish Nathan would have told me this information himself, but that would require hi
44 - AuroraTo the best of his ability, Nathan avoids me for the rest of the week and I can’t decide if I appreciate the distance or am annoyed by it. He did his best to get me through my panic attack, but it looked like he was in pain as he literally fled from my room, like he had had his fill of emotional woman and is now afraid of coming near me for too long. He’s a walking contradiction. He spends as little time alone with me as possible, but he also won’t let Jessie and the guys drive me to work, he insists on driving me, but doesn’t talk to me. He’s always a room away. If I can’t see him I can hear him and I swear I can feel him near. Lana has been great, but her day is packed with meetings and research so I only see her in small snippets of time. She reminds me of me, constantly moving and hands on the pulse of everything. She lets everyone do their job, but she checks everything herself just in case. I thought her subordinates might not like it. I know I always got resistance
43 - NathanThis woman looks at me for a brief second then down at her lap and for the first time I see an innocent girl, not the confident businesswoman I’m used to. Wherever her mind went as we left Max’s restaurant, it’s taking time for her to recover. She seems exhausted and over this whole situation. I get the feeling she isn’t this vulnerable in front of anyone and she isn’t sure how to act in front of me, but she also can’t hold it together anymore. I have never wanted to protect anyone more than I want to protect her. She chose me, when she didn’t know who I was. She chose me again, and she didn’t even know it was me. She keeps entering my life. I have to take that as a sign that she is meant to be here…with me, and I have to keep her here at all costs.“Thanks for helping me out today. I’m usually better than that. I’m sorry if I embarassed you.” She whispers to her lap and I really, really want to punch her ex. I have no idea what he did or said, but whatever it was behind cl
42 - AuroraThe car stops. I don’t remember the turnoff. Or the driveway. Or the gates opening. I only realize we’ve arrived when the door opens and Nathan’s standing there, his hand outstretched. He looks so angry though, I don’t take it. I climb out on my own. I hear him huff his annoyance. We walk up the front steps like strangers—like ghosts of two people who could’ve been something softer. He opens the door and holds it without looking at me. I step inside.He closes the door, clicks the lock.The foyer lights are low, casting golden shadows across the marble. My mind is starting to settle back into normal. I haven’t had panic hit me like that in a long time. I know I should say something. Anything. Apologize? Explain? Thank him? I can’t remember how words work. I turn to silently follow him to the stairs that lead to our hallway.“I didn’t mean it,” I say, but my voice still shakes. “I just… I panicked. I thought maybe this wasn’t real.”He stops at the base of the stairs, whitek
41 - AuroraI have to keep reminding myself I am mad at Nathan. I shouldn’t have to remind myself of that. I noticed the way he kept looking at me all through dinner, but I had nothing to say. This is all for show and that’s what he got, us sitting pleasantly at a table enjoying a meal made and served by his friends and being visited by the owner and all of the most important staff. There, I did my job, we were seen and caught the paparazzi’s eye. So why can’t I pull my hand from his? I’m following a man I barely know, who is following a woman I just met, but strikes me as the one person in this building to not mess with, to an undisclosed location because of one photographer and reporter who asked about rumors. What rumors could be circulating? We just got married yesterday.I need to get my head examined. The decisions I have been making over that last week are not anywhere near my norm. I’m a planner, I am predictable, I have schedules and a five year plan. Well, I had a five year