13 Indigo

The girl looking back at me isn't a girl I've ever seen before, no this girl has bright eyes brighter then I've ever seen them, she looks like a new person and I can't wait to see what this girl can do.     

"Here put these on" Sean says then hands me a pink shoe box, taking the box from his outstretched hand I open it and move the tissue-paper aside to find a cute pair of black stilettos that lace up the top of the foot to the ankle.       

"Babe they're beautiful but they are so gonna kill my feet"

"Pain is beauty my dear now put them on and let's go" I put the shoes on and stand up to find that there surprisingly comfortable but for how long I don't know.      

"Ok I'm ready lets go"

It takes us about twenty minutes to get to the club only to find ourselves standing here in line for almost an hour and I'm so ready to just go home.     

I've never been to a club but back before I met him I had been to a few frat parties and didn't really like them, there was always some drunk guy trying to hit on me or some girl giving me some dirty look because her boyfriend would check me out, not even caring that I wasn't even paying the guy they were glaring at me for a second glance.        

I'd always try to get out of going but my roommate would always find a way to drag me out with her and her friends only to ditch me once we got there.     

Jessica was well, I thought she was a good friend but that wasn't the case she was sleeping with him behind my back.

I only found out because he left his phone on the kitchen counter one night while taking a shower and she sent him a text with a picture attached saying can't wait to see you tonight, she was in nothing but a pink thong sitting up against her head board like they do when they stage models for some adult magazine only she wasn't a model and she wasn't even very pretty. 

I'm not shaming her looks by any means I'm just simply saying she wasn't very pretty in that obvious way one would think when looking at someone, her bubbly personality and bright green eyes were what made her pretty in my opinion.

I know that being here is just another step in loosing my past self and the girl I became because of him but I really just don't feel like being here even if I do look really fucking good.      

I've always been the type of girl to willingly jump head first into what ever her friends want to do because I was always afraid that they would see me as a boring person and ditch me, so that's one of the reasons why I'm here standing in line to get into a club I'm not even sure I can get into because it's what my best friend wants to do.

It sound bad to think that Sean would force me to be here but then again I know that if I would have told him no he would have said okay and we would have done something else.      

I also no for a fact that if I really wanted to leave we would but a small part of me wants to be here while the other part of me just wants to go home put on some pajama pants and a comfy sweater with some fuzzy socks and watch some N*****x.