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ASHLEY

Oblivion.

Limbo.

Anything. I just wanted to fade away into nothingness, my memory erased from everything and anything. I wanted to melt away and not just exist anymore. I just wanted to be gone. And that was the reason I was struggling to hold onto the darkness, even though I could feel it slipping away from my grasp. I was going to hold onto it for as long as I could because that way, I don't get to wake up and face my new reality. I just want to be stuck here and that was completely fine by me.

But then, no matter how hard I tried to hold on to that utter darkness, the harder it got and slipped away from my grasp, breaking my heart and shattering me into a million pieces. The first thing I felt when I started waking up was a dull ache at the side of my neck with no memory whatsoever. It was there but it also felt like it wasn't there. I struggled not to jolt awake but I could only resist for long before my eyes finally snapped open.

The beautiful white walls met my vision and