登入The first thing Meera noticed about marriage was that it was far less dramatic than she had imagined.
For years she had watched films and listened to stories told by relatives who spoke about marriage as though it were a single moment capable of transforming an entire life overnight. According to them, everything changed the moment a bride crossed the threshold of her husband's home. New priorities appeared. New loyalties formed. New feelings emerged.
The reality was considerably less poetic.
The morning after her wedding, Meera woke up feeling exactly like the woman she had been the day before. She still resented her father. She still hated the circumstances that had brought her to Singh Palace. She still intended to leave the first chance she got.
The only difference was that she now lived in a palace that belonged to someone else.
And shared a surname she had never asked for.
The realization settled heavily over the days that followed.
Life inside Singh Palace operated according to rules that nobody bothered explaining because everyone assumed she already understood them. There were preferred seating arrangements during meals. Certain rooms were reserved for specific family members. Some conversations required participation while others demanded silence. There seemed to be an invisible hierarchy governing every interaction, and although nobody openly discussed it, everyone obeyed it instinctively.
Everyone except Meera.
Unfortunately, that became a problem almost immediately.
Three days after the wedding, she committed the unforgivable crime of eating breakfast in the library.
The decision felt perfectly reasonable at the time. She had spent two consecutive mornings listening to debates about land acquisitions and political appointments while attempting to consume tea and toast in peace. On the third morning, she carried her breakfast upstairs and escaped before anyone could stop her.
The library quickly became her favorite room in the palace.
Unlike the reception halls and dining rooms designed to impress guests, the library felt personal. Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves lined the walls. Sunlight streamed through enormous arched windows. Leather chairs occupied quiet corners while the scent of old paper lingered permanently in the air.
For the first time since arriving, she felt calm.
That calm lasted approximately forty minutes.
Then the palace found her.
A servant arrived first.
Then an aunt.
Then another aunt.
Then Rudra's mother.
By lunchtime, it seemed half the family had become aware that the new daughter-in-law had committed some terrible breach of etiquette.
"You should have breakfast with the family."
The statement came from Rudra's mother, who possessed the unique ability to make every sentence sound simultaneously polite and disapproving.
Meera closed her book.
"I had breakfast."
"That's not what I meant."
No, of course it wasn't.
The conversation continued exactly as she expected.
Family traditions.
Appearances.
Expectations.
Responsibilities.
The words blurred together until she found herself staring out the window and wondering whether anyone had ever successfully died from excessive politeness.
When the lecture finally ended, she was exhausted.
Not because anyone had shouted.
Because nobody had.
Everything inside Singh Palace happened with a smile.
That somehow made it worse.
The encounter left her frustrated enough that she spent most of the afternoon avoiding everyone.
By evening she had retreated to one of the smaller gardens near the eastern wing, carrying a book and every intention of remaining there until dinner.
The garden was beautiful in the understated way older things often were. Bougainvillea climbed stone walls in brilliant shades of pink and purple. Jasmine vines wound around wrought iron arches. A small fountain occupied the center, its steady trickle providing a soundtrack far more pleasant than most conversations she had endured recently.
Meera settled onto a stone bench and opened her book.
She managed exactly three pages.
Then a familiar voice interrupted.
"You've upset half the household."
She looked up.
Rudra stood nearby holding two cups of tea.
The sight immediately irritated her.
Not because he had found her.
Because she was unexpectedly pleased that he had.
"Only half?"
His smile appeared instantly.
"I rounded down."
The answer was annoying enough to make her laugh.
Rudra crossed the garden and offered her one of the cups.
"What is this?"
"A peace offering."
"From whom?"
"Me."
She accepted the tea.
The warmth seeped pleasantly into her hands.
For several moments neither spoke.
The silence felt comfortable.
Strangely comfortable.
That realization unsettled her slightly.
She had expected marriage to be awkward.
Instead, she found herself increasingly at ease around the one person she had expected to resent most.
"I wasn't trying to cause trouble."
The explanation emerged before she could stop herself.
Rudra nodded.
"I know."
"You do?"
"I assumed you wanted ten minutes without hearing the words family values."
Meera stared.
Then burst out laughing.
The tea nearly spilled.
"That obvious?"
"Painfully."
His expression remained serious.
Which somehow made it funnier.
The laughter lingered longer than she expected.
By the time it faded, something inside her felt lighter.
She hadn't realized how much she needed that.
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The days continued in much the same way.
Meera resisted the palace.
The palace resisted back.
And somehow Rudra kept finding himself caught in the middle.
Not because he inserted himself.
Because he noticed.
That was perhaps the most dangerous thing about him.
He noticed everything.
He noticed when she was uncomfortable during family gatherings.
He noticed when she stopped speaking.
He noticed when she needed space.
He noticed when she was angry.
Most people only paid attention when emotions became visible.
Rudra seemed to recognize them long before they reached the surface.
One afternoon, during a particularly exhausting luncheon, a distant relative spent nearly thirty minutes questioning Meera about her plans for motherhood.
The conversation was horrifying.
Not because it was unusual.
Because everyone else seemed to consider it normal.
By the twentieth minute, Meera was contemplating homicide.
By the twenty-fifth, she was considering fleeing the country.
Before she could do either, Rudra appeared beside her chair.
"My grandfather needs help."
The lie was obvious.
His grandfather was currently asleep.
Everyone knew it.
Yet nobody challenged him.
The relative finally released her.
Moments later, they were walking through the palace gardens.
"You lied."
Rudra shrugged.
"You looked like you were planning a murder."
"I was."
"I know."
The answer arrived so quickly that she laughed.
Again.
She had been laughing more often lately.
The realization felt suspicious.
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The jasmine flowers began shortly afterward.
The conversation that caused it was forgettable.
The flowers weren't.
It happened one evening while they walked through the gardens after dinner.
The air smelled faintly of rain and blooming flowers. Somewhere beyond the walls of the estate, music drifted from a distant wedding celebration.
Meera stopped beside a cluster of jasmine vines.
For a brief moment, the scent transported her thousands of miles away.
Back to New York. To the apartment that she loved so much.
"I used to grow these."
Rudra glanced toward her.
"Jasmine?"
She nodded.
"They barely survived."
"Then why keep growing them?"
The answer emerged without thought.
"Because I liked them."
The conversation ended there.
At least she thought it had.
The following morning, fresh jasmine flowers appeared beside her breakfast plate.
White petals. Freshly picked.
She assumed a servant had placed them there.
The same thing happened the next day.
And the day after that.
By the end of the week, curiosity finally overcame her.
She asked one of the housekeepers.
The answer surprised her.
"Mr. Singh picks them."
Meera blinked.
"Rudra?"
The woman smiled.
"Every morning."
The information lingered with her throughout the day.
Not because flowers were romantic.
Because he remembered.
The world was full of people who remembered birthdays because calendars reminded them.
People remembered anniversaries because social media did.
People remembered important dates because they were expected to.
Remembering a passing comment made during an evening walk was entirely different.
For some reason, that felt infinitely more intimate.
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The family noticed too.
Families always did.
Particularly large Indian families with too much free time.
It began during Sunday lunch.
One of Rudra's cousins spotted him placing jasmine flowers beside Meera's seat.
The reaction was immediate.
"Aha."
Every head turned.
The cousin looked delighted.
"Our Rudra has become a complete joru ka gulaam."
The table erupted.
Uncles laughed.
Aunts joined in.
Even grandparents appeared entertained.
The teasing intensified rapidly.
Someone accused him of forgetting his family.
Someone else suggested he now spent more time thinking about flowers than business.
The jokes continued for several minutes.
Throughout all of it, Rudra remained entirely calm.
Eventually his uncle asked the obvious question.
"And what do you have to say for yourself?"
Rudra considered the matter seriously.
Then shrugged.
"There are worse things to be accused of."
The answer produced even louder laughter.
Across the table, Meera stared at him.
Not because of what he said.
Because of how easily he said it.
No embarrassment.
No defensiveness.
No concern about appearances.
The realization stayed with her long after lunch ended.
And later that evening, when she found fresh jasmine waiting outside her room, she smiled before she could stop herself.
The smile frightened her more than she cared to admit.
Because every day she spent in Singh Palace was supposed to make leaving easier.
Instead, someone kept making it harder.
And his name was Rudra Singh.
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