Se connecter---Julian doesn't sleep.I find him in the archives the next morning, surrounded by books and papers and maps, his eyes red, his hands shaking, his face pale. He's been up all night. He's been working since the moment we left the chamber, since the moment we learned about the seals, since the moment we realized we might actually have a chance."Did you find anything?" I ask.He looks up. His blue eyes are wild."I found everything."---He spreads the papers across the table.Lyra's book is open in the center, its pages covered in words that appeared while we watched. But there's more now. Diagrams. Symbols. A map."There are three seals," Julian says. "You already know that. But there's more. Each seal has a guardian. A protector. Someone who was bound to it when the prison was created.""Bound how?""Sacrificed. Their life force keeps the seal strong. When the seal weakens, the guardian weakens. When the guardian dies, the seal breaks."I feel the cold settle in my chest."So the g
---Damon's hand is still in mine when the sun comes up.We've been standing on the observation deck for hours. Neither of us has spoken in a while. Neither of us has needed to. The words from Lyra's book are still echoing in my head, bouncing off the walls of my skull, and I can't make them stop.You have one year.One year. Three hundred and sixty-five days. That's how long we have to strengthen the seals, to stop the prison from breaking, to save the world one more time.And I'm supposed to die doing it."Say something," Damon says."I don't know what to say.""Say what you're thinking.""I'm thinking I'm tired."He looks at me. His grey eyes are soft."Tired of what?""Everything. Fighting. Dying. Coming back. Doing it all over again.""You don't have to do it again.""I do.""You don't—""Damon." I turn to face him. "The world is going to end. There's a prison beneath the veil. There's something inside it that wants to consume everything. And I'm the only one who can stop it.""Y
---The world is quiet.Not the kind of quiet that comes from fear. Not the kind that comes from hiding. The kind that comes from peace. From safety. From the absence of war.I wake up in Damon's arms and I don't feel afraid.That's the first thing I notice. The absence of fear. It's been so long since I've felt it that I almost don't recognize it. I lie there, staring at the ceiling, listening to Damon breathe, and I realize that for the first time in two lifetimes, I'm not waiting for the other shoe to drop.Marcus is dead. The Collective is scattered. The veil is broken. My daughter is growing inside me, strong and healthy and safe.This is what peace feels like.I could get used to it.---The days pass slowly.Not in the bad way. In the good way. In the way that makes you want to savor every moment. In the way that makes you want to remember what it felt like to be happy.I spend time with Mira. We plant flowers in the rubble outside the bunker. She's been working on a little gar
---Marcus is dead.I keep telling myself that. I keep repeating it like a prayer, like a mantra, like a truth that will eventually sink in and stop hurting. He's dead. He can't hurt me anymore.But he can.Not physically. Not anymore. Victoria shot him. I watched him fall. I know he's gone. I know he can't touch me.But the scars he left? Those are still there. Buried deep. Hidden under layers of survival and strength and everything I've built since I woke up in my past life. They're still there. They're always there.And they're never going to go away.---I'm sitting in the lower bunker.It's quiet down here. Peaceful. The kind of quiet that comes from being underground, from being surrounded by stone and silence and secrets. I've been spending a lot of time down here lately. Thinking. Remembering. Trying to figure out how to let go of something that's been holding onto me for two lifetimes.Damon finds me.He always finds me. I don't know how he does it. I don't know how he always
---I'm back in the pharmacy.I know it's a dream. I know it the way you always know in dreams, that strange, floating certainty that none of this is real. But knowing doesn't help. Knowing doesn't stop the smell of blood and antiseptic and decay from filling my nose. Knowing doesn't stop the cold floor from pressing against my back. Knowing doesn't stop the pain.I'm dying.I've died here a thousand times before. In my sleep. In my waking moments. In the quiet spaces between heartbeats. It's always the same. The same shattered shelves. The same empty aisles. The same piece of glass in my hand, slick and red and useless.I tried to save myself. I really did. I crawled through the rubble, dragged myself across the floor, pressed my hands against the wound like that would do anything. It didn't. It never does.I'm going to die here.Alone.---But this time is different.This time, there's someone else in the pharmacy.I hear footsteps. Slow and Deliberate. Echoing off the broken walls.
---I wake up screaming.Not the kind of screaming that comes from a nightmare you forget the second you open your eyes. The kind that comes from somewhere deeper. The kind that rips out of your throat before you even know you're awake. The kind that makes Damon bolt upright beside me, his hands on my shoulders, his voice sharp with fear."Elara! Elara, what's wrong?"I can't answer. I can't breathe. I can't do anything except sit there, gasping, my heart pounding so hard I can feel it in my teeth."I'm here," he says. "I'm right here. You're safe. You're in the bunker. You're with me."I look at him.At his worried face. At the man who chose to love me."I'm okay," I gasp. "I'm okay.""You're not okay.""I'm okay.""Elara—""I said I'm okay."He doesn't argue. He just pulls me into his arms and holds me. Tight.And I let him.---It's the same dream every time.The pharmacy. The blood. The piece of glass in my hand. The cold floor beneath me. The sound of my own heartbeat slowing, slo







