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Sage

I stopped picking up the professor’s calls.

I avoided him in the hallways, pretended not to see him when he passed by, and ignored the way my heart twisted every time I caught a glimpse of him. It was pathetic, but I couldn’t bring myself to face him. Not after everything.

And the worst part? I had no one to blame but myself.

I should have let things go when he told me his version of the story. I should have accepted it and moved on instead of letting Valarie worm her way into my thoughts, making me question everything.

I was crashing out and rethinking everything. Now that I know that the professor was honest when he told me his story, I was even more pissed at myself for being so gullible.

I could have seen this coming, you should always anticipate that the past would threaten the present.

But I didn’t. And now, here I was, drowning in my own misery.

The only person remotely pleased about my situation was Kaiden, not that I’d call him happy. No, he wasn’t gloating or celebratin
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