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My blood is moving too fast. I give a simple nod anyway. “I’m excited to be here and work with you all.” I don’t hear my own voice properly. I don’t feel present. I can’t remember a single line from the speech I rehearsed over and over. It all disappears. My mind is stuck on Sophie Matthew. Her blue lace panties. Her legs. The way she was sitting earlier. I shouldn’t be thinking about it. I know that. But it’s still there, sharp and distracting. I worked ten years for this role. Ten years of pushing, building, proving myself. And she managed to shake me in a way no boardroom ever did. Without even trying. Just by existing in the same room. “Don’t start celebrating yet. I’ll still be around, but as you all know, this gray hair didn’t come from nothing,” my uncle Harrison Calloway says. The room breaks into light laughter. Everyone laughs. Except her. Sophie shifts in her seat. A small movement, like she’s adjusting herself, trying to stay composed. Her face is slightly red now. Not fully embarrassed, but enough to notice. Her long curly brown hair is a bit messy compared to before, like it lost its smoothness. I try to ignore her. I really do. But my body reacts anyway. Heat builds. Pressure in my pants that I don’t want to acknowledge. I tighten my jaw. Harrison continues, still smiling. “Ethan’s experience in mergers and acquisitions is going to bring new energy here. Sophie, I’m reassigning you to work directly with him. And I’ll need you to stay after the meeting.” My head snaps slightly toward him. He didn’t tell me this. Not even a hint. Shit. Don’t look at her. But I do. Our eyes meet across the table. It lasts a second too long. Neither of us looks away first. I expect something different from her. Maybe discomfort. Maybe she would try to smooth things over after earlier. But she doesn’t. She just sits there. Calm. Straight. Like none of this shakes her. That makes it worse. Harrison keeps talking for a few more minutes. The meeting wraps up shortly after. People start moving. Chairs shift. Hands are shaken. I go through the motions. I greet directors, managers, VPs. I smile when I have to. But my attention keeps drifting back. When it’s done, I turn toward Sophie again. She hasn’t moved much. Still seated. Still holding her padfolio on her lap like it’s part of her. I step closer and offer my hand. “No need to stand.” A faint blush returns to her face. It’s subtle, but I see it. She glares at me first before taking my hand. Her grip is firm. Not soft. Not hesitant. Stronger than I expected. “Welcome,” she says. Flat. Controlled. Her skin is warm in my hand. I hold it longer than I should. I tell myself to let go, but I don’t immediately. Then I release it. Harrison pulls out a chair beside her and sits. “Ethan, sit. Sophie is not only our youngest director ever, she’s also a level-four director and on track to become VP soon.” There’s pride in his voice. Real pride. Youngest. The word sticks. How young is she? The thought comes fast. I almost ask, but I stop myself. Wrong question for this setting. Not something I should even be thinking about. “Congratulations,” I say, forcing my attention away from her. “Thank you,” she replies. No change in tone. No warmth. “Sit,” Harrison repeats. I sit beside her. Her scent hits me immediately. No perfume. Nothing artificial. Just her. Clean. Close. It’s worse than anything else because it feels real. I inhale before I can stop myself, then force a slow exhale. Try to reset. Harrison leans back slightly, smiling. “I’m excited about this. Both of you working together is going to be good.” I try to think. I try to find a way out of this situation already forming around me. Before I can, Sophie speaks. “Bennett, I appreciate the opportunity, but I’m in the middle of sixteen projects. I don’t think I can take on something else. There might be someone better suited.” Harrison doesn’t hesitate. He smiles wider, like he expected this. “I already reviewed everything. Your projects have been reassigned. Those were small compared to this. Ethan’s work matters more. You need to be here.” She pauses. You can see her thinking it through. She doesn’t like it. “I don’t like leaving things unfinished,” she says. Harrison cuts in immediately. “Don’t worry about it. That’s handled. This is where you’re needed.” She breathes in slowly. Controlled. Like she’s trying not to show frustration. “Alright, Harrison. If you think it’s the right decision.” “It is. Now both of you take some time. Get to know each other. Ethan, bring her up to speed.” He stands and leaves the room. The door closes. Silence settles. It’s just us now. I lean back in my chair, letting my posture relax while my eyes stay on her. She turns toward me slowly, like she’s been waiting for this moment. “Well?” She taps her pen on the table. Small, steady sound. Not nervous. Not rushed. I know I shouldn’t say what comes next. But I do anyway. “I expect employees to show up on time and dressed appropriately.” Her expression shifts immediately. A flash of surprise. Just a second. Then it’s gone. She recovers fast. She leans back slightly, then resets her posture. Calm again. Controlled again. “I explained why I was late. A decent person would’ve asked if I was okay,” she says. Her voice is steady, but sharp at the edges. “Maybe take some lessons in kindness from your uncle.” My eyes drop before I can stop them. I don’t mean to look, but I do. Her blouse, her shape, the way she sits without noticing the effect it has. I force my voice to stay even. “Good thing I’m not decent.” Her jaw tightens. She stands up slowly. No hesitation now. Then she steps forward and stops right between my legs, close enough that I have to tilt my head up slightly. “I think this meeting is over. Is that okay, boss?” A small grin pulls at my mouth before I can stop it. “You can go. I’ll let you know when I need you. And clean your knee. It’ll get infected.” Her face twists in disgust, like I crossed a line she won’t even explain. She turns sharply and walks out. The door shuts behind her. I stay where I am. The room feels too quiet now. I run both hands down my face and breathe out slowly, trying to get control of myself again. Trying to push everything back where it belongs. It doesn’t fully work. She hates me now. That part is clear. Good. That’s how it should be. But it doesn’t fix anything. I still want her. And that thought sits there, steady and unwanted, like it’s not going anywhere.EpilogueSOPHIE I’m wearing a strapless pink sundress, and a new pair of Jimmy Choo pink stilettos that Ethan bought me. When I come out of the bedroom, his face lights up.I point at him. “You’re drooling again.”Tyra smirks at Ethan. “She’s right. Lots of drool.”He pretends to wipe his face then kisses me. “Ready?”“Yes.” I wave to Tyra. “Have a good night.”She waves back. “You, too. Have fun.”Ethan leads me out of the skyline suite, into the elevator, and through the lobby. When we get outside, his chauffeur Lou is waiting.Once we’re in the car, Ethan pulls me on his lap. “Well?”“What?”He licks his lips. “Panties or no panties?”I lean into his ear. “It’s too early in the night to tell you that. But I’m not wearing a bra.”He groans and kisses my shoulder then teases the curve of my neck with his tongue, sending shivers down my spine.My lips find him, and everything is right in the world as he pulls me in, showing me for the millionth time that he’s mine and all he desires.
SOPHIE A few months later, Tyra is staying with Ethan and me. We hired a nurse to take care of her when she got out of the hospital, but she’s almost ready to get a walking boot and told us she’s going back to Seattle to work once it’s on.Eric Tremblor has made good on his word. News of the diabetes co-op has gone viral online, and millions of people have become members. The price of insulin is already dropping, and it’s only a matter of time before the markup in the overall market collapses.Harrison Calloway has made several site visits to the Boston office. During the first one, Ethan filled him in on his plan with Eric Tremblor. Harrison Calloway is happy Ethan and I are out of the way of danger.We have been sharing an office. I could have taken an empty one, but we like working side by side. We are pursuing several companies, and it’s been a fun transition from director to VP.While Ethan is visiting with Xander, Harrison Calloway comes into our office.“Sophie, you seem to
ETHAN My chest gets tighter. The doctor says, “I need everyone to clear the room so I can examine Xander.”“I’ll be right back.” I pat Xander’s back. He gives me a painful look as more tears stream down his cheeks. When I step out into the hallway, I am weeping again. My chest feels so heavy that I can barely get air into my lungs.Jamison and Chase are both holding back their tears. I head straight for the exit.The bright hospital lights blur together. Panic takes over my mind completely. Outside, I pull in a deep breath and walk toward the bench where Sophie Matthew and I sat a few days ago.I sit with my head resting between my knees, trying to catch my breath. Then, I feel Sophie’s hand on my back. I sit up, and she pulls me close. I do not mean to break down, but I cry uncontrollably in her arms.“Shh.” She comforts me and kisses the top of my head.I thought I had already processed all of this grief. I thought I had moved past the pain. But Nathan’s death and seeing Xander r
ETHAN Xander is sitting up in bed when Jamison and I enter. He has a bandage over his head, but a big grin forms on his face when he sees us.“It’s about time you woke up,” I tease him.He laughs. “I guess I needed a break from all those hours we’re putting in.”“You have worked hard,” Jamison agrees.“Max is probably ready to cut me, huh?” Xander asks.Max? Jamison and I glance at each other. Max is our old boss from when we were all paramedics together in our early twenties.“Funny,” Jamison says.“Don’t tell me a car accident suddenly gave him a heart?” Xander continues.Jamison and I exchange looks again. “He’s still heartless,” Jamison tells him.“No surprise there. So is my Tahoe destroyed, or can it be fixed?” Xander’s face scrunches slightly.His Tahoe? He hasn’t had that since we were in our twenties, either.I step closer to him. “You’re going to need a new vehicle. It’s destroyed.”“Fuck.”I step closer to him.“So, where’s Billie?”Billie? His old girlfriend?Jamison’s fa
ETHAN When I get back to the waiting room, Sophie and Jamison are gone.“Where are Sophie and Jamison?”Maya shifts uncomfortably and looks at Chase. Vanessa stares at the floor.My gut flips. “What’s going on?”Chase’s expression tells me I’m not going to like what I’m about to hear.“What?” I ask him, almost angry already.He clears his throat. “I might have questioned her about your involvement with Kramer.”My heart beats faster, and I scowl at him. “You did what?”“I’m only worried about you and her safety,” Chase defends himself.I take a deep breath. I know Chase doesn’t mean any harm, and he’s worried, but he shouldn’t be speaking Kramer’s name. “I’m only going to tell you this one time. There is nothing to worry about anymore. So stop worrying and don’t ever mention his name again.”Chase releases a big breath. “Okay, Ethan.”“Did you put Sophie in danger?” Maya shoots daggers at me.Oh fuck. I seriously don’t need to be dealing with this today.I run my hand through my hair
ETHAN Eric and I decide that now is as good a time as ever to meet and probably even safer than our original plan, so we find an empty patient room, shut the door, and sit down in the guest chairs.“We want to start a diabetes co-op,” I tell him.He tilts his head at me. “A diabetes co-op?”“Yes. Members pay an annual fee of one dollar. They can’t use insurance, so it avoids the political issues. To get their insulin, they need a prescription and to be a member.”Eric whistles softly.My pulse beats hard against my veins as I wait for him to respond.“That’s an incredible idea.”I smile proudly at him. “I can’t take the credit for it. My fiancée Sophie came up with it.”“That beautiful girl with the curly hair who was sitting next to you is your fiancée?”I beam at him. “Yes.”“Brains and beauty?”“I can’t decide if I love her brains or her beauty more.”He chuckles. “You did good.”I nod. “Thank you. I happen to agree with you.”Eric sits back in his chair with his hands clasped, ta







