Olivia Prologue

Seven years later..... 

I scratch the back of my neck thinking the same shit again, thinking about the accident that happens to me, accident? No. Those aren't even accidents and I just hate to admit that. 

Trying to save a person when you can't even save yourself is a joke. The joke that I wanted to be a joke but it wasn't even a joke, those are realities that hit so hard. 

Forgetting yourself is the most shit you'll ever do, you can't save someone because you can't save yourself! 

I shook my head trying to get away with my thoughts. 

I brought the black folder and went to Phoebe's office. 

Thrashing all the problems I've got in my Cite! How come the interns aren't graduated!? We need them! And because of all the old Engineers who finally retire, it doesn't do any good with us,

As of now, I heard the CEO talking about the new Engineers so I'm a bit excited because I don't need to have problems with this! 

"Avery, are you even listening to me?" Meggay said with a monotone yet dangerous voice, I bolted to my seat and looked up at her, she was looking at me intently as if she was watching tv. 

I sweat back and wipe it so fast, "I-i was just nervous about the Engineer."

She sighed, "I was just asking if you're listening to me, I didn't even say anything." She cursed under her breath making me pouted. 

"Don't worry about him anymore, I'll make sure to hunt him down and slice his head off." she threatened to make me laugh a bit, I bet she was just joking around because she likes putting the bullet in the head not slicing them off. 

I pouted, "You don't even like slicing ahead."

"I don't care if I hate that shit but if it was you, I'll do that." She said with a hiss before rolling her eyes. 

She looked up at me once again and gave me a soft smile. 

"Avery, if you ever feel like doing that again, please call me out for help. You know that I understand you, right?" She said softly, making me smile a bit. 

"You know that I promise you that I'll never do that again. I won't hurt myself again." I spoke slowly and massaged my temple. She smiled softly but it faded when she received a call from someone. 

I pouted at the sight of her because she was arguing with someone but when she turned around to me, she gave me a soft smile and bid her goodbye. 

I laughed to myself because Meggay was acting scary in front of others and then when he faced us he smiled. 

But I didn't know that this day is the day I'll see him again, that I'll find myself looking at him again, watching his movements again and I remember that he was the one who hurt me, he was the one who show me how trash men are. 

Savannah is very quiet as if she saw a ghost but me... I don't know how I should react to this. How should I live with it because it reminded me how I was before, a fragile glass that shattered and can't put the pieces back together. 

I'm back at my old self again who's doing my best to reach and save her. But I can't save her... And still at that time, I knew I was hopeless and worthless at that time. 

When I left the Conference room, I knew I fucked up because at that time I was finally able to breathe again, and remind me that it was finally over, the past is already past and I'm here at the present to show how much I've endured the pain and let myself heal. Am I fine? Was I finally healed or was I escaping again? 

Did I escape again from the nightmare instead of facing it? I knew I heal! Because I was laughing, doing the same things that made me happy before but what now? And now I feel this again. 

The suffocating in my heart that I couldn't breathe properly, the feeling that I was shattering into pieces, and I already knew that I just escaped and not fully heal. 

Where's the proof? It's River! I just saw him but a million memories came back to me. 

I still feel how he pinned me in the bed, how he makes me scream in pleasure, how he makes my body burn. It's him. It was him who I loved, but he cannot love me back. 

Why do we need to feel pain for someone who isn't even ours? 

"It's funny, Trying to get over someone who was never even mine. Having to heal a heart I broke by myself." I said to myself, mentally. 

"Olivia." I quickly smiled at him. 

"What do you need, Sir--" I cursed under my breath and smiled again. "I mean Engineer River."

He raised his brow and gave me a small smile. "I am your new Engineer so please work with me," he said but I knew mentally that I was laughing. 

You're a fucking CEO! Why are you pretending to be an Engineer, when you have tons of money?  

"Olivia, I'm sorry for what I did to you before." He said but everything went white, my smile faded as those words came out of his mouth, and another flashback happened. 

"Use your little pretty mouth of yours to suck my dick. Do your best to suck me off slut." I looked at him with wide eyes because of the word he called me. No... I'm not a slut... 

"C'mon, you're my bitch. Olivia slut." He smirked as the pain doubled inside me. 

Do it, Olivia! It's your choice! You have to save her! 

And I flick open once again and that time I was looking at him with mad eyes. 

Sorry? You can't change the validity because of a single sorry. 

I smirked and smiled again at him. 

"Call me Architect De Honor, not Olivia, Engineer River. We are working here at the Company, so don't be casual. I am also in a higher position now. Do your best to respect me." I smirked as the bright smile he had faded among those lines. 

I am not a slut anymore... I don't need the working-hard-gold. I'm already a treasure. 

And sorry... Sir. Looks like I don't want to be part of your life again.