LOGINGracias
I think I slammed the car door, but I'm not sure. I did not think. I simply acted. Like a body emptied of meaning. I left the car without a coat, without a purse. Just my keys, planted in my palm, like a desperate attempt to stay conscious. Not to collapse. It was raining. One of those sad rains that cleans nothing. It seeped everywhere. Into my hair, into my clothes, down to the bone. I crossed the street without looking. My heart on the verge of explosion. I was empty and full at the same time. Empty of him. Full of a muted fear, of an atrocious premonition. The bar is there. The one he claimed to hate. Too vulgar, too young, too everything. Lies. Everything was lies. I enter. And the clammy heat seizes me by the throat. Music too loud, smells of sweat, of cheap alcohol. And then… them. At the back, on a banquette. My sister is on my husband's lap. She laughs. He smiles at her. A hand resting on her bare thigh. An intimacy that is no game. It is real. It is owned. And I am one too many. I approach. The floor seems unstable. My legs are cotton. But I walk anyway. Because one does not flee what one needs to see. Even if it destroys. She sees me. And she smiles. A smile that says: you're too late. "Well, well… look who's showing up." He turns his head. Sees me. And does not react. I am there, dripping, trembling, frozen. And him… he analyzes me the way one looks at an awkward stranger. My sister stands. She takes her time. Smooths her dress. She sizes me up from head to toe. "You should maybe sit down. You're really pathetic, Gracias." I hear her without hearing. I see only one thing now: him. So I ask him. In a weak, shattered voice: "Tell me it's not true…" He doesn't answer right away. He takes a sip. Wipes his mouth. Then he says, calmly: "It's true." My stomach twists. My heart stops for a second. I step back. But I stay. I stay. Because I cannot leave. Not yet. "She… she's pregnant by you? Is it true?" He shrugs. "Yes." A single word. Cutting. Cruel. Without detour, without remorse. I lower my eyes. I tremble. "But… and me? And us? You promised me… You said we would try again… that you wanted a child, with me…" He bursts into a dry laugh. "You're sterile, Gracias. You couldn't even manage to give me a kid in three years. I've wasted enough time." The sentence falls like a blade. It resonates. It strips me naked in front of everyone. People around freeze. Some laugh softly. Others look away, embarrassed. I feel my legs give way. But I do not leave. I step closer. I reach my hand toward him. Like a beggar. Like a woman without pride. "Please… don't do this to me… Not here… Not like this. I can change, I swear. I can… I can be better, different… Please, don't leave me." He looks at me, disgusted. Not even angry. Just… extinguished. "Gracias, do you realize what you're doing? Look at yourself. You're begging in front of everyone. It's pathetic." I fall to my knees. I feel nothing anymore. "I love you…" I say it. I repeat it. "I love you, I beg you, come back with me. Not for me… for us. For what we were. I'm pregnant too… I just found out." Silence. A silence that should shock. But he says nothing. My sister, for her part, bursts out laughing. "Her? Pregnant? Give me a break. You must be hallucinating your periods again. Stop dreaming, Gracias. He's mine now." He looks away. He doesn't even ask me if it's true. He doesn't care. I am… alone. On my knees. Before him. My sister returns. She pushes me gently with her leg, like an inconvenient object. "Get out, Gracias. You've lost." I rise slowly. Not because I have the strength. But because I cannot stay lower than this. I turn. I walk toward the exit. My steps drag. I think I am bleeding inside. Something in me has just died. I pass through the door. Outside, it is still raining. But the rain feels soft to me now. Almost soothing. I stop under the streetlamp. My hands on my belly. "I will protect you," I whisper. It is the only promise I can still keep.INÈSI stare at the staircase where they disappeared, that elegant curve illuminated with gilding, and I want to scream. To overturn the tables, to tear down those damn light garlands that dress the hall as if to mock me. But I smile still, always, because that is what is expected of me. Smile. Shine. Appear.The applause has ceased, replaced by music, light, sweet, exasperating. Conversations resume, animated, full of admiration for them. For her. Gazes shine, reflecting the chandeliers suspended from the ceiling, while I drown in this oppressive luxury.I drain my glass in one dry gulp. The alcohol burns my throat, rises to my head, more bitter than it should be. I feel Marius beside me, frozen, rigid, silent. He does not even brush against me, as if my presence were foreign to him.I turn my face slightly toward him. And I see.He is not looking at the room. Not at me. Not even at his glass.He is looking at that void where sh
INÈSThe room still vibrates with applause, but inside me, everything rings hollow. A heavy void, like a closed room where air is lacking. Champagne sparkles in my glass, but I no longer feel like drinking. Laughter bursts around me, shrill, aggressive, like knives on glass. Gazes shine, reflecting the golden chandeliers suspended from the ceiling… except mine.My smile is there, however, frozen, impeccable, as if painted in indelible ink. My lips are red, perfectly curved, but I feel the tightness in my jaw, beneath the powder, all the way to my temples.She.She, in her flowing dress, that fabric that catches light with every step, as if designed for her alone. She, whose bearing has become that of a tranquil queen. She, who always had those big eyes full of naive dreams… and who, now, no longer dreams. She takes. She keeps. She imposes herself without raising her voice.I swallow. Acid rises in my throat, bitter, burning.
GRACIAThe music has softened, as if bowing to the moment. The murmur of conversations fades, laughter unravels in the golden air, suspended. A tacit expectation settles in. I feel it even before it begins. A tension, almost electric, vibrates beneath the lanterns.Ezran rises.With a simple movement, he straightens, and suddenly, the world stops. Gazes converge. Discussions die out. An aura settles, palpable. He has said nothing yet, and yet the entire assembly is already on its knees in the shadow of his presence.I rise in turn, legs barely trembling. My dress undulates with my step like a moonbeam. My hands brush the fabric, a discreet gesture to contain the tumult running through me.Ezran gives me a look. Calm, solid, terribly clear. Then he ascends a step, positions himself at the center of the paved terrace, under a beam of light designed for him—or which seems to have chosen him.His voice rises, deep, warm, pr
GraciasNight has fallen like a velvet curtain over the city. The sky, saturated with barely visible stars, seems to hold its breath, suspended between promise and silence. The house, bathed in golden light, still rustles with late preparations, but everything is muted, controlled, almost unreal. It looks like a frozen stage, waiting for its main act.I stand before the large mirror in the boudoir. The dress is there, hanging, motionless like a benevolent ghost. Its off-white shade takes on an ivory hue under the lamp's reflections. No frills. No ostentatious shine. It glides like a confidence on the mannequin. Just a pure cut, without artifice. At this hour, the choice seems even more fitting. In the night, sincerity carries more weight.A soft knock.My maid enters, always silent, carrying the jewelry box chosen the day before, with him. Those simple, delicate pieces resembled us. A fine necklace, two discreet pearls for the ears. I brush them with my fingertips. I hesitate. Then I
InèsA few days later, the air takes on a deceptive softness. The autumn sun filters through the apartment shutters, drawing golden bands on the hardwood floor. I am in the kitchen when my mother enters, her coat still damp with drizzle, her face animated by a contained excitement."Inès, darling, do you have a minute?" she says, placing her bag on the table.I put down my cup, attentive. Her voice betrays something urgent."There's going to be an event," she announces, sitting down. "The engagement… of Ezran Veyrhal."The name falls like a stone. "When?" I ask."In a week. A large private salon, hand-picked guests."A cold current runs through me."We are not invited?" I stammer.My mother shakes her head, a nasty smirk at the corner of her lips."Of course not. We don't exist in their address books."I grip the edge of the table."And Gracias?" I say in a low voice.My mother tilts her head, savoring the information."They say Ezran has noticed her. What a comedy. Honestly, Inès, sh
GraciasI brood over his words. An image comes back: the glass tower, the employees who froze at our passage, the appraising looks. I have already paid the price of imposed visibility; the prospect of voluntarily adding more jars me. And yet, a more pragmatic part of me glimpses the advantages of a measured gesture, of a ceremony that will lock down alliances and close doors to murmurs.I end up sighing, not in abdication, but in tired acceptance."Very well," I say. "If you prefer it elsewhere… but promise me one thing. That the place retains a sense of intimacy. That those who come do not turn the party into a hunt for appearances."He takes my hand with unusual gentleness, as if to seal the promise."I promise you. It will be discreet, chiseled, as you asked. The guests will be chosen for their weight, not their curiosity. And there will be strict rules: no uninvited press, no devices that could leak intimacy."I see in his eyes a sincerity that touches me. He is not giving me an e







