LOGIN“Sit.”
Gerald didn’t say it to me this time. He said it to the room, because when I walked back into his office twenty minutes later, I wasn’t the only one in it. Cole was already sitting on the far side of the table, the same coverless book resting on his knee, looking like a man who’d been dragged somewhere against his will and had decided to be perfectly still about it. “What is this.” “This,” Gerald said, “is damage control.” “He’s a reporter.” “He’s a ghostwriter. Freelance. Very good at making people look exactly how their publicist wants them to look.” Gerald slid a folder across the table, thick, tabbed, already printed like it had been sitting ready for hours. “And as of six this morning, he’s also the reason your leak isn’t the top story anymore.” I looked at Cole. He didn’t look away. “Somebody posted a photo,” he said. “From the coffee shop. It’s already got more traction than your single.” “So?” “So Gerald bought the rights to run with it before anyone else could.” Cole’s jaw moved, tight, like the words cost him something to say out loud. “Boyfriend narrative. Mystery man turns out to be the ghostwriter helping you rebuild after the leak. It writes itself.” “I don’t have a boyfriend.” “You do now,” Gerald said. “For the next eight weeks, minimum.” I laughed, short and humorless. “You can’t just decide that.” “I already did. The board loves it. It tests better than any press strategy we’ve run in two years.” He tapped the folder. “Read it before you say anything else.” I didn’t want to touch it. I did anyway, because not touching it wouldn’t make it stop existing. The contract was exactly what it looked like — dates, appearances, a clause about matching social media activity, a clause about physical contact “appropriate to a public relationship,” a clause about an end date, clean, no messy renegotiation, eight weeks and then it simply stopped, like a lease. “This is insane,” I said. “This is the only thing standing between you and the board pulling your album,” Gerald said. “Take it or don’t. But if you don’t, I can’t promise there’s a next record after this one.” I looked at Cole again. “And you’re fine with this?” “No.” He said it flat, no performance in it at all, which was somehow worse than if he’d tried to sell me on it. “I’m not fine with any of it. But I owe somebody, and this is how I pay it, so I’m doing it whether you sign that or not.” “Owe who? You never said.” “I’m still not saying.” “That’s convenient.” “It’s not meant to be convenient. It’s meant to be true.” He finally looked at me straight on. “I don’t like this any more than you do. I just don’t have a version of my life where I get to say no.” “You could at least look like you don’t hate this,” I said to him. “I could. I’m choosing not to.” He said it without heat, which somehow made it land harder. “I’d rather you know exactly what this is than pretend it’s something softer.” “Believe me, I’m not confused.” “Good. Neither am I.” “Then we agree on something already.” “First time for everything,” he said, and there was no warmth in it, just fact, and I decided I preferred it that way. At least his resentment was honest. Everyone else in the room was only pretending to be on my side. Gerald cleared his throat like he was reminding us both he was still in the room. “We don’t have all day.” I read the clauses again, slower this time, and somewhere around the third page I understood I wasn’t actually deciding whether to do this. I was deciding how I wanted to walk into it, furious and dragged, or furious and in control of at least the terms. I picked up the pen. “I want rules,” I said. “My rules, not just the label’s.” “Fine,” Gerald said. “No real feelings. This is public only, cameras only. The second we’re alone, we’re strangers again.” Cole’s mouth twitched, not quite a smile, more like he’d expected exactly that and was relieved I’d said it first. “Agreed.” “And there’s an end date. Eight weeks, like it says. Not a day more, no matter how well it’s testing.” “Agreed,” Gerald said, before Cole could even answer, like he’d take either of our terms as long as the ink went down. “One more thing.” I looked at Cole, not Gerald. “If either of us breaks a rule, the whole thing’s over. No warnings.” “Fine by me,” Cole said. I signed my name on the last line before I could think better of it. Cole signed his after, and his handwriting surprised me, small, careful, nothing like the man who’d sat across from me all morning refusing to give a straight answer to a single question. Gerald snatched the folder back up like it might evaporate if he waited too long. “Photographer’s downstairs,” he said. “We’re doing a first look. Nothing major, just enough to prime the story before it drops tonight.” “Now?” “Now.” They put us against a plain gray backdrop in a room three floors down, a man with two cameras telling us to stand closer, closer, like the shot itself would collapse if there was daylight between our shoulders. Cole’s hand landed at the small of my back, light, careful, exactly the kind of touch a stranger would use for a photo and nothing more. Except it didn’t move. The photographer kept shooting, calling out angles, and Cole’s hand stayed exactly where it was, his thumb pressed flat against my spine like he’d forgotten it was there at all. I kept my chin up and my smile even and told myself I only noticed because it was unprofessional. I told myself that twice, and neither time did I quite believe it. “You can let go now,” I said quietly, once the camera dropped for a second to check the shots. “Right.” He pulled his hand back like it had cost him something, and neither of us looked at each other while the photographer scrolled through the frames on his screen, nodding, already pleased with what he had. “These are good,” the photographer said. “Really good, actually. You two didn’t even have to fake it.” Neither of us answered that. Gerald’s phone buzzed before the silence could stretch too long. He read the message, and whatever was on the screen made him smile in a way I didn’t trust at all. “Change of plans,” he said, sliding the phone back into his pocket. “The story drops in six hours instead of tomorrow. Which means your first public appearance isn’t next week like we planned.” “When is it, then,” I said. He was already halfway out the door, already done with both of us for the day. “Tonight.”Neither of us slept. We sat up with the photo still glowing on my phone between us, passing theories back and forth that all led to the same uneasy place. “She wasn’t just watching me that night,” I said slowly. “She was watching you too.” Cole didn’t answer right away. He was staring at the photo again, at his own younger face, at Evelyn’s hand resting on his shoulder like she owned something in that frame that wasn’t hers. “I never thought about it that way,” he said. “I thought I was the one keeping tabs on her. Following the story. I never considered that she might have been keeping tabs on me the whole time too.” “Two obsessions instead of one.” “That’s a horrifying way to put it, but I don’t have a better one.” He rubbed a hand over his eyes, exhaustion catching up with him all at once. “I’ve spent five years thinking I was the one who got away clean, aside from the article. Turns out I might have just been someone she hadn’t gotten around to using yet.” “That’s not much b
“Say it,” I said. “Say her name.”Cole sat back down on the edge of the bed, elbows on his knees, staring at the floor like it might give him permission to speak. “Evelyn Cross.”“Gerald’s wife.”“Gerald’s wife,” he repeated, quiet, like the words tasted bad in his mouth. “She wrote the article. I took the blame because she asked me to, and because I owed her, and because five years ago I still believed owing her meant something good.”“What does she have on you.”“That’s the part I’m still not telling you tonight.” He looked up, steady this time, no more flinching. “But I’ll tell you what I can. She’s been controlling more than just that article. She’s been controlling your career since before you ever signed with this label.”“That’s not possible. Gerald signed me.”“Gerald signs whatever Evelyn tells him to sign. He always has.” Cole rubbed a hand over his jaw, and something in his face went distant, remembering. “She was at your first showcase. The one when you were seventeen. I k
I pushed the door open before I could talk myself out of it. “Who’s going to find out you didn’t write it.” Cole spun around, phone still in his hand, whatever color had been in his face draining out of it fast. “Rhea.” “Don’t Rhea me. I heard you. You said you didn’t write the article. You said someone else is going to want to know who did.” I crossed my arms, notebook still clutched against my chest like a shield. “So who wrote it, Cole. And who are you calling about it at midnight.” He set the phone down on the dresser, slow, like sudden movements might make this worse than it already was. Whatever he’d been saying into it a moment ago hung unfinished in the air between us, and I could see him deciding, in real time, how much of it he was willing to let me hear the rest of. “Sit down,” he said. “I don’t want to sit down. I want an answer.” “Then I’ll say it standing up.” He rubbed a hand over his face, and for the first time since I’d met him, he looked genuinely u
“We’re not fighting it,” I said, before he could answer his own question. “Fighting it just makes a bigger story. Moving in quietly makes a smaller one.” “That’s the practical answer.” “It’s the only answer I’ve got tonight.” He nodded, and that was that. No more discussion, just two moving trucks worth of his life arriving at my building on Friday morning, mostly boxes of books, more books than I’d expected from a man who only ever carried the one with no cover. “You read all of these?” “Most of them. Some of them are for research.” He set a box down in the spare room Gerald’s team had designated his, though we both knew that was a formality neither of us intended to enforce past the cameras. “Don’t touch the ones on top. I haven’t finished them yet.” “I wasn’t going to touch your books.” “You were absolutely going to touch my books.” He wasn’t wrong, and I didn’t dignify it with a response. That first week fell into a strange rhythm, half performance, half something neither
I watched him for a week. Not obviously, not in a way he’d notice, but I watched, waiting for the confession to crack somewhere and show me the real story underneath it. It never did. He showed up on time, said the right things to the right cameras, remembered small details about my life I hadn’t told him twice, and if he was hiding something bigger than the article, he was better at it than anyone I’d ever met. Eventually I stopped watching so hard, because it was exhausting, and because the fake relationship itself had started eating up every spare hour I had anyway. “Left side,” Cole said, one hand light against my elbow, steering me around a photographer crouched by the curb. “There’s a second one by the flower stand. Don’t look at him directly, he’ll think you’re posing.” “How do you know all this.” “I used to be one of them. Different beat, same instincts.” We’d gotten good at this part, at least, the choreography of being watched. He knew which door to hold, which angle ma
I didn’t answer his last text, and he didn’t send another one, and somehow that silence sat heavier between us than any argument could have. It followed me into the next morning, into the coffee I didn’t drink, into the note I found myself rereading on my phone for the first time in days. I’m sorry about the song. It wasn’t me. But I know who it was. I’d been so buried in contracts and cameras since that night that I’d let it slide to the back of my mind, filed away with the shadow on the roof and the message on my glass door. But it was still there. Still unanswered. And the man who’d sent it was currently sitting across my kitchen table because Gerald had decided we needed to “run lines” before tomorrow’s appearance. “You knew,” I said, setting my phone down between us like evidence. “The night the song leaked. You already knew who did it.” Cole didn’t look up from the script pages he was flipping through. “Knew what.” “Don’t do that. Don’t pretend you don’t remember sending th







