The depiction of time as an interloping of threads was just too accurate. An interloping of regrets and missed chances. Short bursts of happiness and overwhelming sadness and most importantly, the things we wish to have a second chance with.I raised my head to look at Luke who was quietly sitting in the car with me. After helping me get rid of the initial sadness, he had helped me into the car, then drove away from Kate's house.There, he sat in silence and let me just cry as the second wave of sadness hit me. The thing with Bernice didn't hurt half as much as the realization. The realization that there was so much I could have overlooked and forgotten like this one, manipulated my memory into thinking it just happened with no fault of mine, and moved on with my life.I was once a bubbly person with pink all around her, but then I grew...not necessarily into the world, but further into a shell. The person that had been with Luke hadn't been my true self either."Can you tell me some
"I thought you wouldn't come. I was not expecting you to come at all." Her voice was shaky, and I knelt to her height. "I am sorry mum, I have been....""You are always just on your father's side, Karla. All you have ever wanted was to support him, and neglect me. It felt as if I didn't have any right to you.""Mum, please. How can you say that?"She watched me, as her lips slowly quivered. "How am I supposed to live with losing both of you? My daughter feels like A distant stranger and your father...." Her voice trailed off, but she did not even need to finish it.My father had cheated. And to make sure she wasn't on the losing end, she took his mistress away, by marrying me off to her son. It was the weirdest thing, yet the saddest. In the end, coming back in time has only showed me just how responsible for my tribulations I really was."My...I am sorry. I am so sorry. Even if...even if I am...if this apology will only be something I can remember, something that will remain only
I spent the night at home, if what I did could be called spending a night. I sat on the bed all night, feeling all the things I used to feel while sitting here, seven years ago, rushing back at me again. It was weird, just how in the end of it all, I was the very middle of it.I looked at my phone. Would the past Karla have her phone with her? What is she doing? I tried hard to remember what I was doing then around this time, but nothing came up. I stayed awake till the morning sun rose on me. In as much as I wanted to stay with my mother, I wanted to go back home. To be alone again.I trudged my way out of the room, intending to spend some time with her and leave."The alimony? Are you willing to pay it?" I heard my mother's voice say, and I stopped."But...Sandra. We can't just give our only child away like that. We can't just give her away into a marriage she does not want because we want to keep ours, Sandra. That is selfish."I heard my mother laugh. "Do you mean the same da
I adjusted my position on the bed, my eyes squinting. It should probably be mid day, but I had no motivation to even wake up. It was annoying how in the end, to my father, I was only an alimony. Or the price for it.I turned to my back and sighed.It was eerily quiet. This is one of those days that I would have run to Bernice...but right now...right now I wasn't exactly her favorite person.I felt around for my phone, and grabbed it once I felt the cold steel against my palm. I turned it on, and there was a notification for a message."Hey. This is Luke. So sorry if I am being fussy and irritating, but, I hope you are okay. I left a little package for you."I sighed. It was starting to feel like I was ruining this second chance too.He had sent it over three hours ago, and I dragged myself off the bed. I walked slowly to the front door, and opened it.There was no one around, so I stepped out to get the medium sized pink box. I had just picked it and was about to go back when I felt
"You are silent. Do you find the sky that mesmerizing?"I looked up to the sky again. It was already dark now, and I moved away from the window. "It must be really hard...and lonely. Isn't it?"He chuckled. "At least, I have you to call now. It used to be much worse." His voice went down an octave, and then he let out a sigh. "Maybe I should let you rest now.""Luke.""Yes?" He answered and I could hear a slight shuffle. It was like he had already removed the phone from his ear and only returned it when he heard my voice."Would you like it if I came over?"There was a moment of silence. "Do you want to?"I nodded, a little absent mindedly. My future self was probably laughing hard at my fickle decisions now, after she had sworn to not like Luke."Yes, I want to."There was another moment of silence. "Would you like to?" His voice dripped with uncertainty this time around."Just give me the address." I laughed. "Tell me if there is something you want and I will bring it to you."He w
I swallowed, trying hard to reduce the heat that had flowed to my cheeks. My heart was on a race against it's own self, and it was almost dizzying.I turned around. He had gone into the kitchen. I turned and walked around the sitting room, touching the small figurines arranged on the desk. The small shelf to the left was filled with books I could never dream of reading. Science books and things I have never seen before.I stood up and went further around the house, remembering that it was indeed his father's. The man who had brought me back here. The man who could undo all of this.I walked around the rooms. They were mostly normal, and I could tell which one Luke stayed in.The last room looked a little abandoned, though and I walked to it. The door knocked came open immediately I pushed down, and I slowly walked in, assessing the place. It looked like an old study that had been cleared out, except for a few papers strewn around, and not much else.I bent to pick one of the papers
"W..what weird thing?" I asked, swallowing. He shrugged and leaned away. "Well...it feels like we are friends, then when you look at us well enough, you know more about me than I do about you. It's like there is something missing...but at the same time it works."I wallowed. "Maybe because you never asked."He turned to me, his eyes filled with a mischievous humor. "Well now I am asking. Or I want to, if you would let me."For some reason, I felt like we deviated a little from the topic and I cleared my throat nervously."What would you like to know?"He looked up, then came to me and helped me off the work table, his hand lingering on mine a little longer than normal. He took the tray he laid out for both of us, and he stepped behind me as we made it to the sitting room.He set up slow music in the background then sat on the floor. I naturally sat opposite him with the tray between us."What do you think of me?" He suddenly asked, looking ahead.I watched his profile, then bit dow
I swallowed, then took a step backwards, my back hitting the door. I blinked as he came forward, his hair covering part of his eyes.We were both soaking wet and dripping and he gave a small smile. "Is this..." he started to say, then looked down across my face, then back up. "The part where we kiss?"I bit down on my lips, my breath stopping in my throat. He leaned forward, his hand on the door beside me, until his face was a mere eyelash away from me.I swallowed, his eyes holding mine in place. They were dark, and the intensity in them knocked my breath out of me.He looked down at my lips again, briefly breaking our eye contact, then looked back up to me."Are you enthralled enough?" he asked again, his eyes darting across both of mine, as if he needed to take note of each and everything that might pass by in my gaze.I swallowed again, blinking. He smiled and leaned away from me, then got a towel from the small cabinet. He then wrapped the towel around me, then opened the door