ANMELDENBy Friday morning, people had stopped asking.Not because they weren't curious but because they'd already decided something had happened.I heard my name twice before first period. Not from people talking to me but talking about me."...they don't even walk together anymore.""I heard they had some huge fight.""No, Emma said nobody knows."I kept my eyes on my locker until the voices drifted away. The combination had lived in my fingers for years.Twenty-three.Nine.Eleven.I spun the dial too fast and had to start over. Someone reached past me."You skipped."I looked up.Dana."What?""Breakfast.""I wasn't hungry.""You said that yesterday.""Guess I'm consistent."She folded her arms."You're also a terrible liar."I smiled because that usually ended the conversation. It didn't. She waited."You know," she said, "it's annoying.""What is?""That smile.""My smile?""The one you put on whenever you don't want anyone asking questions."I looked back inside my locker."There it is
The nurse found a vein on the second try."Sorry.""It's okay."It wasn't her fault. My veins had started playing games months ago.She taped everything down, checked the line once more, then smiled the way hospital nurses always seemed to."I'll be back in a little while."The curtain slid shut behind her.Mom pulled her chair closer."You want the blanket?"I nodded.She tucked it over my legs like she used to when I was little and fell asleep on the sofa during movie nights. Back then she'd kiss my forehead and tell me to go upstairs before I caught a cold.Funny what mothers never stop doing."You don't have to stay awake," she said."I know.""You always try.""I don't like sleeping here.""You think something bad will happen if you close your eyes."I looked over.She wasn't asking.She already knew."I just..."The words refused to line up."I hate waking up and forgetting where I am."Mom reached over and rubbed circles across the back of my hand."I know."For a while all we
Tuesday started the way it always did.Mom knocked once before opening my bedroom door."You awake?""I am now.""You've got twenty minutes.""I know."She didn't remind me where we were going.She never did anymore.She simply left the door half open and headed downstairs.That was our routine.The less we said about Tuesdays, the easier they were to survive.I sat on the edge of the bed for a while, staring at the hoodie hanging over my desk chair.Gray had left it at my house last winter after helping Dad shovel snow. I'd washed it twice since then. It still smelled faintly like the detergent his mum always bought.I almost folded it into my wardrobe.Instead, I pulled it on.It was easier than thinking.---School looked exactly the same.The brick walls.The flag moving lazily above the entrance.Mrs. Dawson directing traffic in the drop-off lane like she did every morning.Funny how places stayed the same while everything inside them changed.I reached my locker just as the warn
Gray almost made it to the parking lot before Sable caught up to him."Hey. You forgot your water bottle."He looked down. She was right. He took it from her. "Thanks.""No problem."She could have peeled off there and let that be the end of it. Instead they ended up walking the same direction anyway, neither one saying much for a minute. The evening smelled like wet grass, and somewhere behind the football field a mower droned on and on without ever seeming to finish."You've been quiet lately," Sable said.He shrugged. "Guess so.""My brother gets like that too.""You have a brother?""Older one.""Does he talk when something's wrong?""He does the opposite. Goes completely silent."Gray laughed a little, short and quiet. "Sounds familiar.""Yeah, I figured."Neither of them said anything else until they got to the bike racks. Sable rested a hand on the col
By Monday morning, the rain had finally stopped. The puddles were still there though, spread across Maple Avenue like pieces of broken sky. I stepped around the biggest one on my way to school, more out of habit than anything else. Across the street, the Carter house was already quiet. Gray had left early again. A month ago, that would've annoyed me. I'd have texted him something dramatic. Wow. Replaced me already? He would've answered with something equally stupid. Couldn't risk being seen with you. Then I'd have walked into first period pretending I was offended while he tried not to laugh. Now there wasn't even a message to ignore. Just another morning where we left the same street at different times. I hated how quickly silence became normal. --- The first person to speak to me wasn't Dana.
By Friday afternoon, my body had decided it was done pretending. The last bell hadn't even rung, and I already knew walking to rehearsal was going to be harder than acting through it. I told myself it was just another bad day. Bad days happened. I could survive one more. The hallway was packed, everyone trying to beat the rain that had started again during sixth period. Lockers slammed. Somebody shouted that the football game might get cancelled. A freshman ran past carrying a science project that looked like it had already lost half its planets. Life kept moving. Mine felt stuck somewhere behind. Dana caught up beside me. "You left your calculator." She held it out. I blinked at it. "I've done that twice this week." "Three." "Seriously?" She nodded. "You've also called Coach Alvarez 'Mr. Palmer' twice." "I did?" "You even apologized to the wrong teacher." I rubbed my forehead. "I guess I'm distracted." "You guess?" She wasn't smiling. "Josie..." "I'm okay." "







