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Vivienne's POV I looked up and down, my eyes watering with tears. "Do you think I'm missing out? Julian?" I screamed in frustration. He continues to praise me daily, expressing his pride and joy when we take him out on the patio. A momentary silence followed. 'Mommy' has become the nickname that the woman is now using.Julian froze. He sank into tears, his face in my face as though I had just hit him on the head.He remained quiet and said, "Vivienne, that's not what I meant by that." He lacks comprehension of the actual events happening between us.With my head raised, I couldn't help but feel something. "That's the reason he has such an easy mind. Only those who bring a smile to his face are the ones he sees. Unfortunately, I am no longer associated with that.”My thoughts centered on my trembling fingers on the lap. "Even after a night spent in his room, I could hear him talking." He lifted his head, and with his dark eyes cloaked in my s
Vivienne's POV I felt a slight shaking in my hand while holding supine. The stomach felt sore when I swallowed only three spoonfuls of warm porridge. It felt like I was in a metallic state. Immediately, I bent over and placed the small trash can beside my bed before throwing up again. Tears fell uncontrollably. Trying to look normal made me feel like I was weak and helpless. I put the spoon down and leaned back against the pillow after a few seconds. Cold sweat and heavy breathing caused a cooling sensation in my temples. I simply desired a peaceful state of mind in my thoughts. No thinking. No feeling. It is impossible for the world to let its breath go.I looked at the porridge which had started to harden in the white bowl on my lap. The steam had stopped rising. My previous warmth was now only a reminder of comfort, which I could no longer feel. In preparation for the next treatment, the nurse instructed me to eat in order to restore my energy. What is the reason behind
Vivienne's POV My heart sank. Tumor. I was gripped by the word that stooped on my head. I stared at him, speechless.Despite its limited growth, the tumor is already exerting pressure on areas of the brain that regulate balance and vision, according to his cautious explanation.The reason for your frequent dizziness and faintness is that it's often quite noticeable.I closed my eyes.I already knew all that. It felt like a death sentence to me to hear what I had already heard again, even though I was aware of it."I had awareness," I whispered. "My intention was to seek medical treatment abroad." The opportunity was not available to me.The physician nodded in slow motion. "I grasp." “But, Mrs. Viviane, your time is currently not on your side.”Not with a mean-spirited stare, but with deep concern. "You can't let me off until you're over." And as I turned, the window glimmered with the faint glow of the afternoon sun. “Not at this mo
Vivienne's POV A bright white beam hit my eyes as I opened my eyes.For some seconds, I had no clue where I was. Everything seemed hazy, the light ceiling, the soft beeping of machines and the strong smell of cleaning stuff in the air.I tried to raise my arm but it felt weighty. It was like it didn’t belong to me any more. A tube was stuck to my wrist and a screen next to the bed showed slow green lines moving.A hospital. I was in a hospital.I blinked many times, trying to clear my blurry sight. The room seemed very bright, very quiet. Only the steady sound of the monitor cut through the stillness beep beep beep each one showing the moments that made me stay up, to meet something I wasn't set to meet.My head was empty. There was just one question going around and around with no reply. How did I get here?Pieces of thought came back slow, unclear, like shapes moving behind a cover of mist. I thought of the rain. The damp
Vivienne's POV My gratitude was evident when I realized that nobody could hear me. Tonight, I didn't want anyone to see me.I recited the words with intense emotion. I used to cherish a title so much, thinking it was the ultimate goal. Now, let me explain.An affectionate term I coined from a deception. It seemed as though the term mother was being lost. Looking straight ahead, I looked towards the peaceful park with a blank stare.Memories flashed before my eyes of what happened the first time I held Maximilian in my arms, Julian's arrival, his tears on his face as they stood beside me.I used to think that it was all real. I had the impression that we were a family. Lie detectors are mercilessly waiting for the perfect moment to destroy everything.All came to a halt tonight. I held my dress in place with my fingers.My thoughts ran wild. In the event that Julian took Maximilian away from me, what would occur? He owned everything, including money and
Vivienne's POV For how many hours did I walk? It didn't matter. Even though I felt like walking on a heavy stone, I couldn't resist. I only knew one thing. I couldn't go back.Not tonight. Not after the completion happened. The night breeze battered my face to the bone. My delicate nightgown held onto my skin, soaked in tears and dew. Although my heels were itchy at the time, I managed to keep walking. It was the most foreign city I'd lived in for seven years.The street lighting was blurry and the shadows on the sidewalk were reminiscent of Julian's face, leaving me feeling haunted.My attempts to control my sobs were unsuccessful. Tears streamed down the cold asphalt, one after the other. Cars passing by had a quiet presence.The emptiness of the world seemed to be upon me, leaving me in a state of constant silence. The only sounds I heard were my own broken tears and the irregular movement of my footsteps. The experience was akin to walking through spooky nightmares, too real to b








