I stand in shock at the sight of the empty bathroom, the open window signalling to me she has bolted. Clearly, she had second thoughts. She could have at least had the decency to fucking reject me before upping and leaving….. my pain is turning to anger now…… yet I feel tears behind my eyes. How can I want to cry over a girl I don’t even know?! I have built myself up to this point, waiting for a girl that I have been meant to love, to want, like nobody else on the planet, I am meant to worship, idolise and care for like she is the most precious gem in the universe. I have waited, like I was expected to, been so patient, despite it hurting, despite being so lonely, despite my wolf pining for her. And like everyone describes to you, the moment you meet them, and realise they are your mate, the connection is instant, your wolf begins to crave them, you feel the most urgent need and want for them like nothing else you have ever felt once you have felt their touch. As soon as you know
I had just got out of the shower with Lilah having made the most of an empty house, when I heard a loud howl. That sounded near to our house. That seemed odd, I quickly walked to our bedroom balcony, overlooking the back of our house, a towel wrapped around my waist, and Lilah followed in a towel. I saw what looked to be a wolf running toward the forest. That would make sense, given the noise, but wait…. That looked like Aspen, Gabe’s wolf…….. “That’s Aspen” Lilah whispers, she had already reached my side, and was looking where I was. “Something doesn’t add up, he should be with Esme, not shifting into his wolf and running off into the forest” I say. “Link him, tell him to come back, Knox. If something happened he should not be alone. What if she rejected him when they were alone” Lilah says. A feeling of fury rages through me. Would she have done that?! She had run on him when they initially met, had she been too embarrassed to reject him with us all there, and the fact
I had run for a while, chasing some small prey, taking out mine and Aspen’s frustration on the small animals we found in the forest. But I struggled to focus and wasn’t doing brilliantly. My mind and Aspen’s kept focusing back on Esme, on our apparent mate, the mate that didn’t want us, the mate that had run from us. Knox and Lilah had mindlinked us numerous times. Aspen howling when he shifted must have disturbed them, so they knew something was wrong as they had seen me shift and go for a run. So they knew I wasn’t in my house making sweet love to my new fucking mate the way I should be. How fucking twisted fate ended up being. I had clearly messed up in a past life to end up being punished like this. I had ignored their links, continuing to run, pushing myself to the point it hurt, needing to feel the pain, then when Knox had mentioned Manuel I knew I had to go back. What if all this shit does affect him? I fucking hope the actions of Esme do not affect the relationship
To finally get Lola back to my home, well, what would be our home now, was heaven. I still cannot believe my mate is finally here after waiting so long. Seeing her with my friends earlier had felt so amazing, she had fitted in so well, laughing and joking with us like she had known them all her life, this is what I had dreamt of and for it to have happened showed the Moon Goddess knew what she was doing. I am not one for dancing, but when Lola asked me to join in with them dancing with the girls, I was not going to turn my mate down, and having her body pushed against mine had felt so good. I know to look at, the height difference must look amusing for those looking in, but she is cute, and I love how she looks. She clearly isn’t as confident as Gabe’s new mate, but then I am not as confident as Gabe, so in that regard, we are the perfect match. We can work on all of that together. Though right now, the fact we are finally on our own, I am a massive bag of nerves! I have never b
Awww Manuel is the sweetest. I can see he is anxious, nervous to have me here. Lilah had told me he was not very confident around women, plus Gabe had teased about me being gentle with him. Yet I look at him, he is big, tall and a muscly, strong warrior, handsome and covered in tattoos, I seriously do not understand why he would not be confident, he is gorgeous. I imagine he has had she-wolves queuing up for him, yet the moon goddess had decided he would be mine. I find his uncertainty and nerves quite endearing to be honest… Trying to kiss him to reassure him is difficult when he is a fricking giant! I aimed for his cheek and pretty much got his chin! But it meant he lifted me up. I decided to go out of my comfort zone and do what I had seen Esme do earlier and wrap my legs around his waist to allow us to kiss properly and, wow, had I been rewarded for being brave! The kiss was amazing! See he may be nervous, but I am just as nervous…. I do not have much experience around m
“Here you go Mi Amor” I say offering the glass of juice to Lola, she looked deep in thought. I hope she is ok, and not having second thoughts of being with me. She looks to me, a small smile on her face, though I am almost certain there are traces of tears building in her eyes. “Thank you” “You want to go sit on the balcony in my room, we have a great view of the lake from up there, it is quite warm out still. We can sit and talk if you like?” I suggest, hoping to the goddess that does not sound sleazy or dodgy in anyway. I really need to work on this…… She simply nods, following me upstairs. I open the patio doors, leading out onto the small balcony attached to my bedroom, over looking the back garden of my home, and also views of the lake and parts of the forest in the pack. Our packlands are beautiful, full of mountains and plenty of forests, which are perfect for when we shift and need to run. I have a small table and chairs set up out here, as I love to have my bre
I decided to take her example and slipped off my trousers, leaving me in my underwear, pulling her close to me once more, the contact of her skin against my body was sending shivers all over my body, as her mouth explored mine, the kisses passionate yet tender, needy and wanting….. this is the girl I had been waiting so long for and she was finally here…… I ran my hands down the curves of her body once more, feeling her groan against my lips as I did, so I took that as a good sign and let my hands wander a little further. Lola moved slightly, flipping me so I was now under her, she was straddling me. And my heart was pounding in my chest and I was wanting my mate so badly…. Though I imagine she knew that…. could feel that that from where she was sat….. I could smell her arousal in the air too…. My beautiful mate wanted me…. And beautiful she was…. She looked perfect sat on top of me too….. Suddenly, she had unhooked her bra, and I was able to take in the view of my almost n
Wow, that had been amazing… he had been so gentle, so patient….. so tender…. Definitely worth the wait, my perfect mate….. he must have known it was my first time as he was so gentle too…. But it had felt so good….like it was meant to be, though he was fated to be with me, so I guess in that regard, it was meant to be. He is meant to be with me. Yet when he went to mark me I panicked, I truly did, I really wanted to allow him to mark me, my wolf Nori wanted to let him, but what Esme had mindlinked to me was lingering in my mind and I was terrified. What would happen to me if I went home and I was marked and mated without the Alpha’s permission? Could they actually do anything? Maybe I should not have slept with Manuel, maybe I should have waited until I knew I could accept him as my mate, because right now I do not know that could actually happen and that terrifies me. Right now I am sat on the bed, having said no, both of us naked. He looks heart broken. I have hurt my mate a