I looked in the mirror one more time. The outfit that I’d picked out last night just didn’t seem the same now that I had it on this morning. There was still time to change before I had to leave, but what would I wear if I didn’t dress in this.
Ten minutes later, I walked out of my room and downstairs. I still had on the leggings and tunic shirt that I’d selected earlier. It wasn’t the best attire in my wardrobe, but it was comfy, and that ranked higher than wearing the latest sleaze fashions that everyone else would have on.
“You look…nice.” Mom poured another cup of coffee and sat down at the kitchen table. “What happened to all those clothes we bought with Clarissa yesterday. Those were cute.”
I rolled my eyes and wobbled my head side-to-side. There always had to be a ‘but’ in whatever compliment my mom gave me. This time it was the ‘that’s a nice outfit, but are you really going to wear that to school. You know Clarissa wouldn’t be caught dead in something like that, especially going where there are going to be so many people that could see her.’
“It’s comfy.” I grabbed my car keys off the holder and picked up my backpack off the floor. My mom’s lack of compliment and the way that she was checking out my outfit like she was totally disappointed in her youngest daughter’s clothing, made me lose my morning appetite. “See ya later.” I didn’t even wait to hear a response. I left for the first day of school before my mother could put me into any worse of a mood.
***
I tried to stall for time of going in, but that was nearly impossible with Tara and Rynae pounding on my car window. They were two of my besties, well really only the two closest friends that I had.
We were all in the lifelong sisterhood of being part of the geek squad. It wasn’t that they were ugly or anything, but just had the above-average grades, lack of sleaze clothes, and of course they were in the debate club with me.
Tara was the first to pull on my arm once I decided that I had let them wait long enough. This was a tough feat to do since Tara was like a pixie in disguise, but she was able to get my feet moving in the direction of the school.
“I don’t know why you have to be so stubborn.” Rynae, the Cover Girl model look-a-like of our trio of misfits, seemed annoyed that I had made them wait three extra minutes while I listened to a song on the radio. “You should be happy, like us, “her lips turned upwards into a big, happy smile, “That this is our senior year. We will be done and outta here in no time.”
“First,” I held up one finger, “I wasn't stubborn. I was listening to a Taylor Swift song.”
“Welcome to New York.” Both Tara and Rynae said it at the same time.
Okay, so I had an obsession with T. Swift’s music, especially her song ‘Welcome to New York.’ I’d never gone there, and that was on my big list of places to go, and hopefully, I really, really hoped that I would be accepted into one of its many law schools for next year’s fall semester.
“It’s a great song. Well, they all are, but I sorta have a liking to that one.”
“Really.” Tara looked stunned by my confession. “You mean when you play a song a hundred times a day, that means you have a liking for it.”
“I don’t play it a hundred times a day, only ninety-nine.” I stuck my tongue out her.
They both just shook their heads at my nonsense.
“Well, at least it isn’t One Direction anymore.” Tara looked over my way and questioned me with her eyes.
“I…um…I still listen to them occasionally.” I didn’t tell her that meant I listened to them on my way over to the school.
Tara snorted at my hesitation and nudged Rynae who just nodded her head.
“I can’t help that they were an excellent band.”
“We’ll have to get you out of your rut. There are more singers out there than just those two.”
“I sorta like my style. C’mon, we better get a move on.” Now it was my turn to pull them along.
The distance from the student parking to the school seemed like it was half a marathon. I don’t know why they made it so far away, but I was exhausted by the time that we hit the main crowd walking up the sidewalk.
The ninth graders were acting like they usually did, like the children they still were. The rest of the student population was in their own little groups.
The real geeks of the school hustled about forever looking like they were in a total state of confusion.
The hoes that weren’t part of any cheer or dance team just walked around and strutted their stuff. They wore the skimpiest of outfits and seemed to have as many male followers as the sports teams had female followers.
Then there was us, the academic nerds of the school. The ones that got picked on because we were actually trying to make something out of our lives and not wasting away being a follower, a stoner, or someone who could possibly have every sexually transmitted disease by the time they were twenty-two.
The presence of the Hawks and Hawkettes were nowhere to be found. It was kind of an eery calmness about the school with them not around. It was like the school could function at a reasonable level without that forever lingering rain cloud that threatened to ruin everyone else’s day.
The loud sound of the first warning bell echoed as it alerted everyone that the first day of school was to begin in fifteen minutes.
And so, the circle of life at high school continued.
There was a straight line in the carpeting from me pacing back and forth between the window and the door. The photographer got pulled away by Hope over an hour ago, which meant I would be front and center in less than thirty minutes. I wasn’t worried or even nervous about getting married, I knew Morgan was the one and only, but I was terrified of making a fool out of myself in front of all those in attendance. Sure, I was a cocky, confident ass in high school, but picturing myself becoming a mumbling idiot in front of five hundred people, some of whom I’ve never met, well, that’s got me anxious as fuck.So far over the past year of all of us living in The Keys, life has been more than great, it’s been the best time of my life. College was going well, my mom finally became the woman I knew that was hiding away from us for so long, Ms. Christine was more than I ever expected in a grandmother and kept all of us in line, Hope had friends, was high honors i
My hand clenched at my stomach. “I don’t know if I can do this.” I was used to being in crowds, like when I was in debate back in high school and with all the reports and public speaking, I had to do with several of my courses, but this, this was totally different.Clarissa smoothed out my veil and gave me a hug. “You’re going to be fine. Just focus on Ethan and don’t worry about the other five hundred people in the church.” And with that comment, she gave me her best non-convincing smile.Five. Hundred. People. And that was the attendance at the marriage ceremony, that wasn’t including all the others who would show up for the reception. It seemed Ethan’s grandmother knew half the population here in the Keys, and according to her, as we made out our guest list, you can’t leave so-and-so out of the invitations, that would be a recipe for disaster.So, since she was footing most of the expenses,
“Ethan, it’s almost dinner time,” I called out from the balcony that looked over our own private section of the beach. I was staying at Christine’s house, Ethan’s grandmother. Like she’d said back in Pennsylvania, she had a big house with a bedroom just for me if I wanted anywhere to stay. What I didn’t know at that time was that Ms. Christine was quite wealthy. It seemed she and her late husband had bought up a lot of oceanfront property way back in the day before Key West became a tourist site. Then, as the years progressed she sold off several plots of land to developers but kept some of it for her own personal oasis. Now, she has a six-bedroom house on five acres that looks out into the deep, dark blue ocean. I’d been in Key West with all of them for over six months now. Clarissa came to help me pack the night before my flight left. We’d put almost all of my summer clothes, laptop, and the basic necessities that I would need into two suitcases. I said goodbye to
It’s been over a month since Ethan and his family made the big move to Florida. We talk every day and video chat at least three times a week. He sent me pictures of him and Hope at the beach. His hair had gotten longer, and the constant sun exposure brought out all kinds of highlights. With his dark tan, good looks, and perfect body he could be a model for some vacation guide or something. I mean really, once someone would see Ethan on the front cover, they would want to go the Keys that minute.He told me Hope has already made some friends, and that he found a new love. But once he saw my hurt expression, he had to backtrack on what he just told me. He loves trying to surf and is even taking lessons from one of their new neighbors.I told him I’m doing well, but that’s a lie, and he probably knew it. I’m sure he could see and hear the pain every time he talked to me.I couldn’t help it, I just wanted him to come back home, but I kn
An hour later, me and Hope packed up two more boxes in her room. I think we spent more time playing around, dancing to her favorite songs than we did any actual work.I heard a soft knock on the door, and Ethan poked his head in. “I have to get Morgan back home.”Really? I didn’t know I had a curfew. Maybe this was his way of getting rid of me?“Aw, c’mon. We were having fun. I won’t get to see Morgan much longer.” Hope flopped down across her bed. She put on her best pouty face, hoping to get her own way.“You’ll see her tomorrow. Maybe.” Ethan would say anything to put a smile on his sister’s face.“Okay.” Hope bounced back up, put her arm around my waist, and led me back down to the living room.I gave her a quick hug and kiss, a promise to come back tomorrow, then followed Ethan out.The ride back home was…quiet. Like Ethan didn’t even turn
I couldn’t believe it had been ten days since we graduated.Ten days since we left it all behind and never looked back. We rode off into the sunset and lived like a king and queen.Okay, not really. We didn’t go anywhere except for a few parties and the special getaway that Ethan had planned for our graduation night. One in which I fell in love with him ten times over.After stopping in at a few get-togethers graduation night, Ethan took me a bed and breakfast a short distance out of town. Without me knowing, he had Clarissa gather up a bag for me so that I would have what I needed for the night and the following day. My sister decided to pack Victoria's Secret negligee, stockings, and stilettos, instead of my usual shorts and t-shirt for nighttime wear.Did I wear them?Hmm, let’s just say they didn’t stay on too long.Anyhow, Ethan had been acting kind of weird the past week. He hasn’t told me anything that wa