4. PREGNANT

𝙄𝙨𝙖𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙡𝙖'𝙨 𝙋𝙊𝙑

I was sitting on my bed with my phone and a test kit in my hands, a pregnancy test kit.

I had been feeling nauseous last week and the dizzy spell today dispelled the notion of the nausea being because of bad food. So I decided to check my menstrual cycle and surprisingly it was two weeks late, for a person with the most regular period this was definitely news.

So formed the notion to take the test. And to my surprise, it came out positive. There were four more test sticks strewn across the table by my side, all of them showing the same result. Positive, I was pregnant.

I had life growing inside me.

Aiden had been drunk that night so the thought of condom never struck him and as for me, I had been so indulged in the moment that forgot about it. The next week was so hectic that the thought of taking a pill never made it into my mind, as for the shot I never felt a need to get one. I was getting older and moreover there was no one I'd rather have a child with.

The phone showed the message I sent to him a minute ago,

𝘐'𝘮 𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘨𝘯𝘢𝘯𝘵.

Just two words, even though I haven't gone to a doctor yet I was sure of it. After seeing no reply for the next few minutes, I kept the phone on the side before laying on the bed, deciding to utilize my day off with some much required rest.

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It was the knock on the door that woke me up, looking at my phone I saw that it was already 8 in the evening. And even though the message showed read, there was no reply. The pang of disappointment was too loud this time but it was overcome by the knock.

I got up and opened the door, " Yes? "

" A parcel arrived just now ma'am, it was sent by sir. "

" What is it? "

" I don't know ma'am. "

" Let's go. "

I went to the living room to see a parcel in the shape of a basket, opening it I discovered chocolates, cookies, fruits and juices. The frown on my face converted into a smile after seeing the note attached to the basket.

𝘐'𝘮 𝘢 𝘣𝘪𝘵 𝘣𝘶𝘴𝘺 𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘳𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘰𝘯. 𝘛𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦.

~𝘈𝘪𝘥𝘦𝘯.

So he saw it, and couldn't reply just because he was busy. I smiled before folding the note and keeping it in my pocket.

" Ma'am dinner? "

" Just send some fruits and juice to the room. Then you guys can leave. "

The servants didn't live in their house, they came early in the morning and left at around 11 pm after completing all the chores, so they were quite happy to get home early.

I waited for Aiden in her room, while eating the fruits and drinking the juice. I was nervous, for no other reason than that I have no idea how he would react.

We never talked about children, hell, we never talked to be exact and I have no idea what bringing a child into this world would do to our relationship.

As the night grew darker, my eyelids started to drop as I got sleepy but before I could really sleep a pain shot through my abdomen. Light at first but it sharpened per second.

" Urghhhhh.... aaannnnnhhhhh.. "

With no other thought, I picked my phone and dialled Aiden's number.

Unreachable, that's what the machine told me.

I persisted, still trying to reach him, he was supposed to be here. But it wasn't worth it.

Ten minutes later I finally gave up, covered in sweat I moved downstairs and tried to get to my car but my feet refused to support me.

It was already late so it wasn't suitable for me to call anyone from his family, with no other option I dialled my assistant's number, he picked it at the second call.

" Yes ma'am. " He was sleepy but I could care less about it, strength was leaving me rapidly as the pain got more intense with each passing second.

" My house. Now. " I muttered with much difficulty.

" Ten minutes ma'am. " He replied back.

" Hm. " I said before hanging up and slumping against the car.

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I laid on the hospital bed as my assistant completed the formalities, the juice which happened to contain aloe vera was pumped out of my system, but not before taking my baby with it too.

It was fatal and I lost one of them, twins, ha, I laughed at the irony, I was happy about one child of our own and I had two. But now one of them is gone, while the other is in danger, still not safe enough.

And if you ask who is to blame, isn't it myself. I trusted him, I forgot to care about my baby, I forgot to check what kind of food I could have and that caused me to lose him before I even had the chance to see him.

An irrational part of me wants to blame Aiden for it, shouldn't he have researched before sending me those, isn't it his responsibility to check whether they are safe for me. Tears streamed down my face as I thought about my baby who I'll never meet.

" Should I call the family? " My assistant asked me.

" No. Don't tell anyone. " I don't know why but I don't want them to know, I want this baby to myself. The more people know about him, the more he'll be in danger. And I can't afford that, I won't be able to take it.

" Has he called? " I asked him, I had told him to keep calling Aiden or wait for his call and his silence gave me my answer.

" Still unreachable? " The nod was there, barely noticeable but still there.

" You can leave now. I won't be coming tomorrow, handle the things. " I still manage Anderson Enterprises and there's no way I'll ever neglect it but if I have to choose between it and my baby, then my baby comes first.

" But ma'am. "

" I'll be fine. You should leave. "

" Yes ma'am. I'm always available ma'am. " He said before leaving.

I stayed there for another hour before going to the doctor and asking him about the do's and don't's. Isn't it funny, how she was consoling me by saying that I should be grateful I got here in time. As if losing one baby causes less sadness than happiness at one of them surviving. She kept saying that she knows how I feel but she doesn't, she's not the one who lost her baby. I've lost one of them, and the other is still in danger how am I supposed to be relieved.

I didn't argue with her, I just took the medicines and left. Reaching the house, I packed my belongings before leaving. I don't think I'll be able to live here.

Going back to Anderson house brought many memories so the sting in her eyes was expect. Harris our butler, who is seventy and still refuses to retire greeted me as soon as I entered.

" Isa, baby you're here. How— " He stopped mid sentence when he saw me, " What happened Isa. Why are you like this. "

" I don't want to go back. " I said to him and he just patted me like grandpa would've.

" Alright, we won't go back. You'll live here. Let me talk to Raynott Senior. "

" No. " I don't want them to know anything. At least not now.

" Huh? "

" Don't tell anyone. "

" What happened baby " He asked, pain shining in his eyes even though I hadn't told him anything.

" Can we talk tomorrow? " I was tired, lost and probably not too far from a breakdown.

" Of course. Your room is still the same. " I nodded as he took my bag and helped me settle, I said to him just as he was about to leave. " Don't tell anyone, no one. "

" Alright baby. " And he left. Simultaneously the tears I had been holding in did too. The last time I cried was the day of the accident and now doing so I realized how much I had to cry for. For my grandpa, Seth, my own heart that broke every day for the past two years, and now my baby.

" Ahhhhh... " A scream left my mouth but I muffled it with the pillow and then there was no stopping it.

" Aaahhhhh. "

" Nooooo... "

Admist all of it, I sometime fell asleep and the next thing I know is, I'm gonna stay away from everything that hurts me. Stress is not good for my baby, he's already weak due to the juice and anything more will strip him away from me.

Harris was furious when I told him, angry at Aiden's ignorance but he held it down when I told him I don't want anyone to know. Aiden had called me while I was asleep and I didn't bother calling back.

I learned he had gone to Spain that night, leaving me a note asking me to wait for him, he had left. As if he wanted to have a reason for not helping.

Harris contacted a nutritionist and gynaecologist for me. Her reports came out the same, my baby was weak, too weak. So with the help of the nutritionist we made a diet plan to get him back to health and supposedly me too as according to Harris I'm too weak.

James, my assistant had been coming here for the past few days for things that require my attention while others things are being handled by him. I'm not working a lot and Harris supports it.

Almost a week and maybe I was really getting weak because I've been feeling better these days. The hollow still bother me but it's getting better.

" Isa. " Harris came to me just as I was going through one of the books he got me for my pregnancy.

" Yeah. "

" Aiden just landed. " While he may have gotten my attention, I wasn't ready to look at him. As much as I said I was getting over him, my heart still beats for him.

" So? "

" He might try finding you. "

" He won't. " He never did, so I don't think he will now. We've gone months without seeing each other even when we lived in the same house, so there's no way he'll search for me.

" Isa. "

" He never bothers Harris, he won't this time too. " Harris gave up, I hadn't exactly told him but I think he had guessed enough to know my relationship with Aiden.

And I don't think I need him to add more stress in my life right now.