I got home from work by a quarter past six, picked up my phone to call Jon. On a second thought, I think I will show up at his apartment.These days all I think about is Jon, what Jon is doing, what Jon is thinking, if he is thinking about me. I'm obsessed with him. And, ever since that night on his bed while Barry Allen was blasting in his television, Jon stopped resisting and stopped referring to us as a mistake. The problem is, he seldomly initiated contact. I bet he's being careful because of Max, apart from that, he is always available when I asked to see him—whether is during lunch in the middle of the day or at night whenever Max is working late. All my free time involved Jon. I fantasied about him a lot. The sex with him are over the top stuff I thought only existed in movies like All shades of Grey.I got dressed in a mini floral gown that made my breast dangle freely because I never wear a bra. As a matter of fact, I hate them. To me, a bra is a tool for victimization. l
An hour passed, and Jon hasn't arrived. Suddenly, the bedroom door's knob started rattling and it opened. I heard an unmistakable female giggle and Jon's low voice. It is so obvious that he has company. I scrambled to get dressed, but couldn't do so before Jon and a red-head woman walked inside the bedroom. She's pretty, tall, and worse, she's wearing IVD Club's foot wear from three seasons ago. We all just stood there, staring at each other, staring at me who's still completely naked. "Tessy—you scared the shit out of me," Jon said. He's not even looking scared enough as far as I'm concerned. "My doorman didn't mention you were up here."As I was about to wear one of Jon's dirty T-shirt that was laying on the floor, then I caught the girl eyeing me. It was more like in an appalling manner—an envious once-over."I guess he forgot," I hissed."I'll take my leave," the red-head said, looking helpless like a tortoise turned upside down. "You better do that," I said, pointing toward
I can see clearly that he meant what he said. I can't believe it—that this is how it will end. "Is that what you really want?" I asked in hopes for another dose of positive change. He looked at me and laughed with contempt. "Tell me something Tessy. Has this ever been about what I wanted?" "Excusez-moi", I said. "You're talking like you haven't been enjoying every second of it.""It's been fun," he said casually."Fun? Just Fun?". I can't believe it ."Of course. Fun. A blast. A time of my life," Jon said. "What else do you want from me, Tess." He looked at me with sadness in his eyes, and I noticed he didn't include the 'y' in 'Tessy'. He only calls me 'Tess' during sex. Oh my goodness! Is Jon trying to tell me something? Is this a hint for me to say the "L" word first?"I want you to want me. For more than just fun," I said looking at him with puppy-doe eyes. He sighed and shook his head, "Okay, Tess. I want you. I want you all to myself. Happy now?"Exhaustively, he ran his
I breezed along the wedding plan—adding finishing touches to the wedding plans, cross checking the guest list, surveying the venue, re-doing the same thing over again. And, returning home to Max after having sweaty, intensed sex with his best man. Honestly, I really don't know how to go about my break up with Max so I just occupy myself with the wedding arrangements. In the quest of finding a sign to wed Max or abort mission, I invited the priest who will be wedding Max and I to dinner. I didn't have anything in mind to discuss with him, I just invited him with the mindset that something will turn up and a conversation that will lead to the final conclusion about my wedding will come up, but he cancelled at the last minute. The moment the priest cancelled, I knew that I have to break up with Max, and the sooner I do it, the better for everyone, including him. Because if it isn't a sign from God, then it's a sign from the devil. This will really be a hard hit on Max, worse, he will
I arrived at Jon's apartment and I reached for the door which is slightly opened, he is on a call and I heard something that sounds like, "oh c'mon Alex."Alex? What the actual fuck! That little, tiny, scrawny, cringe worthy, pale looking human with no zero fashion taste called Alex! The Alex that walked in on me naked in my Jon's room, is the same Alex that he is on the phone with? I thought we've settled this issue? I thought we've agreed that I'm calling off the wedding. I mean, Alex isn't worthy to be Jon's other woman! I stormed into the parlor, snatched the ridiculous phone from Jon's hand and said into the phone, "bye Alex. I'm here with my man now!" "Oh c'mon Tess." Jon said casually."You promised me, Jon," I said as I tossed his phone on the couch. "Promised what?""Oh puh. . . . Pleassseee. I'm calling off the wedding. It's you and I from now on." I replied."So, what promise? Tess." He asked again.Suddenly, it dawned on me that there was never a promise. So I decided t
For some days now, I've been feeling less of myself, less of Tessy Johnson. Going to work now, it's like a burden—I wake up so late even when I go to bed early, I'm always dizzy at work especially when I stare at the monitor for too long, I'm always tired and I yawn like someone who hasn't eaten for days."What's up with you, Tessy?" Vanessa asked. She just walked into my office as she normally does when she wants to dish out juicy gossip. "I'm okay," I replied and continued with my work. "You look flush and— . . . "."Is it hot in here? It is, right?" I asked, interrupting her. I took an old magazine on my desk and started fanning myself."No it's not. You sure you're okay? You look red, she asked with a mother-like tone that reminded me of my Aunt Stephanie."Girl, I don't know. A bit tired lately." " You prolly haven't been getting enough sleep," She said. Looking at me inquisitively.Which I know it isn't true because I have been sleeping fine. Max is mostly out of the city fo
Jon kept knocking on the bathroom door. "It's everything alright in there?" he asked in a comforting voice.I came out, holding the test and I stretched out my hands to give it to him. But, he didn't take it. "What's it say?" He asked."Congratulations, Daddy," I squealed."Huh, No way". He looked bewildered."Yes way.""You're kidding. Right?" "Nope. I'm pregnant."Jon walked glumly to his bed and laid on the bed, facing upwards. I laid next to him, took his hands, and waited for more. Perhaps an embrace, a kiss, a gentle touch, a few tears or a *'I'm proud of us'* moment. "Are . . . .you sure. . . it's mine?""Yes," I said. "You know, that question is insulting and it saddens my heart. I haven't had sex with Max since—well, since forever. And you know I'm telling the truth.""Are you really sure about that? What of this month? Not once? This isn't the time to be exaggerating. Tess.""Yes. I'm completely sure," I said firmly. It is the truth. I remembered Andrew, my high school f
I walked into the office complex smiling to myself. The idea of having Jon's baby is so thrilling. I understand the shock he got from this new discovery, perhaps that's his own way of expressing happiness, and I know Jon is one of those guys that can't be controlled, but being pregnant with his child will tighten my grip around his neck. "Look who's smiling."I turned around to see Vanessa walking towards me with a bag filled with *McDonalds* and the other hand carrying two large cups of coke."Who are those for?" I asked smiling."You weren't in a good mood today, so I decided to turn up with your typical *'unhealthy fatty'* foods that cheers you up". Vanessa is really beaming with smiles and that's what I love most about her. Always playing the 'caring mother' in our relationship. I ran and hugged her tightly. "Awwwwww Tessy love. I know planning a wedding is so hard. C'mon let's go. These burgers won't eat themselves, would they?"* * * * * * * * * * * *We found our way to an ab