I just couldn't believe it. What was Jacob thinking? What was I thinking? Just because he apologized to me didn't mean he stopped breaking women's hearts en masse. I guess I got really lost in something and that because I loved him.Out of these thoughts, I sobbed out loud and would have liked to slap myself for it. What if Jacob heard me? On the other hand, I could rule that out, because otherwise he would have noticed me a few minutes ago when I had to see him with the women. If only I knew what was going on inside him! That would make so many things easier.Unfortunately, the reality was very different. She was painful to me and only because I fell in love with the biggest asshole on earth. My head knew all too well that the feelings for Jakob were totally pointless, but my heart longed for his closeness. Every fiber of my body wanted this one man and no other.It was also my own fault. I had known from the start what kind of person he was. Even then I should have taken all the nec

I walked purposefully to my apartment. Several times I had to wipe away the scalding hot tears that flowed continuously down my face. Hope Justin wasn't there. I just didn't want to talk to anyone, including him. Unfortunately I was disappointed. As soon as I set foot in my own home, the blonde ran towards me. Purely by accident of course.I actually wanted to walk past him anyway, but he gently grabbed my wrist. "Hey," he greeted me, and I just mumbled, "Hello." "Why did you run away from Jakob in the airport and why are you crying?" he asked me. It was clear that he had to squeeze me immediately and I didn't feel like it at all. Actually, I just wanted some peace and quiet, but because I knew that my roommate meant well with me, I answered his questions.We finally made ourselves comfortable in our cozy living room. Jus had been so kind as to get glasses and a bottle of raspberry juice. I thanked him with a hesitant smile, because if I liked something, it was this. "Where should I s

I was woken up in a panic. Not from another person, but from myself or rather my nightmares. I thought that I had slowly but surely overcome this phase. That's how you could be wrong. When I was suddenly wide awake, the negative feelings overwhelmed me like a torrential flood, which poured over me in the form of countless tears.It wasn't until I realized I wasn't alone that I gradually calmed down. In addition, I noticed more and more a rather disgusting smell, which was probably coming from my mouth. "Giulia?" I heard Jakob ask cautiously, whereupon I fell back into bed. Wait a minute, where the hell was I anyway? I looked around questioningly, my eyes finally stuck to the red blanket, which I had never seen before, and to the men's clothes on my body.My heartbeat then accelerated, I'm not going to...? "It's not what you think it is!" Jake said as fast as he could, pulling away from me a little bit to show me that I really hadn't slept with him. "Then please explain it to me and ab

Jacob's point of view! Eyes glassy and hazy from the cigar smoke, I stared at the amber liquid in my glass and drained it in one gulp. The next moment I heard it shatter into thousands of pieces. That didn't bother me and so I let my gaze wander over the floor as if in a trance. Yes, a few whiskey glasses have already accumulated here, as well as everything that I had found disturbing. My hope of quitting drinking was dwindling. Also, why would I stop getting a new glass only to fill it up with more whiskey and throw it at something? I would get new glasses anyway. Because I could. And I didn't know what else to do. I took a drag on my cigar and got annoyed. Actually, I had stopped with the shit, but given how shitty it was at the moment, I wasn't surprised about it. The day had started badly and since I'd received that damn message and packed my suitcase, I hadn't been up to anything anyway. I still had quite a bit of time before my flight left, nine hours and forty-seven minutes

"I'd say let's cook something first," Krystal suggested with a big smile. Crazy, apparently she had really gotten over it with Jakob more than four years ago. I wasn't surprised about that, because in Tizian she had a dream man at her side who couldn't be more the opposite of his half-brother than anyone else. Although I didn't feel like eating at all, I agreed with her. Krys then headed for the kitchen, but was stopped by her husband. He said: "Sit down with Lia, I'll cook for you". That's exactly what I meant, he was sweet and courteous, exactly what I wanted in my partner. Krystal snapped me out of my thoughts by replying, "No thanks, I want to be back in my old shape or at least be close to it, so I'm at least moving a bit". "I think your curves look great on you," Tizi complimented her charmingly. His wife, on the other hand, blushed. Wow, I didn't know her so embarrassed! That showed you all too well what love made of you. The two floated on clouds with an ease that I deeply