"...I'm exhausted...please Merri open the door..." Austin pleaded softly. He could hear Merrigold's muffled cries. It had been this way for the past hour. She would not speak or reply no matter how hard he tried. Only her bewailing could be heard from the other side. He could easily break in but he did not want to. Austin knew he would lose his temper soon enough but he did not want to hurt her. He was seemingly trying to handle this in a civil manner."...open...for...w-what reason..?" Merrigold hiccuped on her tears."Why are you crying?" Austin questioned. "You never cry, this is so unlike you. You're being a child right now. I don't understand this."After hearing that, Merrigold wiped her nose. She...did not know why she was crying either. She had been through so much and this was the one time she'd cuddle herself to bed and cry. She felt sick, her stomach was churning with rage. She felt nauseous. She was feeling so much at the same time. Hurt, nausea, confusion, dizziness, head

"So that is your ankle biter..." Austin said pointing at the little boy running with another little girl. Oh God!I have a child?I hate kids, arghh..!"My child, Austin. Yes, that is indeed my son." William corrected, taking a shot of whisky. Austin sighed, he was never one to talk much about his feelings or anything that bothered him. He was never one to display his emotions. William knew something was terrible wrong with his friend, he had not been acting like himself ever since his move from Manchester to Marlborough."Child, kid, ankle biter, brat, urchin... same comparison." Austin said hastily exhaling his cigarette in the other direction. Putting his right leg on top of the other. He kept tapping his foot on the titles."What is the matter with you?" William questioned, concerned. Austin had dark circles under his eyes, he looked as pale as a ghost... unwell. His lanky frame even more in display, for someone who cared so much for his appearance. He looked dowdy. For someone w

Dear AustinI write this to you because I'm seeking my own closure to move on and nothing else. I'm choosing to forgive you knowing you never apologized and probably never will. Only because I need my closure and sanity. You have no conscience what so ever. You have no thought process, I reckon. Meeting you was the worst thing that could have ever occurred to me. I had faith and glimmer of hope that I'd be the one. With everyone warning me, I shied away from the truth. Chose to believe they were all jealous of what we had.I'm a firm believer of Christ and that every single thing happens for a reason. Perhaps this was a test from God, I failed the minute we committed fornication. I failed, but I'm choosing to correct it all by writing to you and making peace. Walking around with hatred is a burden for my heart, with knowing that where ever you're, you do not even think of me. You do not even feel a glimpse of guilt. I might even have to include my name or you might not remember. You h

"How are you Mother?" Austin's mother stared blankly at him. "I've missed you dearly!" She sighed. "Come in." She opened the door wider letting him in. "LIONEL IS HERE WALTER!" She announced. Walking behind his mother, he saw his father reading the paper, sat comfortably on his arm chair. "Speak of the devil..." His father mumbled turning the page. "Father, I've missed you dearly infact... I thought today we'd read some scriptures together." Austin forced a smile, sitting down. His mother wanted to so badly to hate him but her heart simmered at the thought of her little boy. He made mistakes but it did not mean they should all abandon him as a family. She was only a wife and in this day and age, the head of the house made the decisions. Even when she was worried for him and needed to pay him a visit, she had to respect her husband's decisions. He spoke for everyone. "Share with me a scripture?" "This minute?" Austin chuckled nervously. "Yes, this minute!" He replied sternly no

"How is Thomas, Merri?""...uh...we're no longer together." Merrigold confessed playing with the food on her plate. Trying her best not to vomit at the smell of garlic. Austin immediately dropped his fork. Then apologized when all eyes went on him except for Merri."But why? You were both so inlove as teens..""It's for the best...for uhm the both of us.""That is so sad. Mrs Brown what do you think?""I have nothing to say Ma'am." Mrs Brown mumbled."Is there anyone that has caught your eye maybe my handsome unmarried son here?" She teased. Merrigold immediately felt bile threaten to overtake her throat."Oh mother..." Austin chuckled. "You're making her nervous."Mrs Brown immediately coughed, feeling awkward by how tense it was.Austin was trying to catch Merrigold's eye but she kept looking at her plate never up. He moved his leg under the table, purposely touching her. She flinched, knowing exactly who was sitting opposite her."Sorry.." he muttered."It's fine." She mumbled with