TW: rape Orian’s pov I didn't know how long I had been in here, minutes? Hours? I didn't know if the sun was still up or it was already retreating casting its pink glows across the sky, all I cared about is how I was in my sanctuary, alone, just me and the voices with no one else to experience what I was, the embarrassment that I was.As the voices argued trying to tell me if I was worth Amara or not, I looked at the features of my environment, marveling at my work and still being proud that I had my touch even though I haven't done this In a long time. I loved to call it my little world cause it was somewhat of an escape from reality.It was like a tent, a tent made of sheets, bed sheets. I had managed to get it together with pegs and old curtain poles just like I used to do when I was younger. I tied the ends of the bedsheets to the poles and clipped the loose openings with pegs leaving only the entrance open and then I laid pillows on the floor over the huge blanket I ha

Orian’s pov"Orian, it's okay." Soft hands cradled my face as they forced me to look at her, "Orian, she's not here, they are not here." she tried to calm me as I struggled to get back in touch with reality and I noticed that Amara was with me in my little world, "I am sorry I had to come in, you were screaming and I just had to."I bowed my head in shame knowing she witnessed me breaking down again and I moved to push out of the way to get out but she held me down."No, don't push me away again." She was stern as she held my gaze, "Let me-""I want to be alone.""Let me help you!" she half screamed stunning me with the pitch of her voice, "Running away won't solve it, neither will shutting me out." she continued, "I am here, for you, use it, use me. It's just me and you Orian, no one else, just us, no need to freak out and I am here for you.""Amara.""Shhh." She brought her finger to my lips silencing me, "I will run you a bath and you will get in, I will leave and give you privacy

Orian's pov*flashback* Exhaustion wracked through me, and the ache in my legs grew as I ascended the mountain cursing everything beneath me for my misfortune of not being able to use my wings. I was so close to going back down and forgetting everything I came here for but the rage and disappointment in Hector's voice if I did what my mind advised pushed me forward. I didn't want longer speeches on how I was an ungrateful fool on my twenty-fifth birthday.I got to the top with a sigh and dragged myself across the edge before sitting for a short rest. The entrance of the cave was already in sight with the other leaders probably inside waiting for me. I wiped the beads sweat dripping across my brow, my chest heaving while I tried to catch my breath and focusing on healing the tiny scratches I got while climbing."You are late!" His voice thundered and I got up in panic turning to see him standing behind me with his brows etched in anger and lips curled in a snarl,

Amara’s povAmara's pov I awoke with a heavier mind than I had gone to bed with, the treachery of my actions the day before tearing at my heart as the memories reeled in my head like my mind was reminding me about what I had done and how I had gone about it.Are you going to tell him? Cora was awake too, bugging me with questions we couldn't find answers to but she relied on me for answers as I had allowed us both to be snared in the webs of uncertainty having to put myself and her in a position where we had to choose between our mate and a few hours of scandalous liberation but in the end, I made my choice and I chose the later knowing how well Orian would be broken if he was ever to find out.I had my reasons, reasons I hope he would understand when the truth of my actions came to light but for now, I had to protect him from what I had done and let him bask in the sweetness of not knowing.I turned over to reach my hand out for him, self disgust filling me knowi

Amara’s povI waited with my eyes closed, the feel of his fingers around my neck and his breath tickling the skin of my ear was all I could sense as he clasped what felt like a necklace onto my neck."You can open them now." He whispered and I did as he asked me to.My eyes widened as he stepped away from me leaving me to gaze at my reflection and revel in the sight of the necklace around my neck, the vivid red diamonds contrasting my white ball gown yet complementing it in the most beautiful of ways.I could merely manage a gasp because I couldn't find my words at the magnificence of the gift and how perfectly it fits my neck, resting elegantly on my collar bone, "Thank you.""I knew it would fit you perfectly ." He walked forward and wrapped his arms around my waist and I saw him drop a kiss on my ear as he whispered, "You deserve the best, my queen."Do I? A small voice rang in my head flooding me with the guilt that I had this morning and a lump formed in my throat as I grazed my