Chapter 112My mind was foggy and my head was splitting from pain. I couldn't see much past the tears that brimmed my eyes and rolled down my cheeks endlessly leaving a salty taste on my lips as it seeped into my mouth. The air around me was tight and the small crowd of people who had gathered to console me was making it worse.My nails dug into my hair as I clenched my teeth in a desperate attempt to bite back the pain that had me in a chokehold. I had never felt this way in my life, I felt like my whole world had finally crumbled and I was about to crumble with it.There were so many voices all around me, each of them a whisper honing words of consolation, but I was far from consoled if anything I was furious.How could they expect me to 'take it easy'? To 'calm down'? To believe there was any truth in the words 'it's going to be fine'? It wasn't alright, nothing about what was happening was 'fine'."Time of death?" My mind flashed back to the doctor's voice who stood over my father

Chapter 114.I swung the door close behind me but Kathy pushed it back open. I turned to her in surprise as I wiped my eyes. I hadn't even noticed her running behind me. She stood there looking at me."Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked. "How long are you going to keep this up, Zora?" she asked, and I sat on the bed and looked away."You're making it sound like I'm doing this deliberately," I said defensively and she walked to me and slumped beside me. "Whether it's intentional or not is not what matters, what matters is that you've let your emotions drain the life out of you and now draining the life of the people you love," she said."But I can't help it, Kathy, do you think I like being like this? Do you think I don't know how tiring this is? I just can't look the other way and act like my hands are clean," I said."Except they are actually clean, you're just riding on some inexistent timeline where you murdered your father, you were going through so much at the time an

Chapter 116. I sat on the table across from Bella and Derek the sun hit against my skin as I fiddled with my cup of coffee which was going cold. We sat in awkward silence as I tried to think of something to talk about. The last time I saw Bella was when the three of us sat in the kitchen of a restaurant discussing our plans for our lives and the next thing I knew I had moved on to the modeling agency and Derek moved on with his life. Bella had always talked about wanting to open a restaurant and I wondered if she had yet. Finally deciding upon what my conversation starter would be, I opened my mouth to speak when she interrupted suddenly. "So Zora how have you been? It has been a while,” she said softly. My mind began to panic at the thought of me being the center of the conversation. “Oh, I've been all right just here and there you know,” I said dismissively as I shrugged. "How about you? How's everything been?” I asked. "Oh well we've been here and there as well, still trying

Chapter 118. I took tentative steps into the agency. Everything looked just as I had left it and different at the same time. A wave of deja Vu hit me like I had experienced this moment before as I stepped into the lobby. With each step I took I could feel eyes following my every step. The whispers got progressively louder as I moved across the hallway. I had prepped myself for the stares and the whispers but nothing prepared me for how much I'd hate it. I tried to ignore them by putting a little pep in my step. They could say whatever they liked. I didn't care. A gust of wind escaped my lungs as I felt something like a brick wall hit me from behind. "What the hell?" I exclaimed.I heard Myra's voice before I could turn around."Oh my God, Zora it's you" she squealed, her voice laced with excitement. She sounded happy to see me."You are choking me, Myra…" I coughed "Shit, I'm sorry" Myra lets go of my neck abruptly and jumps to stand in front of me. She hugged me again and I smile

Chapter 120.I struck a pose as I stood in front of the cameraman making sure to keep my eyes away from the flash as it beamed brightly and the shutter sound filled the room. I held the lotion closer to my face as I struck another pose and waited for the bright flash of light again. The camera man smiled in satisfaction as he leaned down and reached for his camera.Myra sat in a corner while a makeup artist worked on her face. She was excited that we were working on the commercial together. She had always wanted to work with me and I was also glad to have a familiar person working with me. We had mutual interests and it made agreeing on certain conditions and corrections much easier than it would have been with a stranger.But that wasn’t the only thing that made me glad, it was everything else. From the way the lotion smelled as I held it close to my face to the way the air seemed to caress the exposed parts of my skin and to the way the silk gown I wore swayed as the fan blew at it.