CHAPTER 31IRENEI had called Marcus earlier and deep down I was hoping he would be able to talk some sense into his friend.He had every right to be angry honestly speaking but the whole scenario was starting to get me as I did and never thought him as a man to be jealous about situations like this .When he had walked out I had slept in his bed,The next few hours between Marcus arriving and talking to James had felt like eternity.Eternity I had spent sniffing his clothes and pushing it against my chest, I had gotten so used to him.— so much that leaving me for those brief moments had felt like long hours.It was an addiction quite alright I would have to admit, I was addicted to having my face in his chest and sometimes with his body spooning mine and his arm around me. Always with his body pressedagainst me like he wanted to imprint his soul right into me. Always with his hands on me and his smell everywhere devouring me.I didn't know how or even when it happened, but somehow, h

CHAPTER 33IRENE POV"IT got stained."Cliche.It felt like the three words a cheating man would say, in a way I tried to imagine the type of woman he had been with or better still how his white shirt was dyed all of a sudden to blue and the only way he could explain what looked like this phenomenon was the term — Just a stain.I wasn't blameless myself, that was if he had the idea of what had happened today, it was definitely something I intended to hide to myself. Perhaps all this wouldn't be the case if I had just stayed indoor and had not ventured out but then the one hour trip to the mall had been the reason why I was actually crying , not the fucking movie like he assumed.There was only way to explain what I shared with James Fraser and while I thought it could come with a bit of affection , I was starting to sense it was a one way thing. He was a man who just needed me to fill in his sexual fantasies, at least that's what Frank had said.Frank of all people— Meeting him today

CHAPTER 35JAMES POVMy mind had never been this distracted, for a while it looked like the weight of the whole world was right there in my shoulders and I was trying so hard to get it off in any way possible.Irene—It was hard for me to think about that woman with endless possibilities —There were two ways in my mind: one part of my mind wanted all of this to work and the other part was my dark part.Everyman had a dark part but not everyone has that side hovering over them all day long.I seemed to be a part of him, for a while I had that perhaps she was the one to break the barrier.Yet again, I found myself sipping into that black hole of my subconscious mind.It was like a Hate—Love then hate again relationship and the devil ruling over this part of my mind was no one else than myself.Perhaps, all would have just gone well and the streak would have continued. If I had not seen those pictures.I then forwarded them to Marcus who did not know who the man was.Still, I had been on

JAMESTonight was one of those off nights that a man always found it hard to sleep.On my part it had something to do with a confused mind.Was I that bad a man?Loving hasn't been my thing right from the onset and most times while I had tried to show it, it all came out the wrong way.I was starting to think that I wasn't cut out for it, while for some it had been quite an experience for me it had been mythical.It took one look from her to see all that, she was almost jittering when she had seen me and in a way, I felt all bad about it because I was also speaking to Addie earlier that day.The only way I could have gotten rid of the guilt I was feeling was to walk away from everything in such a way that won't leave me looking like I was all lost and damaged.I rolled over in my bed and looked at the time on my cell phone, still unable to sleep. It was 4:30 a.m. and somehow it was looking like the white synapses of my brain were still burning active.I glanced out my bedroom window t

CHAPTER 39JAMES POVConflicted in my mind!I woke up to the blinding lights penetrating through the opened curtains. I had slept off in anger yesterday and had forgotten to shut them after making love all night with —You know who…Turning to my side, Irene was fast asleep and sprawled all over the bed. For some reason, her position made me even more angry than I already was. Memories of last night flashed through my mind as I stared at her in her natural state.Sex, which was supposed to relieve me of my stress, had turned into a rigorous activity and it was infuriating. She always made me feel sexually weak, it was weird. This was one of the things I loved about Addie, sex with her was great, too bad things didn't work out.As if on cue, my phone rang, the caller ID indicating that it was Addie. I wondered why she was calling as early as 10 am, what was this about?I lifted the phone anyways and put it to my ear while getting into my pajama slippers and exiting the room."Hello, top