Zoe’s words from our argument just keep playing over and over in my head, even several days later. “I’m tired of your shit!” “Fucking leave! But I’m staying!” “Please don’t hurt our mate!” It’s like she’s choosing him over me. She didn’t come home that night, staying with her family in their visitor cabin. When she did come home, it was strained between us. It’s not like we’ve never had an argument. We’ve been friends for our whole lives. Of course we’ve been in fights. But this is our first fight as mates. And it’s the first fight that we didn’t fix within a day of having it. I got a whole lot more vulnerable in that coffee shop than I meant to. A whole lot more vulnerable than I really realized I was feeling. I mean, I get that I’m not necessarily being all that rational about the whole being mated to Tomas thing, I completely get that. I’ve just never felt like this before. Like I might not measure up to someone else. Like I might not be good enough. I me

I haven’t been to the Goddess Realm recently because of having taking over as a beta in the Moon Goddess pack. Although I’ve been gradually taking over the job for the last two years, having it all on my shoulders has been a lot. My mates and I have also been splitting our time between Arcadia and the Artemis Territory since Jared is also a beta of the pack. And although the pack spans the entire country, the alphas, betas, gammas, and deltas of the pack have our specific territories to care for. The people and the land are things that we have to care for. If we aren’t there to understand their day to day needs, we aren’t doing anyone any good. That’s going to be something that we’ll have to figure out soon. Will we be eventually settling in Arcadia or in Artemis? Jared, Summer, and I were actually talking about that last night before bed, trying to figure the best way for us to decide. I had walked into the supernatural council meeting somewhat sick about the decision, n

You ever have your life flash before your eyes? I’ve been in so many battles, fought so many different kinds of supernatural creatures and I’ve never been as scared as I am when Zak levels me with his glare. Doesn’t help at all when I see identical glares from Brandon and Kayla. And I did this. It’s all my fault. I’ve screwed this up and fucked myself good and proper. But I can’t do anything but give them my truth. I close my eyes briefly and take a really quick breath before I look at them, allowing all of my feelings shine through. “You shouldn’t. I’ve given none of you any reason to trust me and I don’t expect it.” I lean forward, giving eye contact to each of the wolves in front of me. I don’t mean it as any type of challenge. I just need them to see the sincerity in my eyes. “But I’ll do whatever I can to make you trust me.” Kayla snorts and turns away. I can see that she is livid and is barely holding back the venom that she wants to spit out at me. Zak’s

I’m still on a high from the impromptu makeout session with Zoe. Goddess, I can’t tell you how many girls I’ve been with. I really am the fuck boy that my mates accused me of being. But it’s because I didn’t want to lose my heart to some she-wolf and then her not be my mate. I’ve seen that before with school friends and other wolves from my pack. It gets messy. And with being a warrior, someone who was constantly in life or death situations, a little stress relief was definitely needed. But I’ve never gotten so turned on or experienced anything as erotic as having Zoe Vlk in my arms. Kissing me. Rubbing herself all over me. Touching me. Fuck! I nearly came in my pants. I had wanted to touch her. Wanted to at least get her off, but we were in public and I didn’t want to let anyone else see her losing herself in pleasure. No one but Kaia. Shit, Kaia. I haven’t seen her since that day. She won’t respond to my mindlink and I know that she and Zoe have been having i

When I left Tomas’s place to go back to ours, it was the best decision that I could have made. I needed the fresh air to take away some of Tomas’s scent all around me. Being around both Tomas and Zoe was a lot more intoxicating than I thought that it would have been. If Tomas had smelled my arousal? I wouldn’t have been able to stop what would have happened. I hadn’t realized how much his presence would affect me. How much I would enjoy talking to him and just hanging out. He’s funny, sweet, conscientious, and just plain fun. But right now? Seeing him pressing Zoe to him and kissing her neck. Hearing her sweet moan. I can’t stop myself from slamming the door behind me and walking over to them. “Kaia?” Tomas asks. But that’s all he has time to say before I take his face into my hands and pull him in for a kiss. His scent of all spice surrounds me. His lips are soft and warm. His touch sends fated sparks skittering across my skin and directly to places that he has yet