Panther のすべてのチャプター: チャプター 1 - チャプター 10

After my episode at work I came to a conclusion.I needed to change tonight. I could keep pretending everything was fine as much as I wanted, but the other part of me was fighting for control inside my body and mind. It was getting harder and harder to tell it no.Today was a really close call. I didn't like feeling so out of control.I would rather change of my own free will, in a safe environment that I pick on my own. Plus, I think I might be acting so extra spazzy lately because it's been so long since I last gave in. No shit.I decided to drive out to one of the many state parks in my town on Friday after I got off work. I couldn't help moving somewhere surrounded by nature, so there were more than a few options for places to be alone in nature for a few hours. I may push down my instincts on a daily basis, but there are some things I just can't change about myself, and enjoying solitude surrounded by nature was one of those things.The drive there all I could think about was th

Despite my first instinct to wrap my arms around his tall frame and kiss his yummy looking lips, I stay where I am. Perfectly still. Watching him."I haven't seen a panther in these woods in a while." He says, his eyes roaming over my naked body. Unlike the rest of us, he's wearing clothes. I wish he weren't, and not just so I can get a show. I feel vulnerable, exposed. Which, I guess I was."I didn't know they belonged to anyone." I say, taking my time before speaking to make sure my voice was strong and unwavering. I would not show him how much he was affecting me. How I was currently daydreaming of how his large, rough looking hands would feel wrapped around my throat...Pay attention, Cleo.I nod to myself, knowing my panther is right. I'm in a potentially dangerous situation, certainly an unknown one, and it's up to me how this will go. My eyes drifted away from Ike, much to my panther's dismay, and over to Matt. His eyes were flickering between his Alpha and me, sizing the situa

I wasn't having a good time right now. Everyone is looking at us, but mostly me. I'm one hundred percent sure that the second we walk into Ike's house, the pack will immediately begin pooling together whatever info they have on me. Or think they have.As we stepped onto Ike's porch, I felt someone's eyes boring into the back of my skull. I looked over my shoulder and made eye contact with a girl, looking o be around my age. Normal height, skinny with a bony chest. She had straight black hair and mean grey eyes. She was looking at me like I had just fed her a shit pie. I sniffed the air once, narrowed my eyes at her, and scrunched up my nose in disgust. Her face flushed with anger at my childish insult. I let her see me smile before I turned around and followed Ike. I don't know what her deal is but it's obvious she already has a thing for me. I don't care about your bullshit. If I don't even know why you hate me, it must not be that important. I'm so absorbed in mulling over what just

Oh my lord.He's friend requested me. And follow requested me.I'm a grown ass woman, currently laying on my bed, grinning from ear to ear, because a guy wants to follow me on Instagram. You're in trouble. My panther teases as I scroll through the pictures on his Instagram profile. He mostly has pictures of nature, but there's a couple of selfies and a good shirtless picture of him. I stare at that one for a moment too long.That night I slept soundly for the first time in weeks. And my morning jog actually refreshed me like it was supposed to rather than wearing me out like it had been doing the past couple of weeks. I felt normal again and that made me happy. Because Ike makes you happy?"Shut it." I say as I brush through my hair in the mirror. I didn't look like I had been out drinking all night for once. My eyes looked clear and fresh, my skin looked soft and healthy. While I was feeling happier right now, it also annoyed me a little how much the mate bond affects us. I mean, I d

The man I was currently staring at had all the telltale signs of being an Alpha. I didn't know for sure, but assumed it was the friend Ike was talking about before. He was tall and strong looking, with piercing grey eyes. He had a "no bullshit" look about him. Physically, he looked to be in his fifties, with salt and pepper hair accompanied with a matching beard. Knowing how wolves aged though, he was probably... hundred eighty? Two hundred, tops. They stopped aging somewhere in their twenties, then start back up when they get to be around a hundred. Then they loosely age a year physically for every actual ten. It's a rough math, and has been known to vary, but it's a good base to go off of when trying to judge a wolves actual age."It's good to finally see you again, shit head." I watched in awe as the man walked to Ike and ruffled his hair. I would be willing to bet he's the only one allowed to touch Ike like that. I can't see him being okay with a random pack member coming up and d