All Chapters of The Sun I Followed Into the Abyss: Chapter 1 - Chapter 8

The moment my body leaned back toward the void, a sudden force yanked me back to the front.I stumbled into Victoria Chandler's arms. Before I could even steady my footing, a hard slap landed on my face."Are you out of your mind, Jordan Hurley? You'll die if you fall from here! Do you even know what it means to die?" she roared at me in a choked voice.I trembled belatedly at the realization, feeling the sharp sting on my cheek. I didn't know whether I was trembling from the fear of nearly falling or from her yelling.However, I still instinctively raised my hand, wanting to wipe away the tears in the corner of her eyes."I'm sorry, Vicky."Victoria instantly shoved my hand away. "What else do you know aside from apologizing all the time, you damn idiot?"Just then, the iron door to the rooftop was kicked open, and Mike Tate rushed in. He caught sight of the two of us and immediately paled."Are you crazy, Victoria? Why did you even bring him to a place like this? What do you

The next morning, Victoria brought me to the hospital for a follow-up. I didn't understand what the doctor said, but I saw her frowning very hard. I realized that my condition had most probably gotten worse at this point.The realization weighed heavily on my chest. I couldn't continue dragging Victoria down with me anymore. So, I waited until she left me alone as she went to get the car, and I quietly slinked out of the parking garage, turning around to run out of the hospital building.I had to succeed this time. I had to find that place they called a mental hospital, no matter what.However, I'd only just gotten to the door when I bumped into Mike. His expression turned dark as soon as he saw that I was alone. He grabbed me harshly by my arm, and it hurt so badly that I cowered in fright."Jordan Hurley! Why did you sneak out by yourself again like this? Can't you stop creating trouble for Victoria?" he gritted through his teeth. "Why is it always you? Why does it always have to

My consciousness grew faint, almost as light as a feather.This wasn't too bad either. At the very least, Victoria no longer had to worry about an idiot like me anymore.Actually, I never liked that word.It made me feel suffocated every time I heard someone call me that, but I never dared show it. I didn't want her to feel even sadder just because she saw me upset.Once, she took me out for a walk, and a group of mischievous kids mocked the way I waddled as I walked, calling me a "stupid idiot" the entire time. Victoria became furious, rushed at them, and chased them away in a rage.She also came back to comfort me, telling me not to take the kids' words to heart. However, on the way back, I realized that her eyes were red-rimmed. After that incident, she rarely ever brought me out to crowded places again.I knew that it was because she was ashamed of me."Blood oxygen levels are still dropping…""Prepare the epinephrine for resuscitation!"Some voices came from a distance, b

Mike continued, "On top of that, Jordan's death doesn't even have anything to do with you anyway!""How could it have nothing to do with me?" Victoria snapped, suddenly looking at him with red eyes. "If I had never locked him up in that place, if I had never chained him up by his ankles, he would have been able to escape when that fire broke out!"I was the one who caused his death!"I hovered over her anxiously when she said that. "It's not your fault, Vicky. Please don't blame yourself for it."Then, I looked at Mike angrily and said, "It's he who should be sorry! He was the one who directly caused my death!"However, my voice was like a breath against the surface of water, barely making any ripples.What was the point of saying all this anymore anyway? So what if Victoria finally found out about the truth? It would only give her more things to worry about.I had an inkling that I was still lingering in this world after my death, not in the underworld, because of her guilt and